In life, there are questions about death, but in death there are NO questions about life. The discipline applied by this statement comes from the distinction of order that influences the essence of all behaviors for this life; it ascends from "what is next". In death order descends as "please, let there be NO more". The questions of death: what happens, that steals your life away/ what "happens in the box"/ what will happen "to me"/ & how does eternity happen, for me?

The relationship we hold as life is literally as energy & thought. In simple concepts, it is not more complex that this; for today it is enough. Thereby the question defined as the end of body & mind is simply the end of organized energy/ you have lost control between the various organisms that populate your body to present you with life. These can no longer, "get along"/ the necessary harmony is broken.

The question of death then becomes: what is thought, how do I inhabit this experience, how do I exist as eternity? Here the body is described irrelevant, death took it with the mind. Life exists within the body ( you are not part of the organisms that populate your body), you are beyond these things/ because thought contains the ability to proceed beyond. As such, you exist in the identity called soul, or at least human/ until you choose differently. The body and mind are your time. Only human emotion in the living, is tied to someone else's body, as a means of identifying its time/ a dead body is as nothing. Beyond body/ thereby beyond death, the expansion of primary experience within the destiny called thought, reflects the decision that becomes the experience called you. Essential to this beginning is the RESPECT NECESSARY for your own life to discover your own existence, as that is the honor of life itself.

You must understand well, the reality & truth of each of these participants BEFORE an invitation can "become alive in you"/ to proceed beyond time while in the body. These are: RESPECT, LIFE, EXISTENCE, & HONOR. As such you will be helped as follows: RESPECT IS THE TRUE DESTINY, and as such becomes the journey of your life here. If you fail to attain "enough respect"/ then you die, or are destroyed when time ends for you. Life is the distance that you must travel to assemble the foundation, and design the integrity of your identity. Those who die very young, "are GOD'S child": no more can be said. All others MUST accept their responsibility to do the best they can. If you fail the test of fundamental responsibility, then you have NO love. Therefore you shall NOT enter into eternity as life. Existence is the disciplined earned/ where freedom teaches only the need & demand for knowledge. Freedom is the experience of love as it refines existence into life itself. Love demonstrates and contains the values of life. Be grateful for your experience in the blessings of life; these are your passport into the beauty of all that is eternity. If you cannot be grateful for "happy things"/ then how can you be in harmony with better things: reality would fail in you. You shall not come.

Honor ascends from SOUL, it means you have decided to join the miracle of living experience, and found in truth, the basis for BELIEVING IN MIRACLES. Honor listens, soul "speaks" and life becomes shared. {speaks is a spiritual term/ NOT, a verbal, mental, or imaginary anything}. If spirit acknowledges you, you will simply know, no guessing involved. The existence of thought discusses a very wide range of potential disasters for you/ and we will not discuss it further.

As to eternity, it is our reality; that you MUST enter within the energy that is leaving your body in death. IF you refuse "the ring of fire", and do not enter therein, you will be forever lost, completely without, until order has evaporated from you.

This is certain to generate considerable ridicule and "disgrace"/ how dare he, speak like this. Therefore a beginning is added. Thought is in part, the direction a decision shall go. If you fail to accept the discipline of a decision/ then you are lost & the energy of your life will never return. The visual sign of "a portal in the midst of fire" is an example of definition which you shall understand: you cannot enter the portal without entering the fire. The fire shall consume from you all that is not absolute truth/ thereby leaving you with all that eternity can endure.

Thought is NOT a part or parcel or particle of energy: they are completely separate/ but do NEED each other for order to exist, and form life or sustain it. In the evidence of life, you can examine all order and find thought/ you can examine all life and find energy/ you can discover the essence of miracles arise from both. If you participate in respect, this destiny will reveal soul; and soul will honor eternity as the existence of YOU.

The bible suggests, "it is harder for a rich man or woman to enter heaven, than a camel to go through the eye of a needle". Or more simply, if you will not share your life, and all that has value to you/ then GOD will "leave you": for you have NO place in harmony or love. It is love alone "that remembers us, in time or eternity". If you have NO love of your own, even though you are loved/ you will be forgotten, in death. It is clear, certain, & sure that humanity "loves" the body & mind. It is equally clear, certain, & sure this is not enough/ only thought ascends beyond time as your truth [intellect or IQ is irrelevant]. Only love is invited to belong in harmony to the environment of thought, which belongs to GOD !

BE CAREFUL HOW YOU HEAR.

The difference between life, death (as body & mind) & death as hades is: the consequence called truth.

What is true and in harmony with all the laws of the universe, is LIFE ETERNAL. Truth cannot be changed/ unless it exists in time. Death is the end of time, therefore truth exists, but cannot be changed. Therefore do NOT pray for the dead/ their opportunity for change has ended; it is too late. Hades is the destiny called DISRESPECT/ a consequence & fate of what order rejects as lost, unnecessary, or unwise, and is destroyed "As GOD Sees fit".

Life itself is complex! Therefore to sustain your own identity within an environment far more complex than you, it is essential that you understand the truth that is you. Failure to do this, not only limits the possibilities of your eternity, it is disrespectful, and demands "unnecessary mercy". The reality of human experience as intended, extracts the necessary details of your basic decisions, and gives you proof, of who you are/ this then you may accept or change. If you deny, then you will die/ because this is a liar in you, listen to the truth. Learn the difference. Life really is "about you", because you are a distinct element within the translation & boundaries of life itself. To a degree, our entire humanity is "a bit like the periodic table of elements" : we are, "the possibilities"

GOD IS THE CREATOR!

And we are then the inheritors of HIS WORK: No death required.

The question of eternity fundamentally is: WILL YOU turn away from the evidence of miracles, and discard your life for time? Freedom means; you can, as simple as that. The alternative to simplicity is, the formation of a desire to ascend beyond this life, grasping from truth an existence achieved through discipline & order; that becomes translated in thought, as the decision for life. Here life says, an identity must form/ a truth must be completed/ and honor must exist: OR a relationship cannot be formed. Relationship means, the friendship learned and accepted within the existence of HARMONY. Harmony means simply; we shared, because we cared. No kidding, a reality & truth revealed in you. [there is a difference between UNNECESSARY, and the consequence called HARSH].

SOUL is the conception of a relationship with life that you choose to join/ by ONLY ONE RULE: LOVE DECIDES! SOUL is "the gatekeeper" or "owner of the door to eternity", if you fail to enter you die/ LOVE decides. SPIRIT is the essence of a relationship with GOD ! Prayer & SOUL, must act together, or you cannot enter here/ but you may still enter heaven. Life is an opportunity designed by your environment & influenced by your abilities. It is a decision within the essence of your reality & assigned by your truth, is a direction that assembles the relationship your experience shall encounter. Among the tremendous & vast definitions of thought, humanities is: the potential to be "Sons & Daughters Of GOD HIMSELF" !!!!!!!!!!

An expression beyond worldly description.

In answer to your question: My SOUL, My SPIRIT, and my life all write together, as one.

GOOD PRAYERS TO YOU.

The existence of man & woman, MUST be held in reverence and respect by BOTH! It is clear & certain, that we are not only good for each other/ but necessary to each other for health & happiness & hope. Although some lives will always be "confiscated, by greater needs": society itself is determined IN PEACE, by the simple expressions of man to woman/ and woman to man. Therein what is sexual, participates as a foundation for peace or war.

The consequence of this as a truth, develops the critical question: HOW does our relationships with each other go WRONG? The answers are largely discussed in these documents/ but here below, the beginning arguments are raised: so that "you may talk more candidly with each other". They start as follows:

As a man, talking to a woman/ there are often moments where words have ended "for a short time/ for various reasons". Therein the question erupts, should you continue "looking at her face": if you do, either you are romantically inclined or involved, and invited to do so by her/ OR you could easily be some kind of pervert or stalker of some sort, and therein a threat "and a disease". As a man, UNLESS it is by mutual agreed romance, we are NOT allowed to continue looking at a face, without penalty. If we look away, then we are distracted (not appreciating you), and a failure of some sort/ not worthy of romance/ or simply discarded as "the trash". If we raise our glance to "the ceiling"/ then we are weirdo's. But if we lower our glance, then we stare at the chest or body, and are again: "Freaks or perverts/ or assassins" that only want one thing: lust of some kind.

The reality is, and as is constantly presented in media: that women want men to be "simple-minded" toward them. They WANT a switch, to "turn men on or off/ tempt or not tempt/ buy or not buy." The purpose here, is a behavior seen many times in men. That purpose is: "let me be cheap"/ let me do virtually nothing/ and let you do exactly what I want you to do to me.

The women WILL reply, "men taught us this", and it is true. The women will reply, "men can be little more than animals, and we must have a fence, to keep the predators away", and it is true. The women will reply, "we cannot know what is inside the mind, and the price is too high/ if we are wrong."

Therefore the question of peace in this scenario is: because men have superior strength, & the ability to fight much better/ HOW then do we as men allow women to be at ease? Those who would fight for the sake of women, MUST lead the way.

WOMEN decide who can be trusted, by exchanging detailed information/ on those they don't want to keep: "This is what he is like". By group analysis, men are then diagnosed, and assigned a designated role, by women in their group. This is their method/ and in small settings, it works well. But we are now, very many people/ and this only works in small groups. Men gather in groups & then armies to protect themselves from the superior strength of other men. Women gather themselves in smaller groups, with far more diversity to investigate, examine, and discover the individual strengths and weaknesses of specific men.

THE QUEST, FOR A WORLD AT PEACE, begins here: HOW DO we limit and control superior strength? The answer begins as freedom in government/ rather than freedom through government: or more clearly "WE THE PEOPLE"! Secondary, but equally important: HOW do we control governments of superior strength? THE ANSWER IS: WE THE WORLD, DO DECREE! And enforce, NOT by actions against nations/ but actions against leaders! When you remove the leadership, the military fails: UNLESS hunger and poverty unite them. Therefore all must share.

As to the foundation of all human society: the relationship between man and woman, we MUST achieve an environment where women are equal in strength to men. That they may NOT fear, and thereby use methods that become abusive. Sex, as a "competition MUST end"!

To do that, it must not be seen as a "goal, a reward, or a trophy"/ to do that, it must NOT be considered as a possession or ownership of either one. A warning, the end of competition "or the games for sex"/ will cause short term depression in many.

When or if, women take control of sex/ the competition of men will end. As to superior strength/ reality says, it appears certain women have far superior strength as stamina sexually, than men: "Whose balls, are not allowed to retreat/ thereby men can be raped as well". It is only the fact that "men can quit, or retreat, that allows them sexual impunity": this can now be eliminated. But that is not an invitation to "gang rape men". As all accomplished fighters know, "you only need to let the opponent wear himself out, and get weak/ then you do control the fight and the ending." This then can be used "to equalize the reality". By producing the evidence in simple terms, "we can make sex Unpleasant for you too/ we can make you fear it". To that basic reality, it may be necessary to divide the court in sexual matters, to let the women decide against the men/ and the men decide against the women as to punishment: NOT the decision yes or not/ but the punishment itself.

The question of life here, WHERE is the honor in controlling each other? The answer of life, ACCEPT truth and give each other the RESPECT OF EQUALS: be then as kind and compassionate as possible/ but be honest and search for justice. WHAT IS BEAUTIFUL, Is the freedom that blossoms into a blessing for us all!

I tell you the truth, we MUST "fix our reality" or we will die/ even as a world. That consequence is NEW methods, and a NEW reality. We are TOO MANY for any other way/ we must fix all these problems, that your lies across the world have created, and now threaten our very existence: investigate, examine, and decide! BUT KNOW THIS: if you continue to lie, or even gamble/ it is your life and nothing less that you hold before the executioner.

The question is, WHY do people become animals, and leave humanity to be as predator or prey? The answer is quite simple: they choose to abandon complexity, for the expressions of fear, & hate. Therein life is as simple as the excitement of an action/ reaction. This is a foundation built upon the very simple premise: "that I need NOT choose my destiny, it is forced upon me; thereby, I am innocent of the consequences."

THIS IGNORANCE AND BLASPHEMY, is in turn the subtle supposition "that GOD Made me do what I do, and fate controls all my decisions": therefore I am not responsible for myself or my actions/ reactions/ or purposes. "I am then FREE", to do anything I like. This in turn generates the "voice inside"/ as reality turns to convict and truth demands an answer, from your life for the things you have done/ and your choice is to create LIES. Every action is then determined by the expressions assigned to you, by fear. Every reaction dedicated to the displacement of fear, as hatred: instead of repentance, "the demand to fight with GOD ". HOW FOOLISH YOU ARE.

This as a consequence forms the foundations of ignorance: "I DON'T, want to know"/ so I refuse to learn, & hide in failure to prove I cannot: therefore I cannot be judged. This is a stupidity born of violence/ the demand to "kill what has value, to keep it from revealing what has not". This too, is beyond belief/ that you could be so completely without understanding. The basic premise of an animal is, "this is NOT my fault, I was born this way"! The basic foundation of a human life is: I/ we have a right to choose, and the obligation to accept the honor given to us: this is a respect for you. The question is then why would you choose to be an animal/ when you are fully equipped to understand easily: "YOU can be more than humanity"? The critical question becomes: why do people fear GOD ?

The answer understands the basic relationship of life to existence and energy, and states: this is "too much for me to bear/ I cannot accept the courage required: please let me die"! Please accept my apology, and let me be an animal instead. Thereby the critical question of fear, is assigned by cowardice. While the fundamental question of hate, is found to be: let NO human see me as this/ instead of humility, I will form hate/ to hide behind the cover of darkness. Fear and hate are both, the prisoners of cowardice, and do form all the failures of man & woman.

The question of life is: HOW can cowardice be defeated, & reality prove even YOU, can stand?

The truth of Our GOD Is love beyond measure, read John 3: 16 of the Bible and believe it is true. The reality placed upon our lives by experience and our need to learn is however, a relationship that does not accept tears: what will be, will be! So then, there are two clear signs in life: one of love and miracles/ and one of death & pain & loss, without apparent compassion. These are opposites, but they influence our lives equally: it is a balance, that demands a decision by each one. The fundamental experience of life is thereby: WHY, is our own decision so intensely important?

The answer is, "because we could contaminate GOD'S WORLD / therefore we must PROVE, we are worthy of this risk. {it is the same as expecting a worker to understand his or her job/ before you give them the possibility to wreck everything you built: it is FAIR}. As to our decision, everything necessary to choose love and life is here, for you to grasp and desire. Only the consequence of reality as it changes & confronts our world causes upheaval and the resultant fears. The question: WHY IS THAT necessary? Is fundamentally answered: because energy is the foundation of life, and energy has NO tears! We must choose to deal with it, ON ITS OWN TERMS! That does mean, along with all good things, reality demands: you must accept authority to rule over energy. Truth states: authority means, " disciplined, orderly, respectful, honest, and honorable. Because there is work required of you for life, "part-time", to keep the energy "abiding in the laws of the universe".

The critical question of humanity then shifts, to will you do your work? Or will you fail? If you will fail, but have love/ then heaven is for you. You will there be valued and protected/ but NOT honored or respected. If you can do this work, then you are and will be called a "TRUE child of GOD".

The consequence of cowardice is beneath heaven/ the decision of hate, is the expulsion beyond GOD'S WORLD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What then is courage? The answer accepts truth as the discipline of order/ and order as the strength of LAW (of the universe). It is then law that confronts energy, and courage that accepts the wisdom of "being perfect in the law". If you do your work as reality, the law will provide/ and therein there is NO reason to fear! If however you refuse to obey the laws of the universe/ then YOU DO have every cause to be afraid. It is that simple.

What then is death, for it goes beyond fear/ to descend past existence, to the very elements of which we were made? The answer understands: the body & time are separated from life. For life is about the energy, and the order, and the law. Time is a beginning/ death is an ending/ but life itself is about the expansion of time beyond its boundaries and border, as it ascends to the miracles & grace of our own creation. Creation means: "The seed of life, from which we grow". We cannot discuss this further/ you are too corrupt!

Even so, I cannot give you courage/ I can only truly witness to the life JESUS Lived for us; to give us courage. And therein help you understand, as JESUS HIMSELF Has taught me to give to you this message. Reality knows this statement will cause a "storm of conflict"/ but it is nonetheless true. If the words in these documents do not convince you/ then more words are useless, and will NOT be given.

The question of WHY, must we work? Is simply an honor and a respect for our own BENEFIT. WE are here, then "in eternity" literally as children of GOD." It is our duty, to learn as GOD Teaches us. It is also FAIR, that we should "work for our environment, our family, and our lives." these things are then "seeds planted in you"/ do you desire to grow: then PRAY much. No one can stop you, only your own honor and your own respect are required of you/ LOVE ALWAYS, follows these things.

There is NO cause to "Fear GOD" We are truly loved. Instead FEAR YOURSELVES/ because today the games will stop, and you will choose: to be judge, OR to be RESPECTFUL! It is one or the other. If you are judge, then you SHALL BE "In charge of life on earth/ wherein EVERY mistake you make will HAVE REAL consequences/ no more games/ no more mercy/ and NO more life. With mercy removed/ there will be NO more death either/ instead only the intensity of your terrors will be multiplied, the reality of your truth will be HORRENDOUS. You would not believe it, even if you were told.

RESPECT comes with duty, responsibility, & work: that you may find your HONOR.

The consequence of human freedom, and the curse of true human suffering are the same: YOU or the others who preceded you/ have chosen your truth. Reality then decides who loses, or who gains. Freedom itself is NOT wrong. Rather all freedom comes with responsibility, and every truth has a consequence. Therefore you must learn respect. If you do not/ then honor dies. Life begins as respect, do not confuse it with freedom. Humanity begins as your decision, and participates as your direction & purpose. Try NOT to let the few CURSE the majority anymore. You are worse than little children in your understanding of life, truth, & reality. YOU ARE idolater's / constantly worshiping your ability to ridicule each other, and enslave the world itself: this is said of ALL humanity.

YOU WILL STOP THIS

OR

YOU WILL BE FORCED, TO ACCEPT THE FATE YOU CHOSE!!!!!!

Every day, we experience the truth that things & people exist, that can take, damage, or destroy our lives: this physical reality of body or mind, even sanity. The consequence is a disintegration in trust from one human to another/ one sex to another/ & your life to its eternity. The question of life, is the honesty you choose to accept by or from the definitions these very things create in your heart, and form from or within the disciplines of your mind or soul. The relationship we share is designed by your interpretation of danger. The honor I or we or you cherish, is expressed through the foundations we build upon in our own searches for strength, trust, & truth. If you are wise, then you know truth comes first!

Truth requires the existence of an understanding derived from the existence of reality & the expression of energy. In human definitions, truth is established through the evidence of time, the motion & direction of behaviors, & the patterned relationship of a purpose & a passion chosen from " love, lies, or hate". Therefore truth is a complex assembly of participants, when then solidify as a reality formed in time, but demonstrated as the basis of a new creation. Creation means, confined to an existence, controlled by the meaning of its own truths. Thereby this time, is in evidence a relationship conceived through time as a dimension in energy, SLOWED as if an environment protected. The truth is: energy here, functions at a chemical state/ rather than a simple atomic scale: the difference between a chemical bomb & a atomic bomb.

Is this an "accident"? It is NOT/ rather the evidence called ORDER & DISCIPLINE establish a developmental state of functional environment that proves: not only does creation exist/ but Our CREATOR As well.

Because life has been created for and in us/ the truth & the evidence demand: there is a purpose to this consequence & the reality of our existence. Therefore the question arises: WHY do we exist, & WHY are there threats to our lives, & WHAT is life, that we have a beginning and an end. Here as humanity!

A threat is the assumption of an understanding that then conceives of an outcome, wherein at least the possibility of a decision is actively sought. Thereby threat, is our indoctrination to the existence of pathways within which we may enter the existence of an alternative probability/ IF we can experience thought as the predecessor of life: in a new dimension conceived through the relationship and meaning truth uses to define our world. Here in simple terms: the use of credible evidence to cause our existence to comprehend & participate in the definitions of thought/ are preliminary to the functions of altering your relationship with time. To confront & realize your opportunities as thought. In its conceptions from "base elements"/ to a world BEYOND all that time can measure. The relationship of life to thought, is then completed when the path beyond time has become eternity, because thought NOW control the energy and its reality in its complex definitions through LAW.

LAW is the essence of truth! That must then be recognized as its beginning/ therefore the foundation, strength, & LIFE OF ALL CREATION.

LAW

conceives of and recognizes the identity of OUR

CREATOR !!!

And therein explains: "The womb" that is our earth, IS dedicated to those who seek eternity & find RESPECT, LOVE, LIFE, AND MERCY!

Even if, you find respect, love, & life: without mercy, you shall NOT enter eternity as life. Heaven is different, and you will be welcomed with these/ but it is not eternity: BUT IT IS LOVELY.

The lesson herein: DO NOT FEAR, instead journey toward the compositions & complexity of life, by examining truth/ completing the "basic elements" of honor, discipline, honesty, and ALL the rest. Then, you shall enter the environments of "pure law"/ the spirit that teaches eternity.

DO YOUR BEST, WHY, should you die?

These things are simply "a mother's milk": grow up and learn, as best YOU can. Do not "compare or measure yourself" with the others/ they are irrelevant to your eternity: they don't matter/ mercy does not decide your fate, based upon their lives: only YOURS.

Of the stories in ancient history, that could represent a prophecy/ the two that stand out to me, are in the historical account of the Hebrew people (the old testament). Although this may sound like a religious statement, it is not. Instead, it reads to me as a description of man/ and his quest to understand & survive life. The old testament is as accurate a statement of this time in humanity, as we have/ therefore it is important. And I am led by the SPIRIT inside, to study this one occasionally.

The consequence of my position in delivering this message to you: the very proud and WANTING! Identifies the probability, that like the 3 men who were thrown in the furnace of fire: it is likely that my life too, will be confronted by the severity of your destiny disturbed/ even though you are headed directly to hell. The 3 men in this time, represent "man/ woman/ & sex". Because these are being changed. The fire simply the intensity of people who want to destroy anything that changes their own perception of the world. "The fourth, image of life, in the fire"/ a spirit, that either protects me as it did them/ or I die to this humanity.

Are you not upset, that all your plans & expectations are devoured/ BY YOUR OWN pride, want, & willingness to accept & follow lies? It is clear & certain you will be. the question is then: will truth lead you to a new & better life/ OR will want/ pride/ selfishness/ and power open the door to hell, and push you inside? We must all wait to see the answer.

The story of Jonah inside, with the digestive juices of the whale/ DOES describe, "what I HOPE shall NOT occur to this body". I am given to all women, I have no choice in this/ and if mobbed, the potential of "feeling like Jonah" clearly exists. It is NOT a pleasant thought. THIS is not, a statement of "how attractive I am, or whatever else". This comes from an understanding of humanity, and their constant & aggressive competition to control anything of value/ that the others might want. I DO have some value/ DO WOMEN have enough respect, for my life to keep me alive? Can you control those who don't?

The issue of control therein reflects the consequence of my becoming your tool/ your sign in reality, defining your hidden thoughts as women. Control is the necessary expression of a discipline used to protect what has value/ from the things & people who have NO respect for that value. Even if they whine, weep, tempt, & carry on as if they do. Respect is in evidence when the WORK says: "This one cares". Those without respect only want/ and even if they work, it has nothing to do with the true values of life. The work is simply to attain the goal of "winner". Winner means: without dignity or desire, the others are abandoned so that I, "can claim to be a god", over them. This is apathy toward life, the lack of a true soul/ and the beginning of descent as personal creation is abandoned: for momentary excess.

If woman will keep me alive & useful to her/ she must also protect me from "the games, and those who play them" or I could easily die. The choice is yours/ I have become a tool, and honestly have NO say. Reality knows in a world of 3 and a half billion females/ there really is, NO PLACE to hide or run or refuse. I HAVE literally become yours. Not "a simple happy thought"/ but a reality.

Still, absolutely NO CLUE, How to survive this fact/ or if that's realistic. GOD DECIDES!

I DO understand, because WOMEN shall now rule this world/ they must learn HOW to control, and share and care; for the last few resources on earth {you cannot just lock them up/ life needs them}. I am thereby clearly the lesson/ and the preliminary trials & error, for your education in this matter. The world is depending on you/ you must learn how to share & care; amidst the turmoil of competing interests. This is absolutely necessary to survival.

I will just simply do the best I can for you/ that's all I can do: irregardless of whatever it is that life brings next. I have no expectations, I live instead.

This body MUST also learn HOW to survive the inside consequence of my new reality/ that is my job. To establish this as fact, a few days ago: "My tits/ chest/ breasts/ or whatever you wish to call them, felt distinctly like they needed to be touched. So I complied, which then IMMEDIATELY sent a tsunami wave of chemicals from them upward to the "top of my skull". KNOCKING ME OUT, me an hour or two/ it was very intense and impressive, as to the power of this effect. NEVER experienced anything like it.

Throughout what was probably the third hour after being hit with these chemicals, as it was dissipating through the front of my body on down to the heels of my feet: for the first time in my life, I felt "like a girl" (wider ass included). Can't explain it/ just plain felt like a girl, but not a woman (can't explain that either). Also felt by the fourth hour, like I had gotten a chemical castration. As the chemicals calmed down, "male returned"/ I then grabbed the penis "a, are you still alive down there" question? It was completely limp & lifeless, but them I remembered: it simply does not respond or listen to anything "male from my mind" anymore. The penis came back to what has become normal sometime later.

Any you think life is changing for you/ life is changing here too.

Still saying "wow, not a pleasant experience", days later.

With new chemicals inside, life "feels different"/ seem to have a new part to my brain, I never new existed. I am done writing, at least until all the participants inside this body and mind are again, doing better. It is a complicated experience, the mind is "more than a little dazed" and I need not explain it to you/ instead I simply must find a way to deal with these chemicals; "tits, are apparently dangerous to men". They have changed into little chemical factories/ and we don't get along. Apparently I do have to explain it to you. At any rate, the nipples are harder, sensitive, and filled with chemicals/ as are the tits. These chemicals are the same as the ones that knocked me completely out, and a few hours later when compelled to touch them again drugged me badly for hours. Once touched, had to lay down in 5 minutes/ couldn't move in 10. Very near to a headache but not quite, the penis completely unaffected: a very unfortunate side effect. A "perfect date rape drug". This is not fun, the body is now "itchy and thirsty as well". The mind is less male/ but not female. I am an extremist as to my own determination to understand life, always have been: life is one way or the other, there is no middle ground in my existence/ and will never be until a miracle makes it clear: things have changed. An unfortunate side effect of the new chemicals is however, "the spirit of a woman inside"/ although she has not written anything until now: there is a little war going on over these few words. Added to that, has been a clear image of "a ring of pretty pink flowers wrapped around the base of my male parts/ with pretty little pink ribbons attached elsewhere". Masculine it is not, and if that wasn't enough, "I have been leaking on an off for 3 to 4 days, not piss". Today is February 24, 2006. And the calendar says, "its flag day"/ not a good sign. Does this sound like I am "trying to get into your pants"/ the answer is no, it is simply my reality.

This chest or tits are a "lesson in the potential lives of women"/ they are dramatic little companions, more so than I would have believed possible. For men sexual parts are a simple a +b+c=d kind of experience. Maybe its me, but tits are not like that at all, since changing, they are a little smaller, more compact/ sometimes a little fiery, and sometimes don't care too much/ they even have an effect that seems just unnecessary. But I never have a clue what is coming next. Sometimes the chemicals can easily control this body, and sometimes I am cautiously optimistic they don't care too. I do have to wonder is this what being a woman with tits is really like? If so, I should have done more, the tears are more physical than expected.

I honestly cannot even begin to say, how strange this all is; as to "the woman inside", or what an extreme surprise. Neither can I make excuses for the words/ they are simply how it is, in my life. This is obviously not an attempt to influence your decisions/ this is a clear method of disinfecting the consequence of a message that contains deliberate thought that encompasses the truths that men and women have longed to know and searched for/ but did not find. The fact that I deliver the message is not "something beyond human"/ do you not see the humanity, even if it a little bit different. I am just a plain man, with consequences and experiences a little beyond the normal person/ that's all. Unlike most, I personally just follow the truth, wherever it leads. This is different/ but truly I just follow the truth, "wherever it leads/ that is about life or eternity with GOD". It is true, my life could have been a "little easier, or more successful in common terms"/ but YOURS could have been, or could still be: far beyond anything you expect. I will not change, my life has been worth the price. Whatever the future holds, I will pay it.

It is apparent and real, that some minimal explanation of spirituality must be discussed. If is FAR more dangerous than it will sound! DO THEN, understand the difference between fantasy & reality/ is as great on the side of lies: as the difference between spirit and reality are on the side of truth/ only far more so: for it is the very evidence called truth itself. You may translate these differences as the journey that exceeds our human reality, and joins either lie or truth.

This is NOT a safe experience, it is quite dangerous/ as whatever is not truth in you shall be slain. While if you journey into lies and fail, you will become the lies they are. Dead.

By the addition of simple descriptions, you may comprehend basic parameters of what an introduction to spirit means. Therefore: we begin in the simple and true words "OUR CREATORS FOOTPRINTS" are all around us. In everything we are/ everything GOOD, in every way! The question is then: "Can we track HIM" , to see and find OUR FATHER / in this place called time?

The answer is definitely NO! We cannot.

Even so, there have been people who clearly knew GOD very well. The MOST IMPORTANT of these by far, has been proven to me, To be THE LIFE OF JESUS . No question at all, HE is the one. [you may believe whatever you wish] this is my belief. Fortunately we do have a few details of his life, and some insight to his thought patterns, and his behaviors. Therefore the path that HE took, to become a part of Our FATHERS LIFE/ OUR CREATORS LIFE, does then clearly exist in the consequence that was his life in time.

Every human being "leaves a shadow on the land"/ that means: the development of an understanding comes from "walking a step behind, in respect & silence". This is not the same as walking in the shadows, trying desperately to steal. Instead, it is living the same life/ but certainly NOT, as the same person. This is a path dedicated to the relationships comprehended as thought patterns, & basic life choices that blend past & future together/ because we as humanity have not changed.

As to spirituality, truth will participate "as the invisible man, woman, or child",, and give reference within the realization of an understanding to the example called a "mirrored image/ NOT visual": not you or me either, we are the invisible! If you attain knowledge, work for understanding, accept the demands and price of truth/ then you will be able to apply yourself to the path "your teacher" has revealed. TRUTH will then become a relationship with past & future/ that only wisdom can reveal. Wisdom is searched for inside your soul, and can be found no where else.

As to the questions applied by "the woman in me"/ in reality, I found myself a part of Revelation 12 a woman here/ but NOT a woman in life! Therefore I did begin searching for the reality of what did this mean? I did "open a door"/ and much to my surprise instead of entering "if you can hear it/ this spirit of woman came out, and found a door in me, to become a part of my life". I have no say in the spirit world/ but would not refuse whatever GOD would have me to be.

"We" are still trying to work this out/ but because it is a prophecy that has or is coming true, the reality is not yet clear. The possibility of understanding here by the definitions of humanity are very poor. The reality of teaching, a long and necessary process. Instead we will end this discussion with more definite conclusions. No doubt because it is your need/ the woman inside controls only what is sexual or sexually related in me. What is man is everything else; it seems apparent sexuality is coming. Even so/ truth knows this as for me, is going to be far more complicated than that. There are no fears/ or expectations. I do belong to GOD And HE DECIDES . I WILL do my best For HIM.

I have no more than that. Try not to delve into spirituality with common human passions/ it will just get you into trouble or get you killed. Don't follow the idiots who say "we know"/ they don't. Instead if you will be spiritual/ then you must do the work, and spend your life searching for truth and for GOD by the paths we choose. If you do this with your soul, you will find answers/ and by your truth and wisdom, the others may know you have learned. GOD BLESS YOU.