"I", is a derivative of truth, meaning: to achieve the distinction of a parallel existence, as separated from the identity of life itself. This concentrates the terms of balance into 3 distinct categories: "I/ we/ & life itself". Every I, begins as a measurement in time/ but not of time. Measurement comes then to mean "a separate environment"/ thereby independent if not free.

The identity applied as life itself does initiate "We"; as reality proves an independent environment is not life by itself. Therefore what bridges the gap is a description of life called SPIRIT. Elemental to the honesty of our lives is the need to search for spirit, and the essences of life itself. In this endeavor, the most critical asset you need to understand is: there can be NO sacrifices, NO violence, NO simple answers, NO suicidal possibilities/ all is learned the hard way. In my life years ago/ I was confronted with an image, in my own search for spirituality. Confident & without fear, I investigated correctly, "to find the source of its existence and power to approach my life"/ it was a lie, and I turned away. But while I did so, it then said to me quote, "the false teeth I had, defiled the temple that is my body/ and did not belong"? IT WAS NOT TRUE, your body and mind belongs to you. The image was indeed generated by my own apparent indecision regarding this matter/ the consequence became " I took the false teeth out/ didn't want to be wrong about this". Therein my reality changed; I was/ or more correctly became WRONG. And the consequence, had to REBUILD all over again. The issue to be discussed "worried that I could be wrong/ became made me wrong; because fear controlled the outcome. Therefore let your life be understood by you, as love/ and where questions exist, NEVER accept sacrifice, fear, the potential of suicide, or anything but the truth. Here is the second question: what is truth/ if you don't know? The answer is a question that must be examined in detail and held as separate and without merit, until reality teaches you clearly, and with evidence how you should believe. The lesson involved in this simply, that all "mental images, illusion, so-called demons or possession, etc," are in fact merely the evidence of your own demand to solve the puzzle of who you desire to be {OR they exist as the evidence you are going in the wrong direction: stop it.} These represent the fears, the inability to decide for yourself, and the consequence of severing the ties with humanity to engage the consequence of spirituality. What is more important than the consequences incurred, is the reality: YOU are closer to true spirituality than you have any idea of. These that are powerful images, rather than as dreams/ are the evidence of soul identifying your needs, and giving you the answer to your question: not as "visions and things"/ but as the fact YOU ARE WRONG, and you need to sort and separate out the chaff from your own personal environment. Do not believe you were right/ it cannot be so, and experience "images like these", YOU are wrong. It seems and is honestly, that I have spent years cleaning my own heart and mind, and constantly rebuilding/ but after the cleaning, the extinction of fear, and the determination of heart are complete; the narrow path to spirit opens and you may learn/ until you turn away even once. Learning is not a game, YOU have asked the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE to pay attention to you: what part of game do you see here/ BE RESPECTFUL AND BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU DO, and be extremely honest with yourself/ prepared with love in your heart, humility in your heart, and participating as soul only. The reality of spirit is simply that a barrier exists called pride/ you must remove it to complete the path. The truth of spirit is simply if want is all you seek/ then you shall be thrown aside, and left to your delusions/ unless you change. The question of spirit is simply, you must put humanity aside and accept the law "there shall be nothing else between you and spirit, but your life/ body and mind are irrelevant here." That means simply, you shall not be concerned about your humanity/ but in effect return your body to GOD . It then becomes HIS PROPERTY again, and your life on earth is in HIS HANDS. You must do your part, you must participate, you must work, but the direction and the means/ even your death are HIS to decide. This may sound harsh to you, but in reality; the price of an education is worth its cost: IF you are able to use that education to improve your life/ my life is greatly improved in MANY ways/ it is important to me, not to be responsible for so many tears. I am grateful!

So there can be no delusions about the fact I am simply a man/ taught as a man, and not "listening to any voices at all". All reference to spiritual understanding is in fact a simple knowledge that exists. I do offer the following as evidence / The reality of my life is simply as a man. However my education has required countless instances of "But why", which means simply in one form or another my life has encountered all the variations of human existence that get us into trouble in one way or another/ usually in situations that "cause other people to think they know something they don't/ by inference; which then becomes "kind of O great, now they think this. They are lessons in why, because the reality of nearly all human compromise is drama, and without "the others", there is no drama: only truth or lie! The outcome of which are these documents, used to describe understandings. As to instruction in my life, apart from simple humanity: when I wouldn't go forward with this work, to stubborn: my life encountered tinnitus, it was a harsh reality, that did intensify my existence; but it is a plague that still harms me at times. When I have chosen the wrong direction in these last years, a "heart-attack" of fairly strong proportions has occurred (the doctors find nothing wrong)/ but it always does distinctly make up my mind between the two directions I had been struggling with (could die today, what would I choose then). There will be those who proclaim "this is psychosomatic, his own mind"/ perhaps it is, but the reality is the same. A half dozen times over the last few years, when I was just plain wrong, the experience "like running into a 12000 volt invisible fence" (a harsh experience) occurred / I turned back. In the last few months or years, a few times "I have been welded or glued into place/ absolutely not going anywhere: until I accept the proper understanding "and pay the penalty which is thinking like a little boy/ which is to act like a little boy" : no doubt this is why the old prophets were men as they were easy to instruct in this way, a "ready made" humiliation, at least until men became boys/ I suspect women, are less easy to instruct. It is better than a "plague, heart-attack, or lightning strike"/ but far less than being honorable and certain in life. {You may also be certain, that wonderful events and realities have also come my way/ allowing my spirit to be in an honorable balance.} In more simple ways/ some of the more critical truths written in these words could not be written until I was naked: it is a sign to me, that nothing must be hidden/ everything as GOD has made it to be, will be required. These are all fundamental demands from my determination to learn, and to honor MY GOD. I DO offer the evidence of these documents as my testimony, that it was not without honor or happiness or trust, or love/ and I would indeed do it all over again and more. The hardest thing to surrender for me/ beyond any doubt, was I found no woman who could make the journey with me: therefore it was necessary to walk alone. I did ask the spirit inside "if the intimacy could not be shared/ then could I offer something else; the answer was only sex/ and that is not enough to change someone else's lifetime. "A life of abstinence" is not "holy"/ but if you are truly determined to search for life itself in you, then honesty says; mostly you must walk alone/ unless you do find a soul-mate. If you go as "soul-mates"/ you may travel only as far as the one who is with you. The issues of sex, simply discarded apart from some simple needs that could be fixed easily/ but a lesson learned is simply 3 or more years is too long for a man; the evidence demands "like a woman, and her period/ times must be much shorter than that or you are vulnerable to cancer and other things (some of the sperm had begun to petrify). A lesson to women, don't tempt men; they don't need to be tempted/ just ask, and they will tell you yes or no. It is obvious that women like to tempt men, it's a game/ just like men like to "win women, in a competition of a different kind". But the reality is if you tempt, then you must accept the blame for whatever goes wrong/ rather than simply making a decision, on your own terms/ by your own discretion. If someone tempts you/ then you must say no; simply because the list of emotional responses, and potential mental hurdles can be quite large, and serious enough that some die; men are only different in the fact/ that you as women must not let "them win"/ because that too is a trap. Are you each predators, looking for prey? Or are you man or woman looking for companionship in the honesty and honor of being alive, and sharing happiness or sharing sadness, or simply sharing loneliness when it is necessary. On a secondary note of little importance, it seems that I am in fact "growing tits" as is the prophecy in Revelation 12/ I have no idea how big. The fact is, at 52 years of age, the human consequence of this change is unimportant to me/ I am instead honored that a prophecy will be fulfilled. The reality however is, it seems that "not only the sign or a woman" is coming; some aspects of being a woman are occurring as well/ the body and mind are "a little strange" to me/ not much, but a little; something is slightly different. Time has passed by, and I can tell you for sure, young girls "show off their tits" to you men/ for different reasons than young men think. For a week now, the sensation of the nipples being pushed out, 24 hours a day/ by tits that are only an inch off the chest ; is starting to really be annoying. This is accompanied by a body that thinks its working, apparently is. Young women show off their tits to find relief from this sensation. If this continues in my body, I would have to say, "any woman that wouldn't bite me, could probably be welcomed to just do something with these things"/ said to establish young women are probably not promiscuous or easy; just in need of some relief from these things. Not that anyone would find me "attractive anymore"/ it just reflects the reality of young girls and how young men & women get themselves pregnant: she wants relief/ the boy just wants, and then things get out of control. In the days of old, this is a reliable method to ensure survival: but we don't need it anymore. Therefore under the heading of social experiment/ I DO suggest that highschool should include a class where the young men are "handcuffed to the chair/ behind back, and blindfolded". Then let the young women be bare chested, let the young men provide some relief/ they would love to do it, and the women would surely appreciate the work. No talking, no kissing for the women, its not about pleasure its about tits that are demanding some attention. Both stand, wall prevents touching/ adjustable steps for woman, and gloves (this is not a lap dance/ though it seems strange to say, tits are not toys/ they cost too much). I would have to say, not near enough respect is allowed to "women who have a set of these things." If the young men bite/ then they are excluded or sent bact to, "school, to get your penis to understand: YOU are in charge, not your penis". If the young women fail to follow the rules or refuse someone, then they will be sent to "help the young men with their studies in behavior/ make it safe." let the "partners in tits", be changed after 15 minutes or so (no one gets to choose)/ this will work against the concept of ownership, which is the predecessor of aggression (mine). A lesson to men; be respectful, be gentle, be kind, don't bite, and do what your told. Be aware, by this method, those women are going to learn a lot about you; whether you have respect or control or intent that is unacceptable/ and this will affect their decision about you! A lesson to all, "the illustration of salt becoming bad, in the bible" refers to losing your own self-respect. DON'T behave this way/ BUT IF YOU DO, just remember it is YOU that decides to respect yourself or not/ and until the day of your death, it remains your choice! If you are truly feeling alone/ then look to GOD, simply and plainly pray! Anyone not sufficiently socialized will be sent to another specialized school; the most important lesson you teach is how to live in society/ this is a lesson in behaviors and need. My particular experience with this could be due to 52 years old, or a man in fact. But I remember years ago, passing through a house a young girl was lying on the couch, arms folded across her chest, and a blanket across the tits, hot water bottle, and ice bag; and I asked the old lady, is she sick, "no, its woman stuff, GET OUT"; at the time I remember thinking what kind of woman stuff could that possibly be, tits can't hurt (get them, use them, all done), she looks fine, probably just faking/ I'd have to say, I know now what her problem was. Oddly enough the man in me wants to "get control of the situation"/ unfortunately its not likely, got to wonder how long? One tiny drop of white stuff came out of one; not a good surprise/ and the nipples are pointy. I would have to say, "good grief". As to further changes in me; it is of interest that my world is no longer "cut and dried" so to speak, while I have lived my entire life with "this can be defined very distinctly, like cutting it in 2 with a knife/ this much for you, this much for me, etc"/ something is changing, and the edges are now a little blurred; not so simple or so easy to define. Oddly enough my attitude toward babies seems to be changing as well/ from simple, to a more defined "warm and fuzzy feeling". And after 40 years or so, this penis is no longer under complete control; "it seems communications have gone awry"/ don't know how to fix it. For the sake of balance, if men were to hang a 5 pound weight or so off their own penis/ it might feel like these tits/ just an inconvenience at first, but leave it there for a week, and see what you think. I know women will say still "nothing like having a baby"/ to that I say, "you really don't go to war/ and that is worse, by far." For the sake of feminine interest, a penis is a simple thing, just grows, not really noticed till the day it try's to take over your life/ and that is rather simple to correct; once you realize this thing is trying to rule over me and stop it. Otherwise a man's body is really quite tame, it just works/ and we as men never even give it a thought that maybe yours really isn't the same. Seems like it should be, at a human level anyway. The lesson of boys and their penis is; it is pleasant at first, that leads to "trying this and trying that" which then ends in DISHONOR and disrespect. As a reality in the lives of young men, it is this dishonor and disrespect that becomes translated within the basic framework of man: HOW did this happen, I MUST have control, and be prepared against the enemy of life. For me, that asserted itself, as a true need to control all aspect about "a penis; let there be NO surprises"/ for others, some choose their version of perfection, adding to their own lives a list of rules and behaviors hard to bare/ for the worst, who then become predators of women; they believe "woman" had something to do with this, therefore woman is the enemy/ and for a few, reality refers to no control of my own (it got lost), therefore the man is lost and scared, and terrified of woman; but in great need of woman, and someone to stop the madness and apply control for him. But as to the life of men it is our first taste "of adventure" and that is established in our mind. The lesson of tits, is one of survival and work, this most likely establishes the framework in the feminine mind as well.

Have found that if you place your hands on the sides of your tits and push in and hold, a couple hours/ it helps a lot; this stretches the nipples and a day later things are better: tits will just have to be as big as they want to be. "of note, as a young man, I was clearly able to sculpt feminine tits/ just a statement for the young." After a period of tits, penis, balls, everything very unhappy; things are a little better. Been thinking about the impact of all this for my own future/ then considered what must be "DNA confusion" but certain GOD Made me, and can make everything fine. THEN thought to read Revelations 12 one more time, have remembered " JESUS, saying "the son of man"/ never believing for an instant this could be literal. And now wondering if I am to be a woman for real? OH MY. NEVER considered the possibility/ not a woman and don't know how/ can't imagine not being a man/ really can't fathom the idea men could be that part of my life; can't imagine it! Going to get a drug store PREGNANCY test; though surely can't be. Don't know if it could be accurate, but pregnancy is not something you have to wonder or investigate/ reality will prove it yes or no.

This is September 4, 2005 and the pregnancy test says no.

Of some interest, in the possibility of pregnancy, the question is not about "being a woman; that would suggest men and women are not equal and they are." Not about the "request" as IF GOD would send me to die in an honorable battle/ I would go without complaint: we will all die and enter eternity. Therefore this is a question of "not being a man/ and becoming a woman"; and I really have no concept of what that might be. I AM completely at a loss, the concept of such a possibility has never occurred to me/ nor has life ever offered the comprehension or even hint of such a question as this. Life has become strange.

This is September 5, 2005 and life is complicated! Like it or not. As to the question above/ the decision is, it is not to much to ask; the environment of earth is dying/ therefore we will all die, if all these problems are not fixed; do read the 4 documents presented to you. www.trialforlife.info is the tie in document. There is NO intent for perfection here, it is "like adding a terrorist, to your relationship: an extremely BAD idea". Perfection is the true intent to describe yourself as superior, and it is not true: we are all equal. Do the best you can, honest and honorable to every situation as it can be/ don't fail yourself for what you are not/ be who you are! If you cannot understand the concept these documents have for your life after that/ then I have no further words for you at all. That part is over. BUT I am left with a woman's tits on my body {somebody stole my chest, and its plain to me, like it or not these things are anchored in and not going anywhere; it IS my new chest} and they are heavy enough to be noticeable all the time, & warm/ can't take my shirt off anymore/ tee shirts are out, and that's how it is. At least the body wars seem to be over, the tits aren't bothering much; small enough to not draw too much attention, at least so far/ I HOPE their done. Oddly enough, "these things are not my tits/ if I had a choice they wouldn't be here"/ BUT they are my responsibility, because they don't let up until they get whatever they want. Worse, somebody stole the controls to my "male equipment" it no longer goes up, or down, or stops, or anything, when I tell it to: it doesn't listen at all/ it even leaks (not piss) half the time I am not working and alone, and more; and it can be aggravating enough to demand and get what I am not interested in giving. It does what "somebody else" wants it to do; I know, cause were acquainted, and these decisions aren't "us". The equipment is still mine, were still acquainted, were in the same vehicle, going the same place, nothing changed, "but someone else is driving; its like, I'm in the back seat, can't get out, can't see out, and there's a wall where the front seat of the car should be; nobody listening, no clue who's driving". I am, a little concerned about the possibilities here/ not mad, not upset, not scared, but would remind women just for the sake of it: "I have never forced, harmed, or hurt any woman"/ kindly remember that. I would have to say, I might be better off not mentioning that; but as resources and population, and all the rest are literally going to change this world, the earth itself is literally about to die, as far as supporting our lives/ all the problems between men and women MUST be fixed as well, or we will not survive; and there must be a lesson in here somewhere. I would honestly say, it seems like hurricane Katrina, went through my life as well, "at least half the city is destroyed completely, trying to assess the damage has resulted in a big pile of papers in a foreign language, (I don't even recognize the letters) and there is no translator, no dictionary, no instruction manual; nothing". And it seems clear to me, "although I know I have to rebuild it/ its pretty certain, I will not be the architect, engineer, designer, or anything; just the work is mine". I am extremely unprepared for any of this!

Consequently, this is formal notice; as to the needs for court and all that must go into court / the job in its entirety falls to you. YOU must prepare, file, support, and bring to fruition: use what you have, DON'T let them hide/ it is enough/ don't let them confuse, be specific and use their words to redefine your concept of what you are hearing, so that everyone can understand/ and everyone can question in themselves. My life is in need of MAJOR work, and I cannot come. And court cannot wait! Let the international community help you force the issues, [THEY have resources and many things America cannot do without] and let the public vote decide what is to be done: I simply cannot be divided any further, and this will take time. BE ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN, this is not about over-throwing government/ unless you want to be exactly like Iraq today! You won't like it! This is about how Iraq should have been handled, it is the leadership, NOT the nation that needs "an education": primarily as YOU are our employee/ we are not yours. YOU will do as we decide, as a nation by public vote, according to constitutional values of true freedom and true democracy/ not political views. This is true democracy in action, when life is in control of its own destiny; as best we can/ and we must work toward this, because any other way is truly insufficient for the job. There are too many consequences from all the failures of the past. You may be certain the politicians will claim "we have true democracy now"/ BUT they fail to claim all the problems they have created; and the difference is WE MUST DECIDE FOR OURSELVES/ look at the mess they have made, and we must pay for! The nation must decide for itself, after you are educated enough to make a true decision, that means at least 90% of the 12-18 year old children DO understand the consequence and the reality and can identify the future from these decisions. When they can; Then vote.

In that vein you should know, at this time having forewarned sufficiently the powers that be; they are likely hiding in wait, to surprise me/ they will treat you the same. Or more simply, the intent to "kill the trial" will be "with purpose". In my defense there are inventions that the entire world needs/ therefore I do suggest "there is a get out of jail card". Not that the court is interested/ but reality will be, and once sufficient public interest is claimed/ then it is possible to walk freely and without concern. The most important invention has no defined descriptions, no anything, no one told, to let it be stolen; and I would die first before it is stolen/ you can believe it. It is however free to the world, but YOU will do the work of court, YOU will advertize these problems, and then you may have it if I am alive/ the outcome of trial is insignificant to me; it is the reality of awareness and the validity of understanding the question, that matters. I would suggest those who do the work of this court case are not in such possession as this/ therefore be wary of all "power brokers"/ they don't intend to lose one dime to you. As a consequence YOU must invest in the public, and make them understand the consequences and the possibilities first, or they will run over you: EVEN THOUGH they have no money or power in terms of reality, it is all a lie. But it is a lie, the public demands to keep. Even so, people do want to be paid/ and you will lose every dime as a society together: then you will turn to this trial, and choose. GOOD LUCK, and pray for me too. For the sake of saying it, that the stupid may have no excuse: my own life may return to whatever normal is to be now/ since my death will have no impact whatsoever on trial, I have become irrelevant to all aspects of power, money, leadership, and the rest. Be careful of the "back rooms or courthouse where they close the door/ its where leeches and snakes live": NOT ALL, but how will you know until it is too late. OPEN THE DOORS bring in the public, and demand your rights according to the constitution fo the United States of America; and don't take no. Make no mistake, a man or woman who does a good job in the judiciary is a wonderful asset for the nation and you, but there are many put into place by politicians; whose entire purpose is to gain control over specific aspects of society, and they choose judges accordingly: don't they choose things in your best interest/ obviously NO. NO JUDGE, should ever be chosen by a politician/ let the public choose for themselves. The job of a politician is to define the questions, assemble a list of answers, determine the consequences as best you can for and against; and present that to the public/ for them to decide. In reality, the basic job of every politician/ is as a "secretary, to the cooperation"; with the responsibility to "take care of the little things yourself."

As a last thought, I AM TRULY aware at how strange this sounds, its ok to be amused/ but kindly don't ridicule. As to the people who claim "mental illness"/ I have a pair of tits that disagree. I do also have every faith and trust the GOD can do anything HE WANTS TO DO. (Except for what the spirit says, "make you or anyone, Love Him"). Do you not understand, "LOVE, comes from the moment you touch, the difference between life and death; this is the eternity of soul, the comprehension of all that exists in life, because you are alive. This then is decision, the place between heart and soul that lets you decide: the truth that is to be your life". So I do say to you, pray for me/ if I should be a woman or whatever; that's ok, but I would ask "just for me": you to pray at least let the body be presentable. Good Prayers to us all. It is impossible to learn truth/ if you hide from it. It is impossible to learn about yourself or your world, if you will not spend your life to do it. Therefore let your life deal with the problems you face directly, and not hide from your reality. As it is clear here, none of us can predict our future/ this certainly absolutely would never have been predicted by me; not a chance. But here I am.

This is September 6, 2005 and I write it to give you a guideline to use in your own lives when confronted with adversity, a map to assemble consequence and describe life. These are the directions of my own mind, and the timetable allowed to establish simple purpose, and not reaction/ but understanding.

Of useful things to know; pride or more correctly the removal of pride is the end of accountability by all methods, measurements, & means: to all things human. Therefore it was not acceptable of me to "hope the tits were done/ it is retracted; what will be will be". When pride is finished in you, then and only then everything you are becomes strictly accountable to GOD , as the life you live & have become by your own decisions, responsible for. People will argue, "believing pride " is their defense against all humanity and its measurements, methods, and means that the others use against them: thereby pride is their place to hide." The reality of life is far more simple than pride; if you spend your whole life, "hiding in plain view"/ then you have lost the foundation prepared for you to find WORSHIP in your heart, for the grace & beauty of your own life. You are then guilty of selling yourself, for very little/ and will lose MORE than you can conceive of. The second is a mind in confusion & stress becomes a place of endless circles. This occurs because "you have NO anchor in your life, or are trying to anchor in the sand, so to speak". TO STOP the endless cycle, IT IS necessary to FOCUS on "something without decision or comment, to slow the mind". It is then necessary to find the exit/ by allowing yourself the freedom to say: TODAY, I cannot answer these questions/ TODAY I will put this aside until understanding has come, & only then may it come back into my life! Only then shall I choose and answer and accomplish the task of "designing my life". There are NO excuses/ NO exceptions/ NO definitions to scare or disturb my peace: because this is my life, & this is my decision. Thereby the knowledge presented to my life, remains the same, no change exists yet; time will have to pass before the days of comprehension begin. The third, is "this is your life" and you do have a right to your decision & your consequence. BUT you do NOT have a right "to complain, whine, moan, or curse" just because YOU chose neither truth or reality. DO REMEMBER THIS; there are penalties. The consequence of my own situation as described above; exists by the evidence, and by relationships that do exist in me. There is reality by the means of simple decision/ and there is reality within the complex dimension of life. Simple decision reflects only cause & effect/ complex dimension of life, identifies the relationship that serves life with honor and allows truth as the evidence of superiority to decide reality as life needs it to be. This situation in me, thereby allows "the work" and "the method" of HONOR which is a decision to the one who is superior GOD HIMSELF. I am honored to be "a tool"/ that is my decision. As time goes by, some will use "this situation" to prove their defiance of GOD by creating various fantasies & hallucinations, to depict "a super-natural world"/ this does NOT exist. Instead, there is ONLY GOD'S WORLD , and our own. The evidence of prophecy, "as a warning" always precedes "the intervention BY GOD "! Therefore 3 pieces of truth defend the statement: this work is from GOD , and not any other thing. The prophecy is listed above/ the decision is not mine/ and the tits are physical evidence. We thereby enter the days of anticipation, "to see, what we will see". I draw no conclusion/ but await the reality and truth to tell me, the difference between what I recognize, and what I must be taught. Therefore not every prophecy is as we expect/ not every prophecy is what we believe/ not every prophecy, consequence, or decision describes honor: instead EVERY SITUATION brings with it the lessons for life, and the possibility for a true participation if order and discipline are sufficient to allow that truth to exist. Thereby understand me clearly: this is "NOT the setup for an excuse"/ this is the consequence of your participation in truth, and the order that shall exist from your own lives, and your decision within the reality and truth that has been suggested to you; in Revelation 12: YOU are allowed the opportunity to ask JESUS To RETURN TO HELP YOU, as defined/ if you refuse, you lose. PRAY, don't come to me, its not my choice.

This is September 7, 2005 and I have been to refocus on the reality at hand; this change in me, IS NOT for me/ its for you; therefore if I have to change for you/ YOU are going to change for me. IT IS FAIR! Without justice and fair play, NOTHING can be truly accomplished! Therefore you will establish in fact, whether there are plots & plans conceived against me, were I to have been the one to file and pursue this lawsuit and trial as discussed. The judiciary, the lawyers, & the police located in the city of Urbana, IL ; HAVE been clearly informed of my intent & purposes, & they now know my methods. The desire for power & the intent to keep control, and discard justice, would have by now established itself in conversation and perhaps physical evidence. YOU will investigate, You will apply to them "7 times" the degree of contempt, that they have been proven to have conspired against me. You WILL remove them from their office & their ability to regain any other such job. If ANY were found in true support of justice/ then these shall take their place. SHOULD ANY PERSON, lie as to the evidence presented/ or if any person not come forward with their HONEST evidence/ then they will be cursed into eternity. This is NOT "a witch hunt"/ this is about truth, and the needs for justice and fair play; I honestly DO hope you find no such thing.

YOU the public must still do all the work not already done for this trial/ I have reassembled nothing/ and I WILL NOT be further divided. BUT, if I do come to court/ then I come only to deliver a FINAL WARNING AND SEVERE THREAT. Should this be so, you have my word: you will NOT touch me/ NOR will I touch you/ NOR bring any weapon of any kind. INSTEAD whatever occurs is strictly your consequences/ because of your decisions. THIS WOULD NOT, be from me. PRAY this shall not be so: I DO!

Secondary is the need for an appropriate description of what change is NECESSARY! Therefore you will gather ALL officials in charge of FEMA, and their failure at the gulf coast. You will give them "scoops, brooms, mops, buckets, and gas masks"/ and THEY ALONE will clean the "super dome" in New Orleans. You will give them NO food, NO water, for 5 days (unless they drop/ then give them enough to get back to work). These will clean, until it is ready for a "super bowl game". NO PAY, NO FAMILY, NO OTHER PLACE TO STAY, AND NO EXCUSES. If they refuse, then you will jail them for 2 years in common prison. Or you will revoke their citizenship and jail them for 10 years if they return to this country. By the evidence, they LIED/ by the evidence, they STOLE; for they pretended to be prepared; and were believed. Therefore punishment is required. When they are done cleaning, you will fire them/ and take away all pension, healthcare, and every other benefit. The president is exempt/ as he was not in direct control: it is fair, as when you hire people to work, and they return saying "its done"/ it is not your fault when they are found out as liars.

As to the "rest of the people" : WHERE was your secondary wall/ WHERE was your system to quickly repair the levy/ WHERE were your own supplies? And WHERE IS YOUR "THANK YOU" TO GOD , that the path of Katrina was changed? IF it had hit New Orleans head on/ every soul in the "super dome" would have been lost! How many others: 175 mph winds; HOW DARE you suggest it was safe!

This is September 8, 2005 after "receiving instruction" as to the consequences and possibilities of things mentioned above/ apart the moaning; the first lesson appears. The trial of Revelations 12 is not the trial required of you in court, as described herein, although you MUST do it to survive! I have become the trial, and women have become those who shall decide if this is "how you shall be judged"/ or whether a different version of Revelations shall come to pass. I have nothing to do "with saving you, or anyone"/ I am the description by the evidence presented to you, of what you have decided to do. It is clear, I have become vulnerable to women; which then opens the door to everything a woman could be/ either for good or for bad. It is clear, the potential to change the lives of women; HAS been established/ therefore men will be required to "make their own decisions". What woman chooses for herself shall decide if this is the trial of your lives, or worse shall come. She does not decide the fate of humanity/ all have a say, and GOD WILL KNOW Whether the majority go for life or for Armageddon. To men, YOU have taken responsibility, have you not, for the decisions of society/ therefore you are responsible for the disasters of the day. I am vulnerable, but at peace for I know that love shall take me home if disaster strikes me; when I am "used up"/ if not "rescued". To all, You may discard this opportunity if you wish/ then another version of Revelations shall take place; I will either be granted eternity, or be given another job until that day arrives. It is up to you. Some will laugh and ridicule/ let them! I have been given another job/ because the message has been delivered/ consider this VERY CAREFULLY, before you decide to be blind.

I just end all writing with the reality, just 3 hours later I DO feel like I delivered a baby/ it couldn't be much worse. And now the penis is demanding and getting more: DO PRAY FOR ME, I need it.

This is September 9, 2005 and it does seem necessary to add one more day. After 2 "more episodes" I finally had to request "this must stop, my life begins to waver". It stopped, whether "the one who controls/ or GOD intervenes; I don't know". Either way some form of communication exists. Spent the whole day "saying wow (what went wrong), or man ( how could this happen)". NO CLUE. The only question I can find is Surely this cannot be how it is for a woman? NO CLUE here either/ I am not a woman, and cannot know. However I am getting a bad feeling, I am going to find out/ in a world where I have become as woman, and woman has become as man. Something has ended, no idea what. The night was peaceful/ the male equipment unhappy. Thinking perhaps control is back/ consequently as I am writing this; I am proven wrong. A decision of consequence cannot be taken back: "can you turn back the clock". I am a "tool, for my CREATOR " and would never ask different/ it is my contribution to HIS LIFE. You are on your own/ this message sent to you is sufficient for you/ IF you stop being so proud and selfish, that you just don't care. You are severely diseased with these things/ whether you believe it or not. I DO PRAY FOR YOU/ I do ask you to Pray for me as well. May GOD BLESS US ALL.

The environment of life is an energy contained by the description of thought. This is NOT open for discussion. Instead time assembles the environment of our lives & "we/ or spirit" assigns & also removes the energy: truth goes with that energy, to reveal thought in you. The question of balance asserts, that we pivot the composition of the environment called I around the embodiment of truth we have desired. We choose the truth which most reveals the "true intent of our lives"/ it is our lives because life itself must allow it, or we cannot go; that life distances itself from BAD choices, but does not abandon until death. It is here the foundation of "circular truth" or more correctly the building of a passion to complete the essence of life in you, translates the path of simple truth, into the complex environment of self. Passion therein means: to struggle and survive, believing life is worth the reality. There is "a circle", because there is a need to complete each step in the ascension to thought, before the next step can be taken. As time journeys through the disciplines of existence, order examines the relationship you share with truth to complete your soul. SOUL is, the balance achieved where truth is pivot, and honor is weighed in your heart, as life is weighed by the destiny of your decisions. Soul is then the relationship you share with Creation, in the evidence of your own thought. LOVE is then order accepted , and truth revealed/ where thought has been completed. Thought is the balance between loss & love, wherein truth comes to mean the existence of life or death. Thought assigns and conceives of the development called boundaries, and salvation through the SACRED transition between energy, thought, and life, INTO the passage called eternity. Eternity is expressed within the balance of parallel extremes, the pivot is life/ but the action is love. Eternity means, "without an opposite reaction"; therein only harmony can come! Or mercy allow passage to "lessor things".

There are questions established from the intensity that is our humanity: the tears of "I wonder, why me". The answer is: the demand for freedom! To which humanity replies: "Not me/ not this/ not now". While reality simply restates: the laws of the universe shall not be broken; either free, or not free. Death is an intensity which governs our lives, by the simple truth; now I know, "how valuable he or she was". Therefore the loss of someone special, is a tremendous loss to our own lives/ but it is also the most clear assertion in our lives, of who and what we want our lives to be. Some go searching in death, "for corpses", and find nothing. While others will search in love, for the honor of hope in the blessings and miracles of life, and find GOD . Death is the most intense experience of life/ therefore you must HONESTLY TRUST and depend upon GOD ! Love understands our relationship with miracles, and it receives our hopes with joy. Love accepts the heart (the honesty of our own life) and creates a home for us. Home means, fulfilled by the HOPES that visit within our soul. HOME means, ALIVE in the passionate embrace of eternity. Home means; where LOVE cannot fail, you will see them again/ if their truth belongs.

When it proves to be "time for death". Then accept in peace. When life or death is a question/ then do what you can to limit your burden to society/ that does mean: "Fix it, if it is honest and fair/ die if it is not." it is your body/ but life as humanity has needs too. My own nephew died of a brain tumor, at 9 months, an awful death, for which I could do nothing; "its not just you"! My own body, has been "less than friendly" in the past years/ but it is simply humanity, not punishment. The question that is "how will I know SPIRIT in me?" the answer is simply you WILL know. But be aware, not by voices, not by sacrifice or any testing that could bring death to you or another, or disability, or an accident to any life. The only tests, are of humility (what do you choose), and of trust by the terms of honor, not fears. Every life is different, every life a different way.

The legacy of all humanity throughout history is simply; laziness & plenty precedes hardship & failure. Weapons displace honor & hard work/ thieves win. Power is "the people's cry" for protection from predators/ because it takes strength to survive the cruel, the heartless, and the impatient. Lust rules male & female relationships simply, because lust produces situations that cannot easily be undone. Money has always been the excuse/ but slavery has always been the reality and purpose. Civilization is a demand, not a choice; therefore the people are forced and fail to share or care greatly. Religions express what reality & truth will not buy/ therefore "the ticket" is purchased here, where it is safe. Sex is "the easy game" to play; it comes complete with winner & loser/ the good the bad and everything in between so that the game is interesting: until truth sets in, and pain, suffering, & turmoil describe your own world, or theirs. Work is the difference between people who believe in themselves, and people who don't care about anything but selfish motivations. Marriage solves the problem of sexual needs, defines family, and shares the work: in an honorable friendship/ but loneliness is only disciplined by love, and love is a free gift. Therefore it cannot always be disciplined in your way, sometimes it must by "my way". Love is the expression of happiness, therefore it is inwardly beautiful. Love is the experience descended from joy, becoming the reality of a life SHARED, because honor is trusted in you. YOU have then become as 'the missing piece of my life, therefore you DO fit inside".

In recent experience I have been introduced to something new: the willingness to continue to eat/ even though I am NOT hungry; even though I know my body will suffer a little because of it, and so on. The predecessor of this experience to continue eating, is described as "a momentary exclusion from reality wherein its "just my mind, and a distance in the darkness, where the food exists"; once engaged in the action to eat/ the mind refuses to listen or turn away. This is an interesting complication, to the experience of over-eating, and as such warrants investigation/ so it has been allowed for now. Specific to mental engagement "going to do this, don't care"/ is the reality of a pleasant and friendly environment, a gentle experience in existence; that is then desired to continue. The question is: WHY "do I buy it"/ why would I "need it"/ & WHAT is the reward, if I know "the bill WILL come due later"/ in the form of fat that must then be lost? To buy means simply, you are willing to pay this price/ to need simply means here, some type of mental or spiritual decision is being avoided/ to understand that "this escape, is basically an imprisonment, because later the body will function less well". Therefore the question WHY did I do that, and for what cause returns.

Clearly this behavior is a simple escape into a moment of gentleness, where time has no meaning and life is simple & plain: no enemies, no battles to be fought, no problems to be dealt with/ just an escape into gentleness and "pleasant company". Therefore engaged before, existence proves you cannot stay. Engaged means less than a decision, a direction confined by your mind/ because the "heart" won't go. The consequence is then, simply the mind is in control at this moment. Here truth asks: WHAT has changed, that suddenly mental experience has a value beyond reality? What could be a need, that challenges truth, reality, & life/ and demands a need for gentleness and pleasant company instead of a true experience, honest expression, and the foundation of life which removes mental compensations and lives within heart & soul?

The answer for me, at this time/ is clearly "the battleground" that this warning represents/ the consequence & knowledge of how PROUD people are/ and the understanding of how stubborn and resolute that pride will be. Thousands of times, pride has failed everyone/ in all ways/ but people won't surrender it, until "the damage is done" and most of the time, not then. So it is apparent in capturing a moment for just a little longer as above. The reason is a deception, "for only a moment" that life is a little better, that existence can be avoided so believes the mind/ even when this honestly does not help: time still comes or you die. This is an escape/ therefore a fear is involved. The fear was, PRIDE could kill us all.

Here then arises what is called "the great prostitute" of Revelations 17: a prostitute is one who will not wait or work/ but merely uses the mind to escape the moment. PRIDE IS this prostitute. The question is then: WHY does pride have such strength over all humanity, that it can threaten life on earth? The answer is: pride is a boundary formed by human experience, as a mental barrier erected between lives/ so that we cannot be influenced by each other. The purpose of pride is quite simple; to hide behind the veil of mental experience/ so that we might NOT be invited into matters of life or death. Pride is the expression of the mind, distinctly used to block the experience of heart & soul. The consequence of pride is then death/ because you would not accept the invitation of life: without heart and soul, YOU shall NOT Find eternity/ you shall be very limited in love or relationships/ you shall not learn anything of true value, because you are hidden and afraid. PRIDE IS an enemy/ humiliation confronts pride/ but only you can remove it; by YOUR honest decisions.

The development of human nature expresses two distinct things: sexuality and pride. What is sexuality is NOT "a rodeo ride for men/ or a "get me everything I ask, for women". Sexuality is the simple truth, of order as it is described by nature. Honor changes it from sexuality into compassion, and the blessings of expressions that complete our lives. Love is the honesty of respect as it creates a beautiful experience called "we". The question of why are people afraid of each other, and turn to pride/ is complex by nature. Nature implies it is not learned/ but programmed in. Therefore the question arises: WHY should we not accept pride or refuse it/ if it has been prepared for our use?

These are complex relationships, REQUIRING your discipline and acceptance of order/ that you may continue, "up the path of life". LIFE IS NOT, "A free gift"/ your body, mind, and the earth are/ but life is NOT. Therefore costs & consequences are associated with your time on earth: that is why pride exists. YOU must overcome the consequence of pride which is "riches, superiority, drunkenness, "master or slave", and so on". The scarlet beast of Revelation 17 is what happens on earth if you don't: scarlet for blood, lives lost/ beast for dangerous & hard to control. The blasphemous names, heads, & horns all represent the human costs as "plotting & planning (heads), revenge & jealousy (horns) & blasphemy (the cursing, swearing, & hate) all caused by the demand for pride, and the insistence upon keeping it, as it affects our lives.

The astonishment of verse 6 is the potential bloodshed that can or could occur in this day: as the intensity and passion of your pride MELTS under the fire that truth will set in your minds: you will soon find out how poor you truly are, the lies, and face the demand to accept you did "play the game too". This prophet "sees" HATRED against all, but especially against those who believe JESUS as these filled with hate, are then given the opportunity to declare WAR with JESUS HIMSELF! Those who choose to go to war/ are then the beast of verse 8: Once was (is the crucifixion), now is not (means NEVER AGAIN), and will come up out of the abyss & go to his destruction (means, the SAME decisions that led to the crucifixion, will arise/ BUT THIS TIME, they will be defeated forever). The rest of Revelation 17 is already interpreted elsewhere, for you.

The consequence of our lives is: like infants, we MUST be supported for a long time in eternity/ like death to us, loss of life in eternity is far more tragic: therefore the price of an inheritance/ IS A TRUE DESIRE for all that eternity means and is. Fail to accept honestly or with honor, OR fail to do your part in the work that is for life/ means literally you shall NOT come. LIFE IS finding "the moments" which bring tears to your heart, that you may grow JOY in your soul. These DO "go together", because the heart reveals your need, and soul gathers the honesty of your love. Tears believe in your own heart, they exist where barriers cannot/ thereby they become the moments where we reach inside each other and find a description that becomes our world. The world exists as the definition of liars in humanity/ that reality destroys the sanctity of honor and places all tears in jeopardy of "drowning those who extend themselves in need". Truth says the expression of honesty [and NOT emotion] is the relationship we share with Beautiful. Becoming in a single moment, a description nothing else can reveal. Tears then examine your heart, they exist as the single source of evidence, that challenges the mind: insisting there is a different way, and asking you personally, "will you not desire love as well". It is true only love or loss can bring forth honest tears! These are moments escaped from behind the barriers of the mind/ an expression in the purity defined as your own soul. The mind fails, wherever the soul exists. The consequence of that failure is a test of pride/ the battleground of that moment between soul & mind, is the difference between life or death. For the mind will die/ but the soul cannot. It returns to OUR CREATOR ; either with us or without us. These are not suggestions "that we all cry"/ these are realities in life that need no suggestion/ for we know all the meanings inside. Tears are not "the measure of man, woman, or child"/ they only reflect YOU, not someone else. Therefore believe: there are many who can & do cry/ BUT FEW who understand what BEAUTIFUL means. Do you "hear it in your soul"? If you do, then you soul HAS found you/ and eternity will remember your name. The "book of life" is filled, with these: for you have found in life itself, a treasure that cannot be bought/ cannot be earned or stolen/ but is The blessing and reality of life itself.

The foundation of human behavior is our relationship with discipline. The understanding of relationship is "2 or more separate entities", participating for the same purpose. The critical question regarding behavior is then: what, who, or why is discipline real/ what, who, why, & how is a relationship achieved/ and when do we face our identity; how do we respond to our truth; and where does respect "live" in the consequence of our behaviors? The answer begins as the comprehension of discipline itself, the designed destiny of our ability to conceive of a decision, and apply it. Decision is an action generated by 4 possibilities/ THAT CANNOT be discussed. These hold the key to artificial intelligence & the outcome; of robotic intelligence, and its consequence which would be a scourge, and a curse upon society; don't ask.

Returning to behaviors rather than comprehension/ behavior assembles discipline in its 3 basic forms: what comprehends a reward/ why develops a purpose or a greed/ & who is a challenge regarding control of that purpose. These 3 combine to conceive the distinction of an image in you: this is the human part. These 3 are separated into expectations/ this is the behavior part. Discipline adds knowledge. "The image of your choosing" now has an essence of reality. Here begins the confrontation between what is real and actual/ and what is image, "the question or expectation that comes with physical attributes". What is real & actual in a human being extends from heart & soul into the disciplines of love, hope, trust, faith, respect, & honor. What is image, takes from the participation of any specific object or thing and mentally derives an outcome of events, based upon the usefulness of the image to the pleasure or purpose of your own goal. These are both relationships; the first with life/ the second or image, with foundations in distress. At this juncture, it is WHO that matters: creating from the displays of life/ or the distress or trespassing beyond the gate, "the critical comprehension's of GOD Or satan. Behaviors do seek to modify themselves according to the weight attributed to their success or failure/ thereby these Extremes, identify the path of least resistence, and form the basis of why: "You behave the way you do". Those that follow GOD Rather than choose to believe GOD , consider the consequence of failure as "too great, to take a chance"/ thereby "they suggest a compromise to GOD "/ and fail accordingly. Those who believe, establish their behavior in what is real & actual, from their heart and soul.

The people who choose satan (the expectation of an image justified by their righteousness), develop the mental consequence of pride and arrogance. Those who choose pride, systematically intend to surmount the others in all games of winner/ loser. The game is their god, and satan their referee. Those who choose arrogance from the "battering ram of humanity" always living for the next battle or war/ intent upon the subjugation of others, to be under their control. These use the excuse of satan as documentation: fear me. All 3 are consequences {of either direction, not both}, because the behavior assumes a victory will follow. It is the desire for this victory that completes behavior. The relationship of behavior to life is then highly defined by your acceptance of GOD OR satan.

Here discipline arrives in all who choose GOD ! Discipline explains the participation within another life is to be gently understood as "the friendship, the respect, & the honor of MIRACLES joined in the expression & thanksgiving of life. Discipline explains that happiness is a destiny conceived within the decision of souls, as trust and truth. Discipline suggest the opportunity of life is eternity, thereby honesty MUST survive.

In the alternate direction, the composition and formation of temptation occurs. The opportunity is control, the foundation is "the image you have chosen", and the work is: selfishness. Temptation means to allow "the vision of disorderly conduct", to have its opportunity. The consequence is DISRESPECT or abuse. These are behaviors instigated by an "inner desire of your own"/ to discard or destroy the discipline that helps you, to grow and to make you whole as a life. To accept the temptation is ALWAYS A BAD THING. Momentary temptations to "stab yourself or someone else"/ as well as all other forms of insanity arise from this simple abyss. It is an abyss, because it represents the hidden insanity of your life.

Behavior is then an exercise within the consequence and reality of the disciplines you have chosen. The relationship we face as life in the body of time, depicts a journey through the development of order; to achieve the specific purpose of an identity created by you. We either respond in HAPPINESS AND HARMONY, because truth has allowed our destiny as a miracle to belong to eternity: "the expansion of our soul". The completion of our thought. And the opportunity beyond life, "that is love". At the opposite extreme, are the mental and then emotional battlegrounds to prove "you are god". RESPECT is the single truth, that forms testimony either for you or against you: in the final judgment of your life. At death's door/ truth will witness about you, but respect will testify against you, if you have none/ or too little.

To be balanced is not less than to respect all of life, including yourself/ and understand although the body & mind are important/ these contribute only simple sensations and measurements to your decision. To accept the life granted to you, is to accept your fate and deal with your own life as body & mind dictate the reality that you must endure. Balance asks for freedom/ truth asks for honesty/ but RESPECT assigns the reality of life as the opportunity created by your participation in eternity. Death means: an opening exists, where only love rules; if you have survived. Therefore life means: discovered in the passion of a distant intensity, the conquest of time itself, becomes an eternity. PRAISE GOD!!!!

The relationship we share with each other is our best defense against reality. In the days to come, where there is honor between man & woman there will be happiness. In the honesty of life, sexuality will become a necessary tool, against depression and instability and fears {this type of sexuality is to reinforce, YOU are valued too}: DON'T get pregnant. Choose pregnancy carefully as our futures are truly in doubt. It is acceptable "for a morning after pill". It would be wise to remove sexuality from nakedness; to remove all temptation from the body; commonality or constant awareness does this after time/ no faces, NO children. I do know the bible and its supporters, possibly all religions shall frown on the concept/ this is against the common concept held fast by religion, "HIDE, in your clothes/ after all even GOD Gave adam and eve something to hide behind after their sins had become too grievous. But reality has changed and you will need the security of each other, in honesty/ NOT temptation. All by itself, this will do considerable to limit the recurrent demand of men & boys "for their hormonal period", and the expectation to use women to alleviate it. Soon the world will have far less things to buy, fantasies will end or you will, and relationships will determine respect and opportunity. Along that vein, are the constant realities that must also be approached: including the horticulturist. The introduction of different plants and resulting insects, etc, HAVE resulted in trillions of tons of pollution/ because these new things must be dealt with by agriculture. While "I too, love the plants and creations from all the world/ agriculture is NOT a choice, and soon will be the difference between life and death. The vegetarian is "lovely, for their intent to support animals, but the reality is without human consumption, MOST of these animals would never have been born. Therefore consumption does work both ways/ BUT DEMANDS humane and reasonable treatment. In other words, look beyond the moment to discover the future, and then decide if your reality has a right. Do look beyond sexuality, to discover the meaning of life, is found in love; I know you worship "boats, cars, everything"/ but remember this, without people: of what true value are they? Do look beyond possession, because life itself is far beyond all the human possessions combined. The issues of men & boys and their penis, is a natural expression of nature propagating to keep the species alive/ therefore by fair. Oddly enough, for the first time since a few months or weeks beyond puberty/ I find myself without absolute control; the addition of tits, to this body seems to be complicating the reality: so be compassionate to all. The only true things that are about to be lost are your expectations, as money/ not your lives. If you accept truth and let reality decide, your whole world is about to become new, and BETTER/ but it is up to you, not to me.

The seals of Revelation 6 are clear and simple to understand; the white horse is Christianity, and other religions seeking life in harmony; going into the world to prove life is better. The second is power and selfishness/ pride and want, as described by the people who fear the loss of everything they feel is valuable, irregardless of the others: this is about the choice of death, by continuing consumption and gluttony and describes primarily the "rich". The third is judgment for or against one or the other of these first two; BY JESUS because HE IS JUDGE/ the black refers to judgment without mercy. And will be decided upon the majority/ by even one human being. The "four living creatures" represent the four corners of the earth. The reference to a small amount of food for a day's work is about famine/ or critical need, but not extreme; a new respect. The fourth is death as described, it means one or the other of the first two will die, not physically but as a reality of society. The plagues and problems are intended to bring a new respect to humanity/ a reality revealed about who is GOD . The fifth means you will wait a little longer. The sixth is the eruption at "yellowstone national park" in montana and how the volumes of material blacken the sky. The seventh is judgment and crucifixion of nature is completed against those who are judged/ against the earth itself. Revelation 7 simply says; ALL who belong shall come, and know peace and happiness. There are no "numbers in heaven"/ be at peace, these are just multiples of 12 to indicate completion to you.

Revelation 22 then says; verse 10, Do not stop talking about the words of this warning/ these prophecies; do not be concerned with "saving anyone/ let them be what they desire to be". From its beginning "the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal" is defined by the truth that water is the power of this earth and our lives here/ therefore the prophecy is about power, and the ability of that power to change life. The power of "heaven" is FAITH and TRUST. These documents are also about the power to change lives because the reality of knowledge and understanding allows this to be true according to what is honorable and honest. Clear as crystal indicates YOU no matter who you are, can understand these things as written, if you study it. Much of the words are clearly beyond our human capacity to learn or recognize ourselves/ therefore these must come from the "throne of GOD, AND of the LAMB (JESUS). And so they do, irregardless that they were taught to me, that I might write them for you. On each side of the river is the division between men and women, the fruit recognizes it is substantial to your lives as food, because you now grasp a great deal more/ than any life has before recognized as valid and real. The leaves of the tree, (shield us from the sun) or keep the heat of the day from attacking us. No longer will there be a curse, establishes that you are now knowledgeable/ therefore responsible, and without excuse; because you didn't know/ NOW you do. The throne of GOD and of the LAMB will be respected from this point on/ or you will die. "They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads/ there will be no more night;" indicates the knowledge provided is sufficient to see into the compassion and reality of eternity, and its possibilities to you; and you will decide honestly, and hopefully with wisdom. The light of the lamp, is "human knowledge and history/ the light of the sun, is the concept of "wondering why". "the LORD GOD will give them light, is the promise that this is the beginning of understanding for you, not simply the end. "They will reign" means it is your job as BELIEVERS to accept the role of justice and fair play for all, including the future.

From verse 12 : "behold I am coming soon" has already been fulfilled, as this message to you. "My reward is with me", means if you fail/ then those who believe will soon rise as described in these prophecies. If you succeed in change/ then you will know the LORD, "Like me". "Washing your robe" establishes that the world and human expectations shall be discarded, that you may learn of life itself. Verse 16 represents the job, of the messenger. Verse 17 is your invitation to belong, if you pray honestly and believe truly.

It is hereby written and secured as the right of life/ IF YOU CHANGE AND DO BETTER, then Revelations 6 shall disappear and you shall not die, nor shall the earth end. BUT IF YOU DO NOT, then the words shall come true quickly and against YOU.

The writing of Revelations 14 from verse 1-5 is about men, in a different time than Revelations 6 talks about (it is a different ending). And writes, that there shall be those who give themselves in trust to GOD AND TO JESUS and no one else, not even to women. The song they learn is about trust and love for GOD AND FOR JESUS It is in their own hearts and souls. "The 144,000" is again a multiple of 12 as identified earlier in Revelations, simply meaning all who can/ all the "heavens" are pleased. In verse 6-13 it is these men who given the job of proclaiming the eternal gospel to the world. After they do, "babylon the great, the United States of America" loses all power. The third angel represents a warning that should life on earth/ begin and then turn away from GOD , the consequences would be very severe/ the impact of this event would be "deadly in a worldly sense" for those who trust And believe JESUS. Verse 14-20 continues with the same description as Revelation 1 only here the job is different/ it is divide those who stand from those who have fallen and died. He sits upon the cloud to indicate/ this is not "an earthly job"/ he is only a presence seen as "like the son of man". Then comes someone different/ being in charge of all who hate and loathe what is valued by GOD These people are killed/ and there is a great many dead. The fire represents hell/ but the "angels" are truths that decide the future of man and woman: it is armageddon . This ending is more severe than Revelation 6, because the people started, and then turned away.

Revelation 10 is yet a different ending to life on earth; the mighty angel coming down from heaven is many nuclear bombs "the seven thunders". Hidden by the cloud (all the debris) a rainbow of colors (the reality of fire displayed as colors from the bombs) He plants a foot on land and sea because both will be equally devastated. It is an "angel from heaven"/ because it is a truth allowed by heaven and given to man: this is the little scroll. Those who believe are given the job to go to all nations and warn of these things/ to try to stop it: for you cannot surrender once it occurs; it will happen too fast/ death is next.

In Revelation 19 is yet a different ending; verse 11-21 the description represents "someone sent by GOD " To help the earth recover from all its sins; justice is his weapon. The robe "dripped in blood" represents the life JESUS LIVED, has been given to him/ not on the inside, but on the outside. He is given authority with words, and with life; and it is clear to all this one has been prepared By GOD To do this work. In verse 17-18 truth declares a new day on earth, where all the power that has been vanishes. Pride does not regain its promise/ power is ended. "The two of them were thrown alive into the fiery lake of burning sulfur" means, that the presence of power and pride remains, but turn anyone who desires them becomes insane, rather than in control of them. The birds merely represent a "new freedom for humanity".

Revelation 20 is still a different ending; it says a truth or warning will come down from heaven and seize or control, for all the people of GOD On the earth/ those things that defeat them; and not let them exist again for "a thousand years/ roughly the amount of time left for humanity on earth, before all resources would be consumed in "the best case scenario". The thrones of authority, depict the trials and tribulations of all who have testified to JESUS They are not living as humanity/ they are living examples of "how humanity shall live". The first resurrection is then a time where human existence is governed by the love of these men and women in their worship of JESUS HIMSELF. Verse 7 represents anger and hatred have returned to the earth/ it is the end of time for humanity. The devil or want is assigned the same place as pride and power and those who choose this too, shall go insane. Verse 11 IS THE COMING OF JESUS It is the resurrection of life that shall enter into eternity with JESUS. Verse 13 says, that even those who were condemned, are allowed a second chance/ because some of them, were only deceived, and they have been punished enough. Verses 7-10 are the evidence that weapons of mass destruction are removed from the earth/ but when time has passed and want has arisen because the people know: there simply isn't anything left to use/ then some will find these weapons and intend to kill the others to prolong their own lives on the earth. The rest is judgment on the last day.

In Revelation 21 from its beginning; a new heaven and new earth means dramatic changes are in store for humanity. Verse 2 is a promise of "lovely things to be done for humanity"/ this is what GOD WILL do for you; if you change. "There will be no death" is the understanding that death is not an end, but a beginning to eternity: we must die as bodies, as they are not eternal! verse 8, are the descriptions of people who cannot be forgiven; therefore you are hereby warned distinctly to repent of these things and not go back to them. Once you pass into death, life as the potential for love, for you is over/ if you did not change. "Magic" here is about other things than an "entertaining magician": do not go where the occult goes. Remain alive. The other descriptions "have exceptions as well; it is up to you to repent": no one can do it for you, only you. The consequence of body is minimal, it is the purpose of mind, and the intent of your heart that truly decides. Verse 9 represents the honor of the life prepared for you, all the descriptions of architecture are about knowledge and understanding and wisdom, and especially soul. Verse 22 is about the end of religion on earth/ instead you will accept BELIEVE and find in FAITH everything it is meant to be. Verse 26 reminds all, that this is not a free gift/ but comes with a price, that demands YOUR respect and YOUR honor, and YOUR discipline.

The issues of life or death are simple ones/ those who hate sufficiently to kill themselves just to prove "they can make you fear them"; are clearly abused in some form, either by their own pride/ or someone else's. Pride "pulls the trigger", it is the little voice inside your mind that fills the void with something. If you do not defend against it/ then it demands control. Pride wants power, thereby the two main enemies of humanity come to join forces [power & want] / the result is: "going to get me some power / even if you have to die". This is and seems a contradiction in all terms/ BUT the reality is, applied by truth: if this is all your desire for life is/ then you don't deserve to live. Power will demand, "I TAKE their lives, they don't take mine". But reality says: you have already died/ therefore why do you care? Here the mind intervenes with the clear intent to produce FEAR in all who are not "the living dead".

The question thereby occurs: HOW does pride intervene in someone's life up to the point of death and beyond? WHY does someone who has lost their position as a participant in life, simply not die? WHEN will this soul that lets them live here be taken away? And WHAT can we do to intervene in this demand for fear? The answers exist as follows:

pride is the existence of a demand for more, far more than the rest, "for something to be proud of"! Separated by its three parts: existence here has been devalued to the consequence of others and what they think; you have no mind of your own. Demand for more, is the experience assigned by a true intent to play god, YOU have experienced power and accepted it as your goal in life/ you want it more than life itself. Than the rest, expresses contempt for the others you will not make you a god over them/ those who do not serve you, and bow to you, and make you special in the way you EXPECT them to. The result is an affliction, that begins the disease of a slow death. The affliction is based in a critical decision to "be god over them"/ therefore life becomes not about participating or living; but how to make them obey, and if not obey, how then can you punish these slaves? The reality of our lives as human is simply: we have failed so much and so often, that we must endure the critical relationship and consequences that the decisions of humanity inflict upon us/ how else could we learn: what person among you does not want, what person among you does not accept pride, what person among you looks only to eternity instead of today? Therefore we learn by failure. The old especially WILL whine, and cry, and carry on as if they were infants and someone stole their bottle. They will demand "we owe them, everything they want". But the reality is, YOU "the elders of this day" stole from the youth, everything you could lay your hands on; YOU took, the resources, the money, the environment, the sanctity of nature, and YOU trashed it: this is YOUR legacy to life! So listen to me carefully and clearly when I say to you, only compassion will keep you alive/ be careful what you do. Do you not say to all: earn your own money/ why should I pay for you/ get a job/ I got mine, and you get nothing/no money, no healthcare, why should we take care of you/ and so on; clearly you do say this to all. Therefore when reality and truth come to take away your lies, and convict you of treason against the youth and against life/ should we not say the same to you? There are however considerations for "trying to make life better for some (even though you pushed the bill, to others) who have no money"/ therefore the same should be done for you.

The deliberate intervention in someone else's life is a critical decision, it will change your life as well. The demand of the living is to take as much as they can, as quickly as they can: "going to die, and get old/ why would I wait"? Why would you accept anyone who does not benefit your life directly? Why do you need to consider your brother, your sister, or any one else: is this not your life without exception/ isn't that what freedom means? The answer is NO/ that is not what freedom means! That is what failure means. The reality assigned by freedom is the truth, that we search for life as best we can. The reality of failure assigned by truth is, that you shall search for "treasure"/ but throw away the only treasure that exists; it is life itself. Therefore the question of life becomes: what value do you grant to existence? Is not all life, life? Here you do get to play god, to your own little world. The consequence of selfishness is very blatant, YOU are important/ nothing else matters. The consequence of power is very critical, YOU are important/ and all the rest are "destined to serve you". The consequence of want is a decision to let value become things, and life thereby becomes the price you will pay to get these things. The consequence of pride is a decision, to make the others pay for your life/ while you intervene in theirs to make them less. And so on, all these decisions are human demands, thereby NOT a journey into the grace and truth about life.

If you are understanding/ then you comprehend that murder, mass murderer, or an organized gang of murderers called terrorists/ or mafia/ or whatever are NOT about religions, politics, society, or retribution: these are merely the excuses for murder. If it was about religion/ then whatever you describe as GOD rules. It is was about politics/ then whatever benefitted the opportunities and freedoms of your society rules: this is not "your rules/ but our rules, religion is not an issue here. If it was about society, then it would be about the lives of us all, and peace would be the issue that rules. If this is about retribution/ then it is necessary, that significant damage to your personal life is distinctly involved; excuses & innuendo are not sufficient/ the consequence of what was is distinctly involved, and the reality of hate and damage to the others, that YOU are cultivating with your actions must be considered: murder is NEVER AN answer/ until it is the removal of a murderer, and then only as reality requires.

The constant and true definition of a soldier is quite simply, either the useless and pitiful excuse to hide or kill or control/ OR it is where the honor of being important to the lives of others drives you and the others with you, to be the best you can be. Honor is not found in death, not found in killing another, or being wounded without a cause worth the price. Honor is the destiny of a decision to participate as someone who cares, and shares his or her life with the others. Honor is the happiness of believing in yourself, because you have carried your burden, and helped the rest. Honor is the distinction given to those who are or did fight for a better life for us all. Honor is the existence beyond selfishness/ where all life begins in courage. Honor never surrenders to failure, not as a battleground/ but as life. Honor is the essence of a path that leads to GOD . IF YOU have true honor/ then be at peace in your soul, for you do have a place in eternity and love. You are the best society has/ because HONOR knows what is justice and fair play, and will fight for peace, and for life. Society is bought not by blood, but by honor and the courage that becomes "my blood" given for you. Society is not bought by money, but the honor and determination of justice and fair play, that is "my life" given for all. The consequence of selfishness, sustains power as it always has. The reality of love sustains our souls, and it alone becomes sharing, caring, and equality. The question of our day is then; who are you "a soldier"/ or simply less.

Those who choose freedom, FIND THE VALUE IN LIFE, to be their only treasure in this life. There are no exceptions. Those who choose life are then critically humbled by the intricate detail and intensive reality of what life is and means. Therein all who accept the value that is life, then search for GOD and find RESPECT. Just so you know/ GOD DOESN'T NEED YOU, to destroy anything for HIM. Those who destroy the lives GOD DID MAKE Are those who intend to take "away the freedom of GOD " and thereby declare themselves HIS ENEMY.

BEFORE YOU TAKE ANY OTHER LIFE/ BE SURE YOU "WANT TO GO TO HELL".

IF you are listening these terrorists bombers are a prophecy described in Mark 9: 14-29 . If then you value their lives/ you will pray. The question is not about punishments/ not about judgments either: the price of murder is set by law. The only question to you, is do you care enough to help them "ask for another chance"?

There exists another more complex question simply for believers, it is do you believe in the teachings of Paul as found in the new testament/ or do you believe in freedom and life? The difference is "the rules". Therefore a question arises: are these rules of Paul important to this day/ or are they "his rules for living life"? I believe more simply than Paul, understanding love to be "the greatest gift of all"/ the consequence of love allows the freedom in your soul to be your guide. Thereby rules are of less importance to me. It is then of importance to also suggest that although the first believers "Shared everything, without thought to what comes later"/ it is likely, they began to fail simply because when the money ran out/ and laziness crept in; people were upset with JESUS. The reality is then more simple, than to give all "your money to some group"/ INSTEAD give carefully, and generously, to the whole/ but insist that money you have earned, is also your obligation to spend wisely for the benefit of life, including yours. That means, you will "keep your vote", and you will keep your duty to help the rest by prayer and by reality. It is fair. 2^nd Peter 2, will give you warning to beware of people who undermine your faith. CLEARLY this is not about your faith/ this paragraph is about the common living of life in this world; and it is honored more by cheerful and generous giving/ than by giving to a group and then finding yourself in need. Simply: no one has more right to decide what you will do with your possessions than you, if you wish to give generously/ if you are prepared to live according to the designs of others/ if you can honestly accept poverty as the years go by, without bitterness then do so. But if you cannot/ then make your own choices; so that you may accuse no one of directing or controlling or changing your life. Be free, and choose properly for yourself and the others as well/ do not worship money or possessions, they cannot replace life/ and the lives they buy are not worth having, if that's all they want. Let love decide/ because love has greater value than even life itself: what is life without love? The answer is an existence/ rather than a joy. The passage wherein JESUS tells a man to surrender his wealth and follow him, IS more clearly true: IF JESUS WERE HERE TODAY, would you not be more wise, to see the miracles and live the reality of HIS disciples/ than to choose money? We are not so lucky, that this choice exists as the same for us. I say to you again, when you choose between possessions and life; DO consider the miracles that is your body: a microscopic strand of DNA/ RNA completes control, builds, and functions a very complex chemical factory that is your body, giving you all "the utilities, power stations, transportation, communications, structures, balance, natural wisdom, healthcare, artistic endeavor, informational sensors, sex for reproduction, comprehension & storage, chemical processing and waste removal, mechanical expertise & load bearing, heating, ventilation, wiring, plumbing, surveillance, terrain navigation with integrated ability, spatial orientation, taste and smell functions, audio, speech, touch, physical information, pregnancy and supporting hardware, immunization and healing, matched parts, conveyors and pneumatic pumps, lubricated joints and tethered appendages, options in muscle function, freedom, opportunity, "landscaping (hair)", and fundamental and expressive "supercomputing beyond anything humanly possible" and potential beyond our imagination/ and more": even LOVE. If you believe this can be an accident, then you are so stupid, it is unbelievable: PITY YOU! Yet millions are working everyday, to crucify these realities of nature. UNLIKE your engineering disasters/ when this one fails, all of nature fails; is not one SLIGHT mistake enough to take down and destroy your "impressive" work? It certainly is, therefore understand this, and it is true of physics and other endeavors as well/ the days of STUPIDITY, WHERE IGNORANCE teaches you better are over! You have crossed the line into barriers that fail, destroy life on earth: YOU ARE SO PITIFUL OF MIND AND HEART, that YOU are less than the shit you secrete; because you do not care enough to protect life first! IF YOU WILL NOT REPENT OF THESE THINGS; IT IS MY GUARANTEE TO YOU, within 20 years, any that might be left upon the face of the earth will pray unendingly for death; as extinction proves your "intellect" was nothing more than the last attempt to create another "false god". You dream of being god/ but you are building satan/ that you may die without home or hope or future: There are truly no words to describe your ignorance!

Let the ass-holes of evolution explain " an infant, BECAUSE THEY DO have to start somewhere/ did they prove anything" Does a "chicken come before the egg"/ does a man come before a woman/ does a infant come before a man/ how does the infant survive? Let the ridiculous assertions of "their fact" be proven in life. If they cannot prove it in life/ then the only science they display, is the art of lying and the sin of digging your graves for you. This evolution is just another weak and foolish attempt at another false god/ it is as old as stupidity itself; and as sick as suicide. Remove the false priests of evolution, there is no science involved/ just the sickness of mental diarrhea/ and the plagiarism of using "the proof of perfect design", in another lie as a religion without a foundation/ without a single truth to depend upon/ without a single thought that does not steal from what is real and true. Their whole claim is based upon "using old parts to create new life"/ I guess there were transplant surgeons back then, and as far as immunity well "what could go wrong with their suggestions, "we built it all ourselves, because we were smart enough to keep what we wanted when it was given to us". Add a few "pointed hats, voodoo dolls, a boiling kettle, and some witch doctors: and presto you get an evolutionary scholar". Apparently the sewers were leaking, again. And do take another look at so-called science: a few billion dollars a trip for the shuttle, and what do they bring back (apart from the hubble telescope)/ nothing more than pride. Antibiotics changed medicine/ do you think for thousands of years people have not tried operations? They have, but people died anyway, because infections ruled. Vaccination IS a big benefit to humanity/ but together these have created a population that is crushing the earth: thereby reality has changed/ and every life is in jeopardy. The nuclear bomb opened the door to extinction on earth/ also caused by its effect the economic devastation of both the USA & the USSR, and a severe test to the others. There are no advances in foods, all that has been done genetically is your impending tragedy: additional yields from breeding are more work than science. Computers are a mixed blessing, both useful as in these documents/ and an additional competitor in jobs, money, and work. Apart from materials science/ there are no "scientific" advances in machinery, it is all basic work and applied skills learned from doing. And so on/ doesn't mean science is all bad; instead, reality proves science, just like healthcare, government, judicial, and education simply CANNOT "govern themselves". TO GAIN CONTROL OVER YOUR OWN LIFE, is to gain authority necessary to "govern". Therefore freedom, discipline, and truth are the foundation of your authority.

On a more happy note, as all these failures of your "experts" is like sitting in a sewer with them. The definitions of simple happiness & honest living are about friends, whether human or not. There are many times when we will each be substantially alone, and know it. These are simple experiences when questions come to mind about friendship for one; and the degrees to which it shapes and affects our lives. Alone means without human company, not "a simple void without anything". Thereby the question of alone is "who & what then participates with me"? The answer applies the life of every living thing, "plants, animals, birds, bugs, etc" and understands: that survival is not a game for any of these either. Therefore we do exist within a similar structure as do they. The comprehension of structure establishes 4 important facets in the living of life. They are: that we are each dependent upon the energy that gives our body vertical rise/ that we are anchored through the distinctions of weight or gravity to this environment/ that motion (horizontal energies must be absorbed or controlled/ and the internal & external forces required to sustain the integrity of the structure (body, plant, etc) must find an equalization point to achieve balance within themselves.

Each of these is actually useful in the relationship that we must achieve to complete friendship. What gives rise to the energy of hop & the understanding of means, establishes a foundation for building sequential developments in behavior that honor & trust each other. Respect too, comes from the achievement of happiness, as it is the actual consequence of this energy. Energy here means, the composition necessary to "release the opportunities of growth". The development of an anchor from which we do not stray far, enables the structure of friendship to be dependable, trustworthy, responsible, and free within the defined space. As in all aspects of environment, beyond the barriers a large number of influences exists to confront and attempt control of isolated realities; these are the potential enemies or friends, as only time will tell. And last the consequence of a confined energy is the rhythm it will display. Where a successful rhythm is established, a successful relationship begins.

In more simple terms, the disciplines of friendship follow a defined order/ but even if you do everything perfectly, it is still necessary to find basic interests that fuel the intensity of human existence at a personal level for both. Do not assume/ simply ask. As to the illustration that other life forms are "friends"/ it relies upon the honesty of your compassion. Compassion is the understanding of vulnerability that exists for another life, and the decision to "walk gently, with care, and with the knowledge that what you do/ does impact these other lives". The establishment of a personal commitment in love, to ANY other living thing is to establish a friendship.

In contrast to friendship is the demand to be enemies. A study in effect currently is the Israel and Palestine problems. Israel is to be commended at this moment for pulling out of Gaza, it is the first true sign of an intent for peace they have given. The question remains if either side can hold on to the concept of "being neighbors". Neighbors, does not require you to be friends/ but it does require you to be civil [to understand each has a right, and an honest opportunity to be here]. To remain enemies translates as, "he who surrenders, is a woman {by the standard of man/ it means, vulnerable to rape}". Therein, it is clearly seen that the words used, and the descriptions assessed, are fundamental to the division of people's. To accept peace translates as, the ability to trust our situation shall improve for both sides/ therein we both have too much to lose, to play these games. Fear says, if the other side gains in strength/ then they will be all the more able to attack us! Reality says, if the other side is vulnerable to all things because they are not strong enough to be happy/ then they will attack you. The issue on both sides is land and resources/ religion as is most of the time, just another excuse. There is no more land/ resources are limited/ the consequence is divide properly or share and accept the limitations of the other. Both sides find this contemptible, at this time/ although again Israel finally is making progress. It is not fundamental to man/ that you must control it all; this is the description of an enemy, not a man. Thereby in reality the issue facing both sides is to decide is they can grow beyond the children they wish to be/ or become the men, and women the world needs them to be. The whining an crying and wetting the bed, must stop/ if not the tantrums will continue until war eliminates both. If the Jews win against Palestine/ then the other Arabs will confront them. If Palestine wins/ then you may be certain an atomic bomb will be waiting for the arrival of Arabs to "their land"/ not to mention all the Jews in the world, and the nations that would be drawn in. In simple truth, like so much of the world today, even if you don't see it {refugee's number into the millions in nearly every country on earth/ when reality causes famine, and truth says no more of this; then this same conflict will arise in every nation: all will have to choose}. So if you believe in truth/ then it is very necessary that an appropriate answer exists for these 2 nations as they are the epitaph or the understanding that will exist as the example for the world/ in the VERY near future. If you choose brawling, as the weak would advise/ then you choose chaos for the world. These are weak, as in the radical elements of jewish extremism or muslim or islam or christian or whatever/ because they gain their strength from the lies they choose to enlist. Weakness is, the intent to hide in fears, while demanding to be strong. Strength does not listen to such pitiful excuses for little girls. Strength asserts, the price that must be paid/ IS THE PRICE YOU WILL PAY, not someone for you/ not others because of what you do/ and not trembling and peeing in "your panties" because you know you cannot win; therefore you play a game. Strength says clearly, either live and die in the honor of what you believe or get out, and leave the men alone. Terrorism is not a "fight for freedom/ not a fight for honor/ not a fight for country/ not against tyranny either; terrorism is the disgrace of killing people and destroying possessions/ just because you are too weak to work for an honest answer to your problems. Where the enemy perceived, is too strong for other methods/ then your challenge is to change the enemy; by establishing the desire for a better life within their soldiers: if they have a better life than you/ then listen and work in the politics and for the politics that will govern a nation. NO army contains and enslaves a nation, without that nations help. Therefore understand what is better, what is useful, what is not/ and proceed with honor, as best you can: this is strength, not weakness. The people of every nation desire a "better living"/ it is only the wealthy of that nation that stands in the way. They do so not because they are evil as such/ instead they compromise simply because "they have too much to lose". The reality of being equal/ or selling the nation to compromise is not so simple as "he/ she did or did not". You must understand the benefits and the realities of the future; LEARN and then decide. Most will laugh at this discussion/ saying "he is an idiot/ and knows nothing". I will suggest to you instead/ that as the sea dies, the famine controls everything/ the resources are completely lost, and a myriad of other monumental realities take over your life: you will long for the days when life was so easy to understand/ the time when YOU COULD HAVE done something else. Simple population pressures will soon bring you Armageddon/ add to that weapons of mass destruction; and you will all soon be dead. Do not believe me, I don't care if you do or not/ that is not my job here. Rather trust your own intellect and decide if all these things cannot happen here on earth/ and then prove what is REAL AND TRUE, and prove what is a risk that cannot be taken. GROW UP, or you will kill the future with you and every life in it; eternity will remember you as a mass murderer; And YOU shall indeed go directly to HADES: the place where all "gods" go to prove they have what it takes to be god. [you do not/ no human being does]. As to reality; YOU will either play as you wish, and quickly end in hell/ or you will accept the price of strength and being a man or woman; which is to protect life on earth, from its extinction. Choose, but do remember it is a child that sees the world in wonder and grace and fun/ do not lose your grip on the honesty of a world that needs no protection; simply make it so.

As time passes, it seems necessary to talk simply for a moment. In simple terms, in my life it seems I have returned to an infant/ with things happening that I do not understand at all, but I am alive and at peace. Oddly I have uninvited tits that are now sensitive at the nipples/ mens tits have no sensations. In simple terms "the male equipment" has become about survival and work/ although "not so bad". And I am encountering the concept of being "a woman" although I don't have a clue, NOTHING. Life has become strange. You are entering judgment/ whether you like it or not, there is no choice. You must encounter the truth that determines what your life is going to be/ you must choose inside where it counts/ where only you decide: what you are honestly going to accept for yourself. Because the old ways are also dying for you. BUT THERE ARE NEW CHOICES, and as I have chosen to accept the new ways; even though I cannot comprehend what that means/ it is clear to me, that life can be happy, pleasant, and peaceful; even loving at some time in the future: JESUS IS LORD over that aspect of my life/ may HE be so to you as well. YOU ARE WARNED, as it is true with all life/ that your decision does have a consequence: we cannot turn back time/ we cannot stop it without being dead either. Therefore DO make the decision you can accept/ don't lie to yourself; be fair to yourself and to your duty to humanity and to life and to the earth; it is very important that you do. YOU ARE WARNED, That GOD WILL KNOW Exactly what you truly decide, and whether you lie to yourself or not/ HE WILL KNOW THE TRUTH. Therefore don't lie, especially to yourself. Some fear judgment day/ this day! It should NOT be so/ as this is your final opportunity to survive; this is your opportunity to find peace, hope, and all things of grace, beauty, love, and the intensity of life in happiness. This judgment day is about living/ BUT IF YOU FAIL, another comes about hell, and hades, and destruction; because you were not judged worthy of your lives. BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU DO, Your life is "on the line"/ and everyone is affected by your decision. BE RESPONSIBLE, Or you and the earth will be dead. While this is a threat/ the purpose is for life, that you may continue on; in new and better ways. You cannot continue as you are/ the earth will not let you; you cannot wait, balance will soon be dead; you must decide NOW.

GOD AND JESUS HAVE BLESSED US ALL! Now it is your turn to decide, The fate of life on earth.

Still waiting, so would have to say, life is "normal", I guess, things are quiet mostly anyway. Of interest, tits still here; too warm in summer/ out in cool night air to find them "cool on the edges"/ so apparently they are annoying summer and winter; no use for them, but they are here so its "welcome aboard"/ why fight. Am looking at life a little different, wondering why life cannot be less "a cut and dried reality"/ and more gentle and friendly, even when things go wrong? And yes I know that sounds feminine, but I am a man until that is plainly and simply over. Even so, there are consequences; such as this chest doesn't like being treated like a man; I'm thinking men have a better deal. As to "graying up" reality/ the question really is: how do we live with reality, rather than confront it and defend against it? The consequence of every reality is basically "being assigned" rather than choosing the decisions you must make/ this is of course; a separate issue, from decisions you make and the consequences you have chosen for yourself. Understanding applied to truth, defends the statement; that every reality not made by humanity deserves its own considerations: it is true, that many things confront our lives/ but it is also true these things are necessary for life. Such as earthquakes (which relieve stress in the relationship of the earth's mass/ to its energy and order), volcano's (which relieve the atomic fuel scenario, from excessive pressures) and so on. So instead of "feeling attacked"/ we should instead be aware and interested in disciplined actions, rather than pressed reactions. To defend our lives against all that threatens us from the various directions of human and non-human endeavors/ our existence first relies upon each other, then upon the sanctity of life to establish our worth/ then upon the consequence of our understanding and knowledge/ then upon our strength and courage and duty to each other/ then upon the reality of our environment/ and finally upon the decisions of what we ourselves will do, in a situation of life or death? The values we place upon each other, or life itself/ how we interpret death/ and the foundation we choose; to say to each other, one of us is going to have to die. These are all critical questions of compensation, as is measured by the mind to alter and conceive of reasons why: we can choose not to die ourselves. Therefore the first and most basic question is WHY are you afraid to die? WHY? The obvious reason is death is not pretty! The second opportunity is for anyone who has seen it, death can be very harsh! The third examination, becomes death is very permanent: you are done here! None of these are comforting.

Religions all promise "this is not so/ be happy, follow the rules/ and obey": therefore some comfort is derived from religion/ by those who obey: all solved. Reality however says, "It's a cut and dried/ black and white situation" that needs no other description to declare: "it can't be good". The question of life, then presents the alternative: if you don't understand anything basically, about how you became a life/ then how can you understand anything basically about death. It is plain and simple to declare "life is better"/ but in reality as all life begins with sperm and egg, the consequence of these as disciplined reactions to the truth, that life is designed: 6 billion DNA instructions cannot be wrong/ then it is fair to say; as a seed is planted into the ground, that new life can grow from its death: why can we not do the same? Here, voices shall be raised to complain: have you ever seen a man raise from the ground "a new life"/ just because plant seeds can do this, no evidence exists to declare humanity can. And so it is! The question then refers to existence as a method of growth, from which we are to enter a new life entirely/ rather like our existence here is akin to becoming either sperm or egg as it would befit the entry into another dimension. Do you know/ are you so sure/ where is your evidence for what does or does not exist beyond the physical definition of your body and mind? Here the question then becomes more simple to examine our existence and ascend beyond body or mind to the state of life that places our opportunity in this thought, as a process which encounters energy for the specific purpose of eternity. Therein definitions assert, that we are organized energy; without energy, what would you be? The answer is nothing at all; even mass is organized energy. Therefore we exist as disciplined energy for the purpose applied by thought/ here the next question is then: is this our thought, or "someone else's"? Freedom says, we have the most say/ therefore what occurs in our lives is about who we are/ who the others are/ or what we want or desire in life. Discipline allows us to be "who we are/ by choice". Therefore the more disciplined you are/ the greater your reality or identity, in the expanse of energy. The influence or participation of others, examines our own lives/ and helps us to determine who we are, and why we are allowed to change; if we desire it so. The question of want; issues the challenge: what is life worth to you? Really? And it makes you choose between the life around you, and your own selfishness. Then we enter desire, a place of opportunity to decide the consequence of our lives will be: according to our true desire. It is odd, and unpleasant; but desire can establish "voices inside", to alter our composition of personal identity and define new and lessor substances with human faces. Desire creates voices, through the simple experiments of laziness, and the purpose of ease. Laziness is an expression against discipline/ and "voices", are the intent to create an awareness in your mind, that this is acceptable, and useful to you. Intent means; to establish, the purpose of your heart. Therefore your purpose in laziness is found to be, "I don't want to work/ I want to play god, and be free without responsibility." The voices, are your mental pictures about how it is you deserve to do this. Thereby we see a need to be fulfilled in the basic analysis of laziness, that displays the knowledge this is unfair to the others/ and the common existence of avoidance by intellectual escape. The foundation of a life "worth living"/ is the existence of love. Nothing less will do/ those who live without love/ do so to avoid death. Love is your acceptance of duty, responsibility, honor, honesty, and life within the framework of your own determination to succeed in sharing and caring about the others. Laziness is none of these, and end in hell. Not because of penalties specifically for laziness/ but hell is the abandonment of your life by GOD , because you were not worthy of the life given to you. This is then literally the "end of you".

Here, the opportunity of eternity for those who do find love, examines the potential and possibility of an existence without time. Time is the elemental beginning of base materials as they form in the existence of motion as energy wills it to be/ we are not "base materials"/ we are disciplined energy; formed from order and applied by truth to the directions and stability of a life within thought. You are capable of thought, each one; because this is in your soul. Consequently the common existence of soul, asks the question: IF we are such creations, to be capable of soul/ then how is it, we as a majority are so much less? The answer is simply, you must believe in the virtue and beginning of soul to encounter the journey that takes you there. Why is not an issue/ this is a command; but in relation to the question of why, must we believe: the answer returns as, it is the price given to you to pay; because life itself is expensive, and it is fair you should give something to repay GOD'S EFFORTS IN YOUR BEHALF.

Here, we do Encounter the consequence of GOD In our lives! The question is then: explain to me, the foundation that exists between our lives, and the foundation that exists for me to enter within this thought? The definition of thought is, "created" within the environment of opportunity, possibilities become real/ and life "the pleasure of our soul". The question of foundations is then more simple; it is the relationship between soul and energy, that encourages happiness: this is love. The definitions of love examine truth as if it were our home, in reality. Thereby we come to realize the critical relationship between creation and ourselves is built upon the distinctions we create in the solitude of a fundamental decision between ourselves and our creation: or soul. Soul is the evidence and the reality of creation within us/ it is not "a fantasy or ideology" soul is that expansion of energy that gives us thought. Thought is that development of discipline that functions within order to achieve truth/ hope/ love/ life/ and everything good. It is the mind that functions within want and measurement, that brings all things bad. Therefore the two are as "good and evil"/ fundamentally tied together to create you. The absence of good in you, is the evidence that you do not accept, life as the foundation to achieve eternity/ the consequence being there is no home for you to enter/ and you must exit energy in death. Therefore you exist no more. Judgment says; "this is not fair/ to all those whom you damaged or destroyed with your own failures" therefore hades exists at the bequest of those who became abused by your hand/ and they insist, GOD INSISTS For the damage you intentionally caused, you shall be punished. It is fair.

Returning to "a more gentle world"/ comes the decision to assemble society by the means of JUSTICE. Justice is not the creation of laws, the demand for rules, or the consequence of needs. Justice is the honesty that brings life to the forefront/ and all other considerations are second. Environment is equal to life/ because without environment, there is no life. The consequence of these two realities is then as simple as what will function to bring these the greatest happiness for all? The answers are listed in these documents; but may simply be said to be: LOVE GOD FIRST Because we are dead without HIM! And love thy neighbor as yourself, because this simple decision applies justice to all you do personally. Is this not what JESUS RECOMMENDED TO YOU/ it is indeed, and it is true.

The consequence of want, demands things/ the issues of want are also very simple; If we share and care, we can all have much even though it is unfair to continue taking much/ if you won't, then you will have little or death; it is your choice. The consequence of people who are exceptionally less, than they were created to be/ is not a decision for you to make. Therefore do whatever you can, to give them no excuse whatsoever/ and let them be whatever they shall be. Society always has law/ the law decides wherever the law is fair; be kind to yourself and pay attention to the laws made for you, and the judge who judges your part of society/ it matters. It is really, not much more complicated; you simply choose to participate for the benefit of all/ rather than the selfishness and power of you. Some will always rebuke this as insanity/ they will not "work for anyone but themselves"! So let them be free/ but retain and NEVER SURRENDER, the right and the foundations that allow you to control their actions over you: by vote, you set their boundaries over life.

It may be of some interest to women to learn, that the sexual response of men is based upon 3 independent things; erection is programmed into a simple response to body image/ therefore control is designed by muting the detail of that image, and looking only to life itself. The second, or performance is defined more simply by the expectation of chemicals, and how long it takes to make them produce a response/ this is controlled by the honesty of your expectations; whether you want only the chemicals, or whether the woman is actually involved in your behaviors. If only chemicals/ it will be quick and very simple "slam bam, thank you ma'am." If you as a woman are actually involved in the sexual task, then their will be movement and motion dedicated to your enjoyment. The third development in sexual activity is "the spiritual side"/ or more correctly the true understanding and honesty of an interpretation in joy, of the miracles we are/ this is praise Of GOD OUR CREATOR.

Of interest to men and women, in sexual conduct is the reality/ a vasectomy means there are no more chemicals in sex. That doesn't mean an erection or the want leaves/ simply the impact of chemicals leaves. That means the reality becomes basically as "hot, sticky, work". A reality few men will accept long-term/ a reality women will find very frustrating as well. You need not be concerned about the behaviors of men sexually/ you can tell easily by having sex with them. The male body produces only a "base rate" of sperm per day/ that means more sperm will be present, in a sexual encounter after as many as 3-7 days depending upon the male. If that sperm isn't there/ then some type of sexual encounter has occurred. "Its not all bad, men/ after all, they can't tell unless they have sex with you." If you have no respect left for each other, either fix that or leave/ why should you condemn each other to a life without fun or happiness?

There is a constant reality in human history, "of killing the messenger"/ because you didn't like the message. This occurs, in the most primitive of minds as an option because then you don't have to hear the message again: "its dead". BUT the message here is, if you don't change/ then YOU are dead; so it is a true message of hope to you. The question generated by discussion of this topic is of course, what did you gain/ why / and what did you lose, if those among you who swim in hate; are able to kill me? The answers are: nothing but a curse, for no reason better than insanity and hate/ therefore a call for hell and hades together without end, and the truth that change will save your life: into a living nightmare. Whereas the failure of change will bring Armageddon, or the same into your life. Armageddon is the demand, you must now "be your own god/ and live with your own consequences/ as they are in truth. You decide/ I can't say I really care; we all die, and then eternity begins! How much is a day worth, over say 100 billion years? You tell me. I say, it doesn't matter at all/ except to the ones you leave.

Secondary to living together in respect for each other/ is the nature of humanity; young or old. Primary to all descriptions of human behavior is the simple expansion of "you/ me" into the failures of mine. Mine is an aggression that assumes compensation is a justified relationship to the life you have lived. Truth replies, that the life you live is compensation enough, and the relationships you share justify the opportunities you have to care about the life we all live. Therefore instead of possession and attack and defense of that possession/ reality suggests a "more gray outlook"; in the relationship of human behavior; from cut and dried/ black & white/ to the understanding of discipline as the predecessor of order. Order says: all deserve and need to work, to support their duty to life. Order says: all are equal, thereby only the amount of risk, or fundamental value clearly taken or given to all life/ determines the opportunities of excess. Order says: no life here, shall be allowed to believe in superiority/ it is not so. You have granted yourselves chaos instead/ by letting fools degrade the lives of others, and play the games of "how many lives can I enslave".

Discipline takes each of these simple understandings in order, and forms governments/ applies law and the definable characteristics of honor and duty/ and educates the people to control their lives with knowledge and a honest vote over themselves: within the limitations of critical truths and inherent rights as assigned within constitutional documents.

The third development of fundamental social opportunity is "eminent domain" or the alternate claims of "ITS MY RIGHT/ as opposed to the group who says, WE NEED THIS FOR OURSELVES". The compensation for society, is: WE protect each other, WE defend ourselves from the others, WE need each other therefore we honor the lives of each other. But, after sufficient ease and security has come, the contests begin as to who deserves what. This inevitably leads to "social wars" about ownership and the right to decide minimal issues for one/ but critical assumptions for the other. Eminent domain means; the group who has the power/ takes what they want. Personal freedom, property, and fundamental rights in justice means: NOT WITHOUT "a darn good reason". Therefore where impasses exist it is the responsibility of the whole society to decide who has the right/ and how much shall be paid. To that end the variety of base human existence is tested within the limits of personal freedoms and finds: as it applies to human "I did it to myself" failures/ freedom says you may do so, but not endanger the others; they in turn shall use your demise to educate the young. As it applies to such things as nakedness/ freedom says, you may do so; but not to the extent that you control society/ instead sections of the cities shall be designated "naked" or whatever. As it applies to condemnation of property and/or, the taking of it/ justice says; the property belongs to the owner, unless society establishes a clear need. Once a need that can be applied to ANY other property has been examined and declared true/ then the property goes to national advertisement, and clear advertizement for the area prior to auction. At auction the price is set, by the highest qualified bidder [a qualified bidder is one, who has an honest right to bid and the respect of assets sufficient for the purpose described]/ and the city pays double, if it is willing. If that owner does not sell, then he or she pays the taxes at the "city price"/ and pays back taxes not to exceed 7 years at that price "obviously, you have not paid your share". Many will complain; ITS MINE, .....! But honesty says; no man, woman, or family holds the heritage of planet earth within their ownership/ we as humanity are given the earth to share. If you will not share in honest needs, and critical social infrastructure/ then you have no right to what society provides to you too. MOVE, why would you stay/ power is an enemy, therefore you are indicted; and must now prove it is not so. As to "city/ university/ or whatever powers"/ BEWARE what you do, as failure to be just in all your dealings damages every life. And there truly are penalties involved in creating havoc and disrespect in any human beings life; avoid this or share their distress in eternity; BUT BE HONEST as best you can/ and honor will prove "What is important to the majority, is in fact necessary for all". Eminent domain is the tool required, for the very important task of removing the numbers, power, and control from those who have abused and used society for their own selfishness. Thereby eminent domain exists as the foundation by which you will say: the needs of society are greater than yours/ the reality of society requires your participation in justice/ and the opportunity for fair play, must not be controlled by individuals bent upon selfishness. Therefore we as society declare a right, to establish for ourselves and the benefit of all society a responsible and honest discipline for us all. Don't take no for an answer/ don't compromise/ don't be foolish or vindictive. Eminent domain is used, because the courtroom and laws and politicians and money WILL find ways to delay, defuse, and disrespect any other method: eminent domain is "quick, and very simple".

Of a simple desire to help men and women to understand each other, comes some simple information. Women should know, there are a few men who "simply want another "victory, to yell about"/ so they pay & flatter, & even wait; just to prove they can have sex with you, once or twice: and then its goodbye. In reality these are children, trying to prove "they have the best toys"/ playing the game wherein you are the prize and your life just doesn't matter. Women from a man's view and life/ alter this game to prove "all's fair in love and war"; therefore it doesn't matter what they do to you/ through lies, temptation, or manipulation: a man's life is unimportant, because the game is all that matters. There are lots of liars on both sides. Some men lose interest in playing the game/ therefore they do hide in "poor choices in obvious things/ as do women: just to keep you away". To approach any of these requires a determination on your part, something far more obvious than with most/ and even then you may just scare them away. Don't go "looking international" for love, find it in your own backyard; if it is not there, move. To find friendship, YOU MUST participate in whatever interests you (that you may not be a liar) and functionally just keep meeting people, being interested in them, and taking small chances wherever they are available to you: don't be stupid/ don't be a prude (naked is how you came/ it is not fair, to pursue the others with a stick, just because you are ashamed of the human body: it should not be/ YOU stop yourself). Don't be "in charge", the only one who wants to be controlled is someone too weak to be a full participant in your life. Be happy and share that/ but do not be afraid to share reality and truth, as these affect all our lives.

The development of "gray society"/ is the understanding of basic requirements that will not be removed, by any means whatsoever. Those basic requirements are: If you prove to be a liar/ then you shall not operate any business. If you prove to be unfair/ then you will be supervised by society until you prove worthy of business. If you are a thief in business/ then assuming criminal intent was not proven, you will be required to sell the business or it will be sold for you; and not proceed in business again for at least 3 years. If you sell a business, the property goes with it; no exceptions. NO business or property shall be sold until true market value is assessed by society, and you have become aware of the potential risks, the actual amount of work required of you to pay the amount of debt is real to you, and everyone understands and accepts: this will work for everyone in society; not simply personal, but for society. There will be separated funds for building maintenance/ available when all 3 parties agree/ or when 2 agree this is necessary; and the determination is made in court. In other words/ business and the economic reality of society will be changed to establish what is good for society/ not "the current con games/ not the liars, cheaters, thieves, business whore's, or any of the others: INTO Strictly what is good for society, and that includes, "the natural born citizen first/ then the citizen/ then the immigrant": because the people who have paid the price for the reality, deserve the opportunity to achieve the reward for due diligence. What is good for society is NOT determined by society [YOU don't get to choose], instead you get to oversee, IF THE DEAL these individuals have worked out for themselves is good or bad; and intervene accordingly. It use to be "the banks and lending institutions took care of this" / but the college educated thieves took over government, stole the media and used advertizing to control the people with mass hypnosis WAKE UP! And remove the illiterate and uneducated from schools/ TEACH LIFE, AND TEACH REALITY, AND TEACH TRUTH AND CONSEQUENCES, Not just pride and selfishness, or the worthless pursuits of irrelevant stupidity. Teach the children and the adults, HOW to confront and control the thieves, the liars, and the failures of society/ that we may all improve our society together. There is no other way! Even then, reality proves the public themselves must control the "money supply" in all ways and manners! That can only be done, by tying money to population count/ therefore population numbers control money numbers; the demand to borrow, controlled by numbers as well; not profit or loss statements/ but whether society will benefit, and no one benefits from "easy in, or easy out credit"; look at yourselves in reality/ the game is over. That means in truth, the issues of a loan are determined by whether the resources used are functionally established for society, and NOT simply destined for the garbage. Unfortunately, in america today, the minority who plan endlessly on how to get more for themselves; has stolen what the majority should have reaped: you let it happen, therefore it is your debt too. Do you not do this too/ did you not join them in their thievery, against all life on earth; "does the future not need the resources you threw away/ you do deserve trouble and pain; because you paid for it, you wanted the truth of no responsibility/ and you shall reap the consequence of no opportunities, until you change; Too bad.

The constant in human behavior is simply; "I whined, therefore I deserved." The reality in human existence is; energy and mass are distinct competitors to the existence of life/ time is our buffer, to "keep these at bay" until we are prepared to understand the truth about our responsibility to ourselves and the others. Whining doesn't count, for anything good. Respect teaches you, to keep the future in view, as reality can bring anything it wishes. If you hide from the future/ then you WILL be harmed by the future, because something will arise to assault and confront you: BE PREPARED. Therefore human existence teaches, do not be complacent/ but choose your truth, so that reality may bring you peace and contentment, because you were not only prepared, but courageous enough do spend what needed to be spent when the solution to any problem was merely an inconvenience. This requires thought, the ascension past human existence into the realm of order that functions because truth assigns discipline/ and honor assigns purpose. No honor, means you will be attacked; because you did not care enough about life to protect its decision to survive. There is NO "gray area" here/ life and death is not "gray/ it is black & white"; good in life, bad in death. Instead of whining constantly/ TRY LEARNING! "And everyone says; don't lecture me". Understand this, as your economic depression becomes real to you/ just remember you are doing the exact same thing to the earth, and it is dying as well. When the point of NO return has been reached; unlike economies that can be fixed, when the earth dies, YOU DIE; and whining, crying, cursing, warring, or playing with your pitiful poverty of pride called a computer; will not save you. is this a "lecture"/ NO it is a warning with extreme consequences/ but also a true opportunity to survive; IF you learn something, and DO SOMETHING to survive! Certainly the world will be full of idiots and liars/ most are in some position of power or influence over you; and they will demand selfishness shall rule. Therefore learn to stand up for your rights to life, or just die; its up to you! Then if after all this talking in reality, after what seems like to me, the 5 billionth time; go ahead and die if you absolutely insist, on living in your fantasies instead. I am not your savior. Just a worker, given this job to do.

A question to you then: when you read, "the 5 billionth time" what do you perceive? I will tell you instead; this is a mental description of fragile comprehension/ it is the mind "let outside, like walking a dog"/ it wanders where it will, sniffs, and piss's, and is blatantly happy just to be alive/ unless it feels threatened". The mind or intellect is then "like a trinket or babble of little worth"/ because although it is an interface for the body, its purpose in life has little value: even if the body and mind must live together, it is time that accomplishes opportunity/ but it is soul that grants an invitation to life. What is life, is also SOUL, and soul states the discipline required for life, does not extend to undisciplined gestures or the futility of emotion. Therefore understand the basic requirement for life is to achieve the barriers that are essential to the disciplined acceptance of life's foundation; The essence of an association with energy, that shall let you survive/ the honor of a relationship with truth, that shall identify a future that does not attack you/ & the respect for reality, that gives you the right to decide; for life or for death; as you desire it to be.

In time past, reality has proven it determines what shall be. I have been asked to help, when a woman did need help/ but "my ear trauma/ could work little" prevented a sound base from which I could financially help, and that meant I could only say no/ unless you can tolerate poverty. It was important, but I had no answer for her; that's how it was. At another time, reality presented a woman who was being attacked in her own home by rape/ a fact that disturbs me even today. But my reality was in tremendous turmoil as well, and I had been lied to so much/ I needed evidence, to "strong arm one, for the sake of the other". At any rate, it was not possible to move her in with me, due to others involved/ a sudden increase in my own turmoil/ and I lost track of her situation for a few weeks or months: I regard this as a failure. Reality apparently caused her to change her "Location" And whatever had to be/ just had to be. The point of both these stories is about the reality of our own truths; sometimes what would be, simply cannot be due to factors beyond our basic ability. I would have been grateful to have helped both, I do honestly believe they did need help. Unfortunately I just couldn't do it at that time/ therefore I am telling you simply, that just because reality cannot assist, love and even honor may still be honestly desired for you/ even if truth says no. Do not judge simply, pray and live as best you can. I wish you well.

The issues of "Gray" Do ask; why is life not more fair/ why can we not always be able, if willing, to help as life requires it? The foundation of behavior is assembled from need, want, and laziness. The development of needs are not negotiable, so they take precedence in all lives/ but the issuance of a want, drives the person to assert possession and take control. Therefore we begin in the knowledge that want designs all, but need. The question of what is fair, and why is life not fair/ develops from the competitions of need, want, and laziness, as laziness is a "disease of the heart" which descends from a desire without honor. The question now exists as: how do we as people assign honor or want to our lives, and how can we change the desire of people to choose and accept the potential of living in fairness and value and "the treasury of life", instead of selfishness; the derivative of failed honor, and excessive want? What then is "gray" in the consequence of living as humanity? The answer is reduced from strictly personal, to the decisions that affect and control society itself; this is NOT communism, which removes control to the few/ this is not socialism which removes control to a few more/ this is not capitalism, which demands competition at all levels; "gray" is the assessment by the people as in a true democracy to determine for themselves what is in their best interest/ and the best interest for the future. Therefore the work of government can no longer be simply discarded to the few/ BUT MUST BE, established by the majority over themselves; without discipline, you die/ but if you do well, life WILL be well and at peace. It is up to the individual, YOU, because no one can make you care, share, or love each other/ but you alone. We are 7 billion people, and if you won't care/ then you may be certain, and sure; there are plenty of guns and weapons, to make you wish you were dead instead. Think you will like "war, plenty of fantasies to play with"/ WELL THERE IS NO "Stop button"/ and life is not a game, neither is death; this is reality. NO food, NO water, NO peace, NO future and so on, unless you make the decisions that allow humanity to survive; This is not gray/ this is yes or no period; NO changing your mind.

The development of "gray; meaning a woman's touch" does have everything to do with love/ love has everything to do with your ability to survive, therefore love is the critical relationship required of you. What is love? In simplicity this love will be, the essence of a relationship between all parties designed to create new life. To achieve happiness, that relationship must be established in RESPECT, and nothing less from all involved. To achieve hope, that relationship will be founded in equality. To achieve discipline, that relationship will be founded on honor and duty. To achieve peace, that relationship will understand the needs of life and the future, and live accordingly with the spirit of friendship. To receive a new life, that relationship will desire truth as the basis of all order, and confine discipline to the experience of love. If you choose to do these things, then "a woman's touch", will become reality, and your life shall survive. It is a "woman's touch"/ because man has influenced and produced the world as it is: therefore true change must come from another source. If you are a man/ and refuse the consequence of our reality, demanding to "do the same"/ then Armageddon is literally "just behind the door/ and you will open it". CHOOSE. This is not a threat, not an attempt to change men into women/ this is reality, and the result of resource, population, and truth; as it defines the alternatives to war, the outbreak of weapons of mass destruction, and the consequences of your many foolish and stupid ways; such as genetic crucifixion of all living things. YOU have chosen to change genetic reality into another human game; I TELL YOU FOR SURE, You will regret the day you were born/ if GOD HIMSELF Does not save you, from yourselves in this especially. There are no words to reduce this ignorance to something humanly described/ therefore it is the basis of Armageddon, and the reality of your Terrors to come. Change or be damned.

We begin with the foundation of life itself, the ability to breathe/ and ask, what will you do with your assets for life; if these assets were not given to you; clearly YOU would not be alive? Can you live without breathing, does an infant/ no; all understand breathing is absolutely essential to life, and we come prepared to breathe or we end as life. The question presented here, is then more simply; if you understand the basis of life, will you then choose more carefully/ do your part/ and accept the honor of being created, for a purpose. Purpose means; inside, I accept the decisions that give meaning to life, and to me. Therefore purpose is a direction that assigns a consequence to your life. WHAT then is your direction, and your purpose: WHY did you choose this: WHY did you want this? We could go on for days, about your excuses to these questions. We could avoid the critical resolution of your distinct decisions, that are not true. Etc. But why would we do that? It is useless/ you must find the truth within yourself, because you are the only one who can "throw out the lies/ because you are the liar". The simple fact that people do not "want to clean their own selfishness from them, is the reason they lie". People who lie to themselves, always become lazy/ if they can. So the truth is: if you would build a better world, then you must change these things/ embrace truth as your leader and friend, and find in reality the honesty of what being a miracle in truth does mean. Even if you surrender to all manner of ignorance and stupidity/ it is impossible, that you do not recognize some measure of "miracle in life": no one is that stupid. Therefore recognize the lies in you, clean your house, and make your home in the honesty and treasury of life. Only then will "the world, become a better place"/ It is literally up to you, personally; because we all impact the people, places, and environment we live in. You do better, and worry not about the others, as what will they say or gossip about you/ then you will know peace, and love will be honored within your heart and soul. It is a worthy life!

"The touch of a woman" IS essentially the opportunity for a man, to gently alter the grace and beauty of life, into a relationship with a destiny with time. Time is the essence of humanity, carried in the body as life is carried in the soul. Therefore as a man, the touch of a woman; is the right to expand beyond the consequence of a barrier, to become the consequence of a life. The male experience is as a need to establish a fundamental environment of safety for all who belong/ thereby time is allowed to identify where you "live and breathe/ or where you fail and die (at least a little)". The discipline necessary to man is in the honesty of man, not in perfection/ but in the acceptance of truth and the base understanding that we can only be who we truly are: nothing else exists in you/ but a lie, if you let it in. The quality of respect in you, describes the foundation of your journey/ thereby selects the formation of destinies available to you; if you Choose to be worthless/ what then is your destination in eternity?

It is extremely odd in me, that I should now be given the task of becoming as a woman (or a true woman, I don't know). I still have no clue/ and this will take years; the base lesson established by my comprehension of woman is simply: the completion of honor in a man/ the validity of happiness in a human life/ the opportunity to share more than simple things, defining passion and hope instead. Love is a shared experience, held by neither, but experienced by both. The issues of gray are also beyond me, in many ways/ finding gentleness and many things attributable to woman: is just not what life has been. My own reality is; prophecy suggests this must be so for you/ spirit suggests I may need this for me (too guarded, and too disciplined)/ and life suggests, this may be important for both of us. So the journey is cast/ but I have no idea beyond very simple understanding. Plus I now have tits (small at this time, but clearly here), who knows why. I guess they are here to remind me, it is time for change. It is also clear, I no longer have control of what is male. Of relationships beyond "tit relief"/ a young woman offers her breasts to a young man as a gift of friendship; when she believes the young man has honor and honesty enough to share a respect for her life and her body. If the young man is worthy, a friendship matures a little/ if not, then he damages her life. As to me, I guess perhaps it's a sign of friendship with the body & mind/ as we "soul and humanity" are not as close as it would seem. I JUST DON'T KNOW, This is extremely different. These aspects of my own life are written not to influence you/ but to help me define something about the journey to come; still no clue. As it is true, the balance in my life is disrupted by your impending tragedies/ having to wait, until the time came when you could no longer lie about everything, HAS BEEN DIFFICULT. I find it very hard to wait, knowing every day counts/ but I do know, too soon and you would only discard the information and continue racing to your death. Irregardless, the balance of my life has been affected. The reality is, "I cannot proceed in humanity much beyond my current reality as spiritual existence/ things would have to change". Instead of proceeding in spirit, I am sent back as a child to learn about woman: I DO belong to Our FATHER , therefore I truly don't care about going back. However, it is clear, I must have a translator or guide/ I just don't have a clue: that means woman will be asked to help. That means, "dating" and all the issues of a lifetime commitment will return/ all the tears, hopes, fears, and more; the potential lies, stealing, and manipulation and so on. Because the reality of love is strong, and the honor of life a simple truth in the blessing of eternity. Love means happily I exist in the dimension of your hopes, your existence, and your life; may we belong together. The honor of life is, simply the truth of our expression to each other cannot change/ it is friendship, it is sharing, and it is caring in the equality that cannot deceive. The blessing of eternity is, simply "we are alive, PRAISE GOD !!! Here is something all women who marry several men know; "men do respond to need, if you have gotten close enough so that a decision must be made for or against you. Not lies, not emotional garbage/ but honest "I need you". Here is something all men who marry or date easily know; women prefer "to feel safe"/ not with your big muscles, but with your honesty that assures them they will not be helpless to your demands. The questions of dating are not refined by sex, sex only buys you time/ it buys nothing else. If you desire truth to help you find a soul mate/ then you must accept the reality; only honor recognizes the soul. I truly have no idea how any of this will expand into the description of our lives/ your life/ or my life, nor do I have any idea what no control over this penis is going to mean. It is clear I do need woman to continue in the path I am given/ I would also suggest, I can benefit you too, and hopefully we will all find balance together; that would be lovely. Looking at this from the "outside/ in" does not help; so we will just have to wait and see.

To the fools and illiterate junkies of sexual deviations/ don't come here: There are no issues or questions or possibilities for you. This is simply between me and woman, and reality as it proves absolutely certain through time and truth. As to men, there is nothing of woman here for you either; be absolutely certain.

YOU, can be cursed or hurt; YOU can learn the meaning of the words "rot in hades" [the translation is: relieved that the terrors of your existence, have been reduced to simply being eaten alive].

It is true, that man is given the right to explore the experience of GOD by encountering all manner of trial and tribulation, thereby he becomes stronger/ if not lost. It is also true that woman is given the right to explore the experience of life as a blessing , and more/ if she adheres to honor. Therein together we share a closer experience Of GOD In the existence of our lives.

If you "put your faith in me/ or refuse the faith in you, because of me"/ you lose. I am not your leader/ not your savior/ none of it! You will find "things you cannot accept about me"/ that's how it is. Not because "I am something different"/ but much more simply, "When it is necessary, I return from the wrong places or directions/ the quickest and simplest way I can". From life, the teaching is; "Don't be cool"/ instead, spend your life with passion and purpose and hope for the others too. The demand of living, is also quite simple; be brave enough, to live for freedom. For in freedom, we do find the happiness that quenches our soul. Freedom is not simply a physical relationship/ it is the basis of a life, without regret, defined by peace, and held in awe of life itself by the wisdom to know we Are GOD'S Children . I DO PRAY FOR YOU ALL, as best I can.

In a final analysis of your position as life upon this planet/ reality says; you are being led by traitors (those who sell their souls, to protect their positions and their incomes/ by lying about all things, even though life itself is dying), LIARS, (those who care only about power and the excuses required to protect their greed, lust, and selfishness/ by controlling in propaganda the lives of dying people), COWARDS ( the people who fear "losing everything"/ therefore they carry the lies as burdens upon their own backs, so they may not face the truth today. Their failure, is the death of your futures): and so many more. Of the thousands of failures approaching, the most clear and tragic is global devastation; brought about by global warming. Those who lie about the reality are simply "the devils henchmen and women" they simply don't care enough, to tell the truth/ they are traitors, liars, and cowards all three. Unlike hurricane Katrina, which was isolated to one area, one nation, and one set of people/ the effects of global catastrophe will kill you all. Just like the american government, "all talk, lies, and play" means the end will come/ and you will die. The reality is not just "gases"/ the truth is heat, that you produce; and you must stop it to a realistic possibility for life on earth today/ or you have no tomorrow. Think not, Just look at new orleans, and know for sure; the same storm is coming on a global scale, and you are just lying about the effects, the reality, the truth, and your extinction because of it. Stop or die.

As it was with Katrina, you can believe anything you want. You can live believing in the liars of government. You can avoid paying the price of survival and security and peace. You can cry, whine, complain, and contemplate violence because your life has been changed. BUT YOU CANNOT, change the reality! Unless you prepare in advance of the storm!

There are truly, MANY storms coming; either choose understanding and survival, or you will die. THIS IS NOT A THREAT, it is your reality/ thereby your truth today, and for the future, if you do not change.

If you think you will hide in government or university/ I remind you, the armies of college educated idiots, are those who brought you here, to the door of extinction. You must look to life for instruction and guidance/ you must look to GOD Or you die.

As to reality, in america; they all just play, and lust for the money saying "we will protect you". They are children, and know nothing. Simply go to the neighborhoods; instruct, guide, and equip those who will be there during an emergency. And tell the neighborhood, what they need to do/ and let them tell you what you need to do. It is really not much more complicated than that: but of course this is "real work/ not play"/ so all the leaders, will run away: therefore remove them from the equation, and prepare accordingly with the people required for the work. Let ANY LEADER, OR MILITARY PERSON, who gets in the way of truth and the reality required in tragedy be suspended, replaced, imprisoned, or enslaved as the case may be: LET NO ONE be a blockade.

YOU ARE dying in poverty, the disease of arrogance, the failure of disrespect, and the apathy of those whose selfishness control their lives. This is your last chance to change before eternity closes the door and you are consumed. This is not a game/ nor is this an exaggeration, you are guilty of many things; not by judgment/ but by your own reality. PRAY, ASK FOR MERCY WITH RESPECT TO GOD OUR FATHER

CREATOR

OF

THE

UNIVERSE!!!!!!!

Or you will be sorry beyond anything you can imagine.

I am still waiting to deliver this message, impatiently I would add. It is a strange new world as I do "feel a need" to deliver this message now/ or before now. I really don't think I ever "felt a need" before in my life/ I have lived by the common male philosophy: yes, no/ can, can't/ will, or won't; make up your mind. None of that here; it is wait until your told. Life has become strange in other ways as well/ never before have I felt the need to "ramble on, but I am writing this/ so apparently I do". I have never not been integral to the situation at hand, meaning their were always decisions to be made "in the moment"/ none of that apparently here, as a decision was made weeks ago and that controls every decision of consequence since. It is still a strange world, in that although I am now bothered little by tits or "male equipment"/ at moments my body, or more correctly what seems to be "Woman in my body (how very odd)" can demand "immediate service" as more powerful controls are found. I am reconsidering the reality of dating women, and accounting for the various realities of my physical existence; tits that don't belong here, etc; questioning "dinner conversation; based upon my need to know "how to be a woman"/ and more. But even so, although my decision is at peace in me, I will not turn away/ this is not my doing, so some form of reality will aid me; I just don't know what it will be.

I am considering the life of man, it is simple & plain and based upon true or false/ reality or not/ and the decisions required to explore and expand existence into the consequence of energy, mass, and life. These things are straightforward, and easily dealt with in courage, with truth as a guide. My life is not that at the moment, instead there is a relationship forced upon me that I don't understand/ and it is hidden away, so I cannot identify reality and deal with the truth, the intent, or the purpose of it. No map exists, therefore although not lost in me/ I must find knowledge somewhere, because nothing can change until I do. The question of reality has become identified in a completely different way, it is not my reality anymore/ although I do know "it sounds impossible", but it is "our reality, this woman if you will, that now lives here too; we are not joined at all/ but clearly reality has changed, and all things point to female and not male; on the other side of the line". Did I not say it was strange. Apparently "I have to earn the right" to say hello; really, just not a clue. Nothing! My life as a man has not changed at all, everything is the same/ with exception to this body, and perhaps some aspect of the mind. I am used to ridicule, so as long as some work can be found/ I will be well. But, I have to say I was sweating for some time so I opened my shirt to find these tits swelled up twice as large/ I think my eyes got twice as large too; not shock but a surprise, they went back down to "normal". But it does ask the question how big, and when, and what will I do? The answer is survive, it doesn't really matter to me how big they get,/ except for the fact that people will be harder to deal with the bigger they get; as if I actually had a choice/ clearly I don't. Women live with these things all their life, they are tits, not tumors/ and women live, work, find happiness, and so on. The fact they don't belong here, simply means ridicule must be endured; and all that comes from a simple mind, from others, not from me; its just a body/ my life lives as soul, not simply as body. I will live the life I am given/ because it is truly a gift, and who am I to say this shouldn't be? Maybe they do belong here, and I just don't know it yet? Did I say it was a strange life. I guess the first lesson of being a woman is "life isn't just black and white". There must be a thousand questions somewhere, to be answered/ if I could find just one, maybe life would be less strange. The critical question is then what does it take, to not be a man? I would have to say, no clue here either; as I will not be "nothing"/ therefore what is woman must come first.

Described, I am a plain (brown paper bag variety, on every corner) man/ the only real difference I find is, I have no desire for frills or accessories; being a man is enough, I don't need to accentuate or sell it. As for lifestyle changes, my whole life has been about "being alive, and learning to live the adventure of life itself", without "screwing up all the time"/ that's me, I don't know if it is male or not. As for now, it seems that balance means, to "live life itself, rather than keep searching for what comes next"; to accept the moment and accept the body as it is; and learn that discipline need not control my life completely (somehow it just got stolen, in some distinct ways). Instead of discipline, there must be "something about a woman required". Perhaps it is love, or acceptance, or gentleness, or something simply about "this moment in time". That does require a different view of body, something valued, something perhaps more physical that critical understanding. I really just don't know. I am done talking, really, life will just have to teach me what is to be known/ or done/ or survived. No clue really!

I would add though, in reality I am not sad, simply at peace/ because although all the work required to deliver this message to you, was not simply for me/ I needed to understand; I asked, searched, and knocked; and benefitted directly from all that was provided to me; I am grateful to JESUS For that. Whether you believe or not/ its not my problem. This request asked of me, "to be a woman" such as it is: and I don't have any clue what it really means. No predictions, no comments, no questions, no expectations, no clue what is expected or not; but it is clear, whatever is to be is simply not my choice either. It is however an opportunity to be unselfish, because truly this is not for me, it is not my choice, it is my gift To GOD , and I am grateful for the opportunity, no matter how it turns out/ the fact I can't imagine what for, is irrelevant. I have always "simply not turned away from any true spiritual request"/ and never been sorry, except for when I interfered and intervened with my own ideas; instead of just learning the lesson. I am fully aware, there will be all manner of "talk" about insanity/ various delusions theories/ the occult, and other pitiful excuses for life will "take credit"/ but mostly people will decide {who knows}; its, not me. What I can tell you is all behaviors of my past, that you cannot understand: are dedicated to the reality "you didn't know what the choices were". That means in a spiritual world, life is a little different/ because the humanity is removed, except for the lesson. I do expect that something to do with Revelation 12 is related to my recent experiences/ don't know what; BUT I do know that anything to do with "the end of life as we know it"/ must be dealt with very carefully. Therefore my own understanding of the many extremely serious problems we will soon face/ demands whatever must be, shall be endured; how else can the lesson be learned? Simply it can not. Don't have any expectations/ just ask for patience. Whatever that is learned and useful to you/ will be provided someday: at the end of this message. Thank you for listening.

The first question has finally arrived, but with it some unhappiness. The question is simple enough: what part of discipline can be stolen? What then is order if discipline can be altered by competing realities?

Before intellect can be passed by, truth states: you shall examine consequence, & learn the reaction. Therein the development of an altered state of discipline, finds potential in the reactions that disturb discipline, such as a consequence of either chaos or fear/ or the reaction, "I cannot do this anymore". The development of unhappiness, is the result of "what is called a vision; or more correctly a pictorial imagery of consequent possibilities". Neither "vision" was intense, meaning the probability is not great/ BUT still potentially REAL. The first established by a disgrace for sexual advantage, through lying and stealing between man and woman (equally), ENDS, as if sexuality never existed/ replaced with a completely barren and desolate earth, "with ape-things, without sex organs/ carrying attack rifles" and hunting the last few human males on earth; all the human plans & machines fail/ and these predators eat them alive/ then all things END.

The second was an image "like the woman who played "genie, in the TV show, I dream of genie". In the language of visions, an image which simply appears and does nothing else is attached to its meaning as described by its earthly terms. In the show I dream of genie, the woman "makes a living", by saying something like "your wish is my command, master".

The first above is a depiction of genetic mutilation & hate as a result. The second is a surrender to reality closing in, and the demand for a leader becoming so strong; the people surrender their souls. BE AWARE FULLY, NO ONE can lead you/ NO ONE, can save you/ NO ONE can stop the forces of reality here on earth: YOU MUST PRAY TO GOD !

OUR CREATOR, the one who gave you taste (to enjoy), sight (to truly appreciate HIS WORK), sound (to express yourselves), hearing (to understand each other), sex (to expand beyond yourselves), movement (to recognize the gifts of being free), happiness (to grow and expand within the moment) sadness (to recognize VALUE, and the immensity that is your life), smell (to warn & delight), touch (to be grateful for your body and the presence of another), body & mind ( to experience choice & decision), & death ( to end existence, & enter as eternity in life). The one who gave you arms, feet, legs, hands, neck, stomach, lungs, head, heart, blood, immunities, etc/ etc/ etc; and turned them all in the right direction, so you could have a life of value: GOD LOVES YOU.

At the end of intellect, comes reason; the existence of "what can I do"? The only answer I could find, was suddenly wishing these tits would grow/ DON'T know why. But they are a visible sign of change, and TRULY I say to you: WE NEED CHANGE, NOW !!!!!!!!!!!

Where life changes & spirituality occurs, all development is an expression of some form of discipline. Here discipline cannot be stolen/ unless it is improperly formed as a relationship based solely on truth, or life, or identity/ rather than HONORED as an identity engulfed by truth and life. The question of respect enters here/ and the reality answers: "Look differently at life", to me. The issuance of order is based upon the foundation exposed as the discipline of a life, it is identified by its intended purpose, and it is exposed & experienced as its own version of truth. Therefore the question presented to "my world", as the participation of a competing reality; is the introduction of life, as it exists in separated circumstances; from my own identity and truth. I AM thereby unbalanced, and in need of critical understanding and critical change.

The question erupts: WHAT is the purpose of sex to life, and to eternity? For we are men & women, EQUAL to each other, except for sexual realities and how they translate in the basic nature of our lives. The quest for discipline begins in the consequences of sexual realities/ the reactions to sexual tragedy controls much of all our lives. It IS a tragedy, to abandon your honor, your honesty, your love, your hope, your trust, and so much more. In my current reality, "what is life inside, battling for equal rights with truth and demanding participation as an identity in me" IS the extreme opposite of my current description of life. No issue is made of anything less than honorable or life with GOD / as these do not exist in my life/ NOR will they ever be allowed. Even so, the reality of control & the decisions made without my consent, but to my body/ DO state a "female presence" HAS entered inside of me. I DON'T understand more.

Examined through reality, it is clear to me; "That woman HAS issues and anger with man"/ WHY me, I don't know, but guessing it is because I will listen. RESPECT IS CLEARLY at the forefront of each and every decision I am required to endure. The question of discipline has then changed to the relationship and the intensity of the extremes which give us our humanity. Examined as a relationship based upon extremes, sexuality is obviously a mediator: when it is honorable/ a weapon used by both sides when it is not ( lies, entrapment, & rape/ are all similar devices). The question of LOVE is not explained by sex/ you will not find love in "the bedroom". Instead love is the existence of a true desire to participate in each others lives, by expressions, balanced to give both lives an opportunity to expand & explore the intensity of what we mean to each other. Sexuality as love, aids in this "special discussion" of common bonds, common needs, true happiness, honest caring, fundamental honor, and the courage to trust in the density of character as it shapes our lives. Love is generated, because we DO need each other. Therefore designed by the essence of need, the reality of love finds sexuality to be the compensation for a life in search of meaning. Sex has no meaning/ but love established in a commitment sharing everything, has no equal. Sexuality as lies, entrapment, or rape, distinguish a battleground between competing sexes, for the right to control. While tragedy, the surrender of BASIC happiness to the consequence of these battles becomes a life without balance. Thereby understand the basis of society, is the love shared/ while the basis of war, is the love trampled upon by bodies without meaning.

JUST BECAUSE IT NEEDS TO BE SAID; past relationships, particularly with my ex-wife WERE SIMPLY NECESSARY, to establish my own ability to understand and deliver this message/ it is NEEDED by this world; therefore no true harm was done/ and you are loved, be happy. As to my own failures, I am sorry things were no better. It is wrong to participate when the destiny is a failure/ meaning; to change when it is wrong to change is just as bad, as asking for change where it is you that should change. It is wrong to understand the intensity is real, and yet not confront it directly and with honesty. It is wrong to believe in "nobility" when only love will do. It is wrong to cry, when honor says reality must decide. And so much more.

As to the disciplines of balance, it is critical both sides UNDERSTAND EQUALITY as a relationship built upon foundations in respect. No respect, means no ability to establish order. Respect is critical/ fear is destructive/ life is the difference between happiness & fulfillment; and truth is the difference between love & hate, life & death, heaven or more/ and hell or less. In the disciplines of dating, the foundation of hope understands only one truth as fundamental to life: do you love me? As an answer in the disciplines of life, that foundation cannot be as simple as the mind; rather the critical difference between love and marriage is simply: can our freedom be joined in each other, as the foundation of our lives; instead of my or your life. Love is not a panacea, it is the blessing of a purpose that includes the "naked expressions of our lives, in the intensity of our souls". If this includes "things that make war against your own life, from the other"/ then "the devil is inside", and you are never going to experience true peace here. True peace is the essence of honor, as it realizes the eternity of life in harmony and order/ therein true peace becomes a home, where you find the messages that will bring you joy.

My own journey begins.

This is September 24, 2005 and having found direction, reality is revealed. A bit like finding myself in "The twilight zone" however. To begin with I do belong to GOD AND TO JESUS , therefore I do go where I am sent. My mind is a little upset, so I leave the variations of Revelations 12 for you to decide/ my soul is not.

As to the consequence of the last few days, reality says, when this message is finally delivered for your view/ then my work here is done. Reality also states that " GOD OR JESUS " Has given my life to woman, and that is my new job. The tits are a sign and a seal, that the matter is settled, and there is clearly NO discussion; I belong to woman now/ or more correctly, "I am her helpmate": given the responsibility to live as she has lived, that I may understand better. I DO know how to help, as to the consequences of body/ it appears I will learn, what can be learned simply; these tits are granted to belong to me, to prove that/ and I will accept them honestly, as best I can. The mind however "bristles" at the idea, woman has a right to tell me "how to live/ how to dress/ how to accept their rules/ NOR am I entertainment": YOU do not desire this/ why should I allow it? The bible version of woman is being turned around/ why then should the old ways be applied to me? Only time will tell. Because of the arrogant and their gossip, you are told, "the tits are not an obsession/ they are a true surprise", and that's all. The purpose is to help women establish a new life here on earth/ the reality to grant to her, as best I can with the aid of JESUS , a new respect in life by applying knowledge to her position, and for her aid. Therefore, considering the potential for money (thereby power to change positions in society) the big motor, and or other inventions mentioned or not, in www.trialforlife.info Have been removed from society to woman. I do remove the offer, to give the design to anyone/ but organized woman, for the sake of her kind all over the world. If there is potential for making money left from the designs already described/ but not in significant detail, then those too are retracted for the purpose of woman; and whatsoever more may seem necessary or right. The offer and the exception is the same as before, RESPECT is required or these can die with me. This may seem "arrogant, as these are yet unproven"/ but I do offer the wisdom of these words in these messages, as proof "The possibility is very real". Organized woman means: you shall understand the basics of business, as it applies to this venture and any other as may be done for you. The reality is you must be prepared to protect and establish a claim over the inventions and the money/ you must be prepared to fundamentally challenge the "flood of debris" that will come to take away your authority in these matters. You must apply an acceptable strategy for moving the money or power across the world to those in need. You must establish the restraints and the voting powers of all women/ particularly those in powerful positions/ that none gains a selfish interest, and consumes the others. And you must employ critical control over the resources both human and political and environmental as it becomes necessary to conceive of a future wherein women have been able to rise above men by being united in the common goals of equality, the common purpose of shared wealth, and the common destiny of a life worth living for all. IF you do your part/ then GOD WILL HELP US ALL.

As of this moment, male and female are divided and separated by their efforts to "save this world"/ YOU ARE in great danger of the earth dying; if you wait to be proven wrong/ then you are dead. Therefore man must contribute his efforts, resources, time and more to salvaging what is left of the sanctity of life on this planet, and repairing all the damage he is primarily responsible for [even though woman desired him to do it, and pushed]. Woman instead is given the role to create a new and better society/ she shall decide what shall come next, and give her time, efforts, and resources to it. GOD SHALL HELP YOU BOTH, IF you are worthy.

As for me however, I have become "as a woman, in a world where woman has become as a man to me; more simply, my life has been provided to women/ to explore the truth, if they can do better than man". My old life is completely destroyed/ not my truth which exists untouched. The fact that I was so lost, and without any comprehension, simply means; I am for a fact, at the mercy of woman, and I have no choice. Instead, woman has always blamed man for all her troubles/ therefore GOD Now gives to woman, the right and the duty to decide whether Armageddon shall come. The illustration of "locked in the back seat of a car", is clear and certain and true; I have NO idea of what will transpire next/ not a single clue: it is your choice not mine. But my mind is concerned at the possibilities "Of being as one woman, in a sea of real women who can act as men with me/ for clearly I am not allowed to physically defend myself from woman: unless threatened, with life or death". Apparently, this is the cause of being forced to do only the minimum work, for the last 15 years or so, while this body became weaker/ that I might not appear as a threat, I am not; but to men, it will be different. Upset with the concept of "things to be asked, or taken, or required" by woman. But honest with the possibilities of a new and better life for us all, and a world that can survive: a price I willingly pay. Woman shall decide Armageddon/ but man will determine how much is left, to work with; therein determining the limits of mass murder in the future. PRAY OFTEN, and for me too/ prayer is the difference between your life and the death of this world. It is not "an order blank/ a demand/ or a right"; it is a request to be heard, and the honesty necessary to understand mercy is a gift, not an opportunity for you to "get what you want".

Some will say "insane OR dangerous, by a variety of ridicules"/ others will say, "he deserves whatever he gets, didn't he bring it on himself"/ or worry that I should be killed, and still others will laugh and be greatly amused until the day they find themselves alone or dead. I say, the evidence of this message/ the honesty of its purpose/ and the reality of your situation is sufficient to understand by all, that more than "meets the eye", is at work here. Even so, you believe in so many lies/ and hide from so many truths, it will be a miracle to find you sane enough to hear correctly/ BUT I DO believe in miracles! As to proof of how blind you really are, you believe the american economy is financially solvent "seems like it at the moment/ what else matters"? You will be proven wrong. You will be proven wrong on so many things, but time is running out to change the reality and survive; so if you must/ then have your "fun"/ because it is your life that is in jeopardy. That's just how it is. Only the body is in jeopardy for me. My one piece of advice to you, is: if failure means your death/ then HOW STUPID can you be to risk losing everything, for everyone, and gamble with all life on earth. There has never been, "such an insane and schizophrenic generation" as you are. You not only gamble with life, but the sanctity of genetics, playing games with everything including water, food, health, the ocean, the atmosphere, EVERYTHING! And yet you are so stupid and so extremely arrogant and so very proud; you believe you are gods, and have nothing to fear. And WHY? Because you have sold your souls to evolution, and pretend it is your god [could you be more stupid?]. You have bet your future, on how many resources you can consume and destroy. You have bet the extinction of this entire planet on your weapons of mass destruction [how deluded you are/ you let them lie all the time]. You have prayed continually "let the children pay/ then the grandchildren/ then the great grandchildren/ and then anyone but you"/ yet you have done nothing to deserve even what you have taken. Instead you have sucked the life out of your children/ stolen their resources/ and pretended "its all for them"; so you could lay and pray in the nursing homes and lives without purpose for one more day, and suck pills pretending save us". PRAY FOR YOUR LIFE! And do not say to me, "its my money to do with as I wish"/ you have had NO money for at least 30 years, instead you made slaves of your children; and LIED AS FAST AND AS FURIOUS AS YOU COULD. And WHY did all this happen? The answer is, you are beaten down by the proud and worthless/ to the point of surrendering your life, to the worthless pursuit of money/ the goals of pride/ and the demand that never ends called want and selfishness. Money is nothing more than a resource and a promise of work: are you going to do the work you have promised? NO. Are you forced to dig in your garbage dumps and graves for what little you can find? Soon they will! Are you not pigs/ do you not consume everything you can get your hands on/ do you not trample any excess as worthless beneath your feet? You do indeed. Did not Luke 16 predict you so very well? PRAY FOR YOUR SOUL!!!!!!!! PRAY ALSO, that world economic depression comes quickly/ because if it doesn't soon, the planet will die, and make you be extinct; because of all you do wrong. [PRAY, that economic depression : a simple, you made more promises than you can keep: will be allowed to fix your failures/ rather than let you use the excuses to start a war]. PRAY that you will have the strength and the courage to be able to stand for justice and honor and discipline/ and not hide, letting the future and all its people who now depend upon you, DIE. This is your choice/ and you will make it; no excuses allowed. You WILL CHANGE, or you will die.

As to my new existence, reality says to achieve respect/ you must give respect. To live with honor, you must act with honor. To accept dignity, you must give dignity as well. To be honest with yourselves, and with all others and the earth, is the only thing that will keep you alive. And all these things apply to how you treat me as well/ if it is truly "unfit" for me to stay/ then my life shall go. I am not your savior/ however, I am a potential aid to your lives. But if it is a disrespect or something, " you will quickly outgrow", then I would ask to stay and help you continue on. As to the Bible itself, you must decide for yourselves, if this is your last chance/ or another comes/ or the message means nothing at all to you; it is your truth/ it is not mine. I have made my decisions, and they shall not change.

This is September 26, 2005 Honesty says, even the mind is not sacred to the current needs of life/ it will be given: for the needs of woman, even though it is not fair or right or acceptable to me unless there is dignity and respect. I do now ask to return this male mind to GOD that he may decide, what it is I am to be. Instead of "strange/ from now on it will just be different". Instead of "whatever you or I want", it must be "whatever you must have to exist, and find your answer"/ pray for me, protect me from your insanity, pray for your life and mine. BE WARNED however/ I am not given as your slave or possession; rather this is so, that there can be NO EXCUSES as to the decisions you shall make, are you not free; and the consequences that shall be applied to you, and to the world through you will be either for good, or for bad. If I have no dignity/ then women have no dignity. If I have no respect/ then women have no respect. If you have no compassion for me/ then the world will have no compassion for woman either. This is "judgment day"/ because woman will choose between respect & disrespect/ life and death/ hope, love, and dignity or, the base matters of lust, greed, and power/ thereby determining the future of life on earth: and man is powerless to stop her. My job, is to let woman see herself; and prove she is "better, or at least worthy to try ". MAY GOD HELP US ALL. Perfection is irrelevant, we are not perfect/ thereby it is the matters of your heart and its true desire in love, it is the hope of your spirit and soul for life and for home, it is the care and ability to share with honor; that determines whether you and the earth/ its humanity and its life/ live or die. Do NOT surrender for failure of one or many/ do NOT surrender for any reason beneath; you want to prove you are god PRAY INSTEAD . BUT DO NOT TEST OR TEMPT YOUR GOD Nor forget, that I am not a pawn, but a gift to you for your dignity, respect, life, and opportunities! Instead of surrender, repent and begin again; until time has run out for you: LIFE is that important. BE CAREFUL what you do, what you ask, and why! DO REPENT QUICKLY, as needed or their shall be penalties applied to you and all women on earth. This is not a game/ BE HONORABLE. If you are wrong/ then you are dead........investigate, examine, have a trial, and decide.

Some will say, "he should have SHUT UP, while he had the chance". But I say, the world is dying, and reality does not wait for anyone, and truth doesn't care about anything but order. What you have, is what you must use; when confronted with life or death situations, all I have is me. I ask you clearly, "WHAT is a life worth?" Is it worth all the money YOU have/ is it worth more/ is it worth "being stupid, so someone else can evaluate their choices"/ is it worth saving even if a part of its reality is worthless: Or is your life of such little value, that you measure another/ and judge them insignificant? Be careful how you answer/ because eternity will remember/ be careful what you do, because if you are simple and foolish or stupid with your money, your life, your body, or your mind, or just plain irresponsible, when you know better: intending to buy what cannot be bought; that too will be remembered as evidence against you! As to this mind, I have little use for it/ my soul belongs to JESUS As HE DID "Save me literally many times, in body, mind, soul, and spirit; and with HIS LIFE (by showing me love, and life, and OUR FATHER / yours too) ": I do owe HIM My life/ and I will do my best; certainly my body a gift I have been allowed to return, is not mine to refuse. The mind also is simply given, let reality be whatever reality shall be, as time alters and changes that reality for me. I honestly have NO idea what that statement really means/ but I do know that I can help, and therefrom life will teach as it is necessary to learn, what is proper and useful to help you: I am a reasonably adequate student. But you will remember I am only one person simply intent upon helping you/ but limited to my own reality and yours.

Some will demand "insane"/ let them, what do I care; only those who are a part of my life will care. But that is the price they must pay. Instead PRAY FOR ME, and for US. I would ask of woman to be friends, and then more as time provides for if that is fair/ that some form of balance be returned to me; if that is real. Love is a beautiful thing/ but life cannot be repaired without understanding. You cannot find love/ love is something you give, or accept. Therefore understand simply I mean you no harm, I will help you be what you do want to be/ but you must also help me, to help you. I do pray for us all. You are reminded simply: I DO NOT TELL YOU, "this is something you must accept"/ it is NOT. Instead I am telling you, to decide for yourselves whether this is a message "Born from GOD , and given to me to deliver". If that answer is yes, it is/ then know your time is short to repair the damage done and survive. If you say that answer is no/ then what will be, will be; But there shall be NO GOING BACK. This is your chance to survive, but you must use the opportunity before it disappears forever/ that is my opinion, just as it is my opinion, without change you will survive no more than 30 and all gone/ probably much less; look at your reality, & understand the damage you are doing. Consider this/ as population increases, will you save the remaining species and planet that today you can barely hang on to/ or will human demands consume them too, and leave the earth barren and without even the possibility to survive? The answer is: your GLUTTONY, GREED, LUST, AND FAILURES OF ALL KINDS, can have only one answer, mass extinction/ and then you.

A final statement, if these tits grow beyond "common and ordinary" for woman, then it is evidence to you/ that you are "using me as a trophy/ rather than an opportunity provided to you". This is an arrogance/ and you must STOP IT. You are equal with men, and will not be given any right beyond them; only the opportunity to do what they did not. TO SAY NO, WHEN NO IS NECESSARY/ AND TO SAY YES, AND PAY THE PRICE OF REALITY, WHEN YES IS NECESSARY/ AND TO FIND TRUTH, AND LET IT LEAD. MAY LOVE AND HONOR, BE YOUR BLESSING, AND

RESPECT

YOUR ETERNAL GIFT, FOR WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN.

This is September 27, 2005 and I find myself to be slightly wrong/ in that my job is to stay out of the way, and let the body and mind be a tool for woman to see herself/ and decide who she desires to be. My purpose is then as a tool, to help or to reveal the failure of woman. OH MY. My possibility is to help/ but my reality is to allow woman to decide; "What she wants to do with me". Woman has long been envious of man, believing if only she "were the man/ things would be very different"/ now "she gets to be the man, and become responsible for life"; OH MY/ I have a headache.

Critical understanding ask, WHY?

The answer comes from interpretation, and asks why did JESUS DIE THE WAY HE DID? In reality, HIS LIFE was displayed to those men as capable of so many things/ yet the men in power chose to kill HIM, because they were afraid HE would take away all their power, their money, & their prestige in society; and HE WOULD HAVE. Had he lived. The question more specifically to this situation is why did HE allow HIMSELF to be crucified? The answer is GOD Chose this method to prove to humanity and in particular to men, just how wrong they were/ to prove what REAL LOVE AND HONOR AND RESPECT was. And a great deal more!

None of that applies to me/ however JESUS IS MY TEACHER/ MY SAVIOR, therefore HIS PRESENCE IS HERE, IN ME. And I do offer the intensity of learning presented in this message as proof: " not me". I have spent the greatest part of my life, following truth, no matter what the cost. Because truth decides what life will be/ and I have made many mistakes, therefore my need for truth was real. JESUS IS TRUTH, I do believe that.

The question thereby becomes: If I am to be, a true tool in this purpose presented/ then why? "Because women are given the same question as were those men: DO YOU desire a life of respect, dignity, opportunity for all, honor, love, eternity and more/ or are you slaves to the base existence of human reality, and choose selfishness, geed, and/ or lust?". By the consequence of a right to choose/ The women will, now decide what the future will be. Men have had their chance.

I have NO predictions for you/ I DO surely hope women desire all that is happiness and life; but I have no choice. This is my job/ it is certainly NOT my design or desire; at all. Apparently "the woman inside of me", is allowed to be the spirit of woman herself. OH MY. You are free to ignore the message, and me/ you are not forced/ not coerced/ not threatened either! Rather this message (all of it) requires your dignity to read it/ your respect to react to it correctly/ your honor to apply it to your life/ and your honesty to survive it. It only says: If you wish to live/ then you must enter within the truth, and let truth lead you beyond the mistakes you have made; into a new life: for your old life is dying, and there will be NO second chances! You will choose/ because you have no other choice, man has removed the balance of life on the planet; even though woman pushed him to do so. Man had the final say/ therefore man is "more responsible than woman". As a consequence to that reality, woman has the final say on life or death for the planet and yourselves. RESPECT HER, because man will NOT be given another chance. She is your leader, or you die/ and Armageddon will be extremely HARSH.

It is now time for you to decide.

I agree, it is not my right to say these things to you/ BUT IT IS MY DUTY TO DELIVER THIS MESSAGE TO YOU. I AM "just a plain man, no frills, no accessories, just common and ordinary." And it is your duty to investigate the reality, examine the truth without the lies, and make a decision whether you can survive as you are.

I agree, it is not realistic to believe woman will simply be "given power over men". But I DO say to you the tools that drive society, returns power to those who control them/ by vote and by truth, order follows/ by wisdom civilizations are formed/ and by respect, people and all life find harmony, even love. That which is to become a terrorist, will be dealt with. In your insanity, you have described the dysentery of evolution as your god/ what a fool you are. Even your blood convicts you that you are wrong/ yet you refuse to listen: How could life be without blood, how can blood be without all the organs it needs to be used, how can the body exist without everything it needs? It cannot. If you continue in your insanity/ then you are not worthy to live. Therefore the first job of woman as your leader: Is to remove the blight of this insanity from life/ and return our reality to honor, honesty, creation, and life. DO NOT FAIL/ this is your test. You may ridicule them if you wish/ bring "the amoeba, or whatever single cell creature you like to court" and ask it to explain the basis of life/ bring your monkey and make it explain anything you like; BLIND BASTARD'S AND FOOL'S is only the beginning. Ask where the plumbing department is, where the hardware store for "fasteners is", where the cleaning lady lives, as any sign of infection here/ any sign of contamination here, can be death. It is an open door, To ridicule "science" for the disasters they have produced, and put upon your lives. Make them prove everything with science/ not assumption; adaption is merely the proof of "perfect design"/ and gives NOTHING to the religion called evolution. Neither does similarity in design, as the question: WHY should these designs not have been used /proves your assertion incompetent and useless to you: prove how they were built without knowledge/ understanding/ wisdom/ competency/ discipline/ truth/ order/ or a thousand billion other examples of why you are not only wrong/ but simple false prophets of another useless religion, simpletons without a brain {did you throw it away}. After all, by your statement "nothing in the beginning was built with a brain/ merely robots building themselves "oh wait", there must be materials, engineering, competency, discipline, truth, and order to build even the most simple robot: and you know it is true; do you not flaunt with pride and arrogance anything you manage to accomplish. Do you accomplish nothing, its all an accident/ or do you learn and then accomplish what little you do? PROOF IS NOT A blind assumption/ but a reality that exists without defense. "Intelligent design, BY GOD " Is without censure/ because we did come from somewhere/ and it was NOT from fool's/ NOT from blind ignorance and stupidity/ NOT from human decision, PROVE ME WRONG! Your words are NOT enough, prove an entire planet of evidence is wrong! ASS-HOLE.

I agree, I am not "enough", for the job given to me/ therefore know for sure, if I "am enough", then reality agrees "it is not me". If I fail on my own/ then know for sure, it is simply me being a man instead of a servant as I am honored to be. I have NO IDEA how, when, what, where, why me, or anything else/ instead I simply follow truth, no matter what the cost; it is my way. This is not different, than the instructions given to you as well/ through John 7 in the bible; should you not do the same?

This is September 28, 2005 The discussion ends with the quest for critical knowledge does NOT begin with a "smart man or woman". These spend their efforts & their lives in pursuit of controls, wants, luxury, & foolishness (some even desire going to planet Mars). In other words, they choose to be confined by their body & mind to the essence of time: this is the relentless distress of always being "the prey"/ no matter how far ahead you race, you will still be caught and consumed by time.

I am NOT "A smart man/ or woman"/ time is irrelevant and that makes the body & mind of little consequence or purpose. Instead of time, I HAVE FAITH, in the essence of truth. This is simply the foundations of life, as they exist to support & prove, we are in fact a living expression of experience, freedom, and love. "The stairway to heaven, & beyond" IS literally your progression as the complexity of truth changes you from simple ways, into disciplined ways; and then comes decision/ the essence of an escape, that expands into the dimensions of energy: instead of away from energy.

Applied to the definitions of this work, wherein simple truth as the mind would encompass it says: "this writing is INSANE; allowing yourself to be put into the possibility of such turmoil, as could encounter the writer (me), from all sides and all angles, IS JUST PLAIN STUPID". Complexity asserts: discipline is NOT developed without order, and duty may not be discarded just because order has produced a definable threat/ only truth can modify or change a threat. Only decision can make that change by allowing energy to be dissipated as an alternative circumstance; thereby reducing the intensity of order, and the consequence of its truth.

The foundation of life, is "the courage & strength to enter within the energy as life, and survive". More simply: the opportunity of eternity expands from the comprehension of time [action & reaction], into the relationships of CREATION [cause & effect], past the understanding of love [value, treasures of life, & friendship], To become the single most important decision of your existence: DEATH AND YOUR DECISION to participate in the existence of energy as either fear/ Or FAITH! MERCY allows the alternative called Heaven, "a place of true happiness, but not true freedom". FAITH is more than truth! Faith is "the building blocks of ENERGY" as it conforms the expression of force into the experience of truth. Faith is "The foundation" upon which life itself can be built. As humanity WE ARE, "the creation of an opportunity". Mercy is your invitation into SPIRIT/ AND SPIRIT IS Your invitation into true life and all its freedoms.

We CANNOT discuss the building blocks of energy, or their relationships to force: You are NOT worthy! This SEVERELY LIMITS any discussion of life and the foundations which conceive of it. JESUS HAS ALREADY provided every description of mercy that is necessary!

The only question being required of you: is do you desire to live?

This question comes, because unless YOU are true to life, your presence on this earth shall soon die!

The LIES, APATHY, ARROGANCE, DISRESPECT, AND DISHONOR SHALL END

OR YOU WILL.

I AM NOT your prosecutor or judge/ not any of the things you suspect; I am simply the messenger, and now since that job is done/ the work of helping woman to keep the world alive, has been added/ NOT as your or their savior or any such thing; "A very different life for me/ of being as her helpmate" or in much more simple terms "Her wife" HOW EXTREMELY ODD. {for the minds of little value/ this is not a "sexual deviation"/ but a reality in authority, and the consequences of decisions and how they affect alternate lives and property.}

BUT That is all.

YOUR DECISIONS will do all the rest.

A WORD OF WARNING; I am not good with blatant stupidity, arrogance, or ignorance covered up, with a "million or so rules". [rules are the intent of power, and power is the relationship of a fool to his or her failures] all power is a failure to all life/ because only love makes life worth living; and power expressly and intently WARS against love. These are caustic to EVERY relationship/ therefore help me, to help you; by being fair, realistic, honest, and either educated honestly by life, or willing to learn. HARMONY is the only measure of success that truly exists {all else is life or death}, therefore: Choose who you shall be/ DO NOT react and simply fail. Remember this as well; whatsoever you apply to me, is going to be applied to you; do you not have "husbands [even though women are given the responsibility of leadership/ you must still prove you are worthy, before true change occurs]"/ therefore understand what you honestly desire from your "mate" and don't lie/ don't be afraid/ share and be true to life itself, by caring about each other. Define what life requires for happiness/ and apply it to yourselves. BE FAIR, as if I were you.

This is NOT a statement of control, or a dismissal of woman's authority over me/ rather this is necessary to establish truth as your leader, and the ability to recognize truth as fundamental to your responsibility for life. YOU are the difference between life and death for the planet/ therefore YOU must learn/ or we die. YOU have wanted the responsibility/ NOW YOU DO HAVE THAT RESPONSIBILITY and life will become whatever you can accomplish with it. If that is death/ then this is goodbye.

The alternative is simply disrespect/ and the descent into sexual frustrations which ends as death for the planet: IF you cannot or will not repent, and allow truth itself to lead. {I AM NOT "truth"/ merely a helpmate in your search for truth and survival}/ this should not even be a question in your heart.

Remember this: man failed because want became the excuse for power/ and power the reason for selfishness [the root of all other disrespect]. Man failed because weakness allowed him to blame "everyone else/ everything else" for his own failures and disrespect. Man failed, because he did not care enough about life/ he chose pride. It is now your turn as women to do better.

This is September 29, 2005 and the reality of waiting is again prompting me to "ramble on", using words to vent the consequence of waiting; hopefully into something useful.

The desire for control stems from our critical relationship with a need for heat/ thereby fire became as a friend/ while reality demanded "control & understanding, must be met face to face", or we get burned/ lose possessions/ or even die. Control, or more correctly the issues of life & death we decide to modulate into environments of our own design, function as the expression of barriers & flows which then inhabit our ability to perceive and influence the world and ourselves. The experience we participate within as our intent to control other people, does express the single foundation of: they cannot be trusted/ therefore "I/we" must control them. The participation applied within every other type of control expresses the single decision of: "you" are unworthy of life with me/ unless "I/we" can control you as we wish. These are consequences of failure, or predation, or laziness and more: {these do not exist as questions in honor}. Therefore function and form commandeer individuality and pride form the basis of why you can be discarded or controlled even to your death. It is because the life inside of you (the proud/ the pride) HAS become buried by the simple truth called fear. Fear is the essence of failure/ thereby fear is the barrier that locks you inside, to pretend "you are god". Therein fear asserts, "I am not afraid/ I am god; I control this place/ and I choose that no one is allowed in here, unless I allow it; but I must be vigilant or they will kill me": the humanity in you, knows better than to claim it is god/ fear alone does this. Fear is a purpose/ that purpose is to develop the lies necessary to disguise failure. Pride supports & sustains this disgrace, by measuring all things, all life/ and assigning numbers as the source of your protection/ your vigilance. As long as the numbers are "less than you"/ then you are safe. In the rare event that someone attains more or equal to you, in your mind/ then jealousy starts, and transforms reality into the fantasy that either supports your life, or allows you to distract & destroy the measurement of their life/ that they may be beneath you. WEAKNESS allows you to blame the others/ particularly men blaming women for their own failure: be a man and admit your mistake/ take your "whopping"/ and begin again: don't be a disgrace to other men/ grow up. The needs that become "I am god" in your own mind thereby assigns judgment over the others/ over all life and environment/ and reality then becomes as a predator & prey to you. The controversy of fear is: I need it, to keep me alive Versus the reality of fear: I want it/ because it gives me the right of revenge and rage and temper and hate. As fear, need is the assumption of a consequence greater than your own actions/ but as reality, need is the understanding of dependency, rather than the rights of freedom. The dimension called FEAR, is the reality reduced to a reaction without your understanding. Therefore fear is the knowledge of a consequence, as yet unknown. Freedom says, NO fear may exist/ because the necessary truths are in place to defend you, OR to allow you to die/ thereby escaping all fear, by entering within truth, and letting truth decide. But dependency indicates whatever is to be, SHALL exist whether you understand, accept, or desire the outcome: this is then NO control, and death is not a decision that fear can make.

The "RE-ASSEMBLY" of my own life is now confronted with dependency; I have NO say, NO choice, No ability to protect against women, NO right to defend against women, "I cannot even run away if I desired to/ because this message would then be destroyed, and it means more than my personal life/ the reality of our world is at stake"; and it seems I don't even have an opinion that matters {the "spirit of woman" inside, & these tits, demand ANY attempt to control is USELESS / "she" does whatever she wants to do, sexually" I have no say at all} nothing. I do suspect that life in the past for woman was actually not much different/ for most. But, I am only ONE person/ in a world of billions of women.

WITHOUT DOUBT OR QUESTION, I am not your savior/ just a messenger; and duty is important to me. This new job asserts: women ARE going to have control over me! Just like men used to have control over them. The reality is like a pregnancy, wherein a small decision, WILL have far greater consequences than ANYTHING I could have anticipated.

The critical question is: what are women going to do with that control? The outcome is your evidence, or visual display of fundamental values in women/ and it WILL go a long way toward establishing whether justice means: judgment or mercy?

Should I die, by a man's hand or weapon; the possibility of your survival on earth diminishes greatly. That's just how it is. A FLOOD of emotion, WILL come and demand: EVERYTHING IS FINE/ WE ARE HAPPY: Go away! And this is basically true for this moment in time/ BUT DO LOOK into the very near future, and IF you don't lie/ then you will see SEVERE CHANGES just beyond the horizon coming against you. Only truth, RESPECT, honesty, & honor can alter the course & future you have set for yourselves/ ONLY GOD Can actually help you, because your failures are very great.

I am "just a tool"/ my work as messenger is done, and this new job is entirely for you, not me, not GOD OR JESUS Either/ just for you. Fear is not a question/ therefore death is an option to me. HOWEVER

JESUS IS MY LORD.

Translated that means HE DECIDES When I may leave/ and NOT before. The true quest of course is simply how can I survive this reality? The possibilities are endless, and most are traumatic/ don't know how to say, be, or do the things required that are of woman/ don't know how, sexuality will end or begin/ don't know what the future holds, how to get compassion or consideration/ don't understand the depths of what this truly means to women, or how I am distinctly to help her become responsible for life. I am completely dependent upon JESUS AS MY LORD TO HELP ME And the truth is I do know how to do that. The critical questions of life and death for us all, are then summarized by the simple truth: Are women enough, to keep us alive? You shall believe whatever you wish/ are you not free? As for me, LIFE and SPIRIT do teach me/ and I believe accordingly. The assertion of "a religious affiliation" is not actually justified, simply because LIFE is not a question of reality/ it is only a question of consequence; what does it truly mean. I do, not only have a right/ but an obligation to answer that question, because eternity comes for us all. If you wish to be "left behind"/ you are free to do so. I do not! Creation is the evidence of order, the validity of truth, and the purpose distinct within the consequences of life. Life is not "simply hard"/ as humanity requires it to be with their selfishness, fears, pride, and want. Instead life is an opportunity to identify who you truly are/ and therefrom establish who you truly desire to be. Eternity, is the opportunity and the right/ to be free, as truth can establish life, love, and energy in you. Of the constant human derision's about all things not fundamentally want, pride, or selfishness; the reality of life affronts the human mind, and asks of it: will you not accept evidence and truth, as these define our existence, experience, and expression? The mind says NO/ because the heart says, "I want everything NOW/ I want everything they might have/ I want to be important/ I want to be special". The soul says; Creation is a beginning, and you must build according to your ability and work/ therefore all things are held in time by the simple truth, you must be patient/ you must accept the limits of your world/ you must be responsible, to have responsibility place upon you, or you must try when life or death shall be the result/ you must belong to the journey of life, wherein life teaches who you shall be. These things are critical elements to survival beyond the "incubation period of time"/ energy is not "friendly"/ it is mean. Therefore survival requires the accuracy of your understanding, to be firmly embedded within your truth; otherwise you die for real/ not just from time. Some shall always say, "the body and mind are all we have"/ it is their right, let them. Truth says: the evidence of order is constant and real, there are no deviations from truth/ no mutations from the consequences of truth; therefore truth decides the fate of human kind. Truth says: we are a Creation in order, an obligation in truth to seek the essence of our gifts, and therein find GOD . May you search well.

Like a pregnancy, "if the woman survives, & the child is born healthy/ great happiness and wonderful moments can indeed follow, for a very long time.

PRAY OFTEN.

And remember this; salvation is not earned/ not given/ not yours; instead it is your opportunity to accept belief in GOD . HONESTLY AND WITH HONOR AND LOVE/ BUT ESPECIALLY RESPECT: If you do not/ you cannot be saved. Translated saved means; measurement has been cast out/ therefore judgment against you does not exist. Therein a new life and a new opportunity may exist, for you. Mercy translated means; you are loved for who you are, enter within the existence of that love/ according to your abilities. Life then comes to mean; The essence of freedom as it explores participation in all that is good. GOD IS EVERYTHING LIFE MEANS. PRAISE HIM ETERNALLY, FOR HE IS GOOD!

Some simple reminders: if you want your children to treat you well/ then treat them as you would an honest and true friend/ if you wish your teenager to talk to you and listen to you as they need to, then you MUST listen to them as if they were true adults and would make the decision on their own: because they will anyway/ if you wish your adult children to be a part of your life as much as they can be, then help them to achieve independence and hope for their lives; and when they are grown up in reality, they will understand you are their true friend, more than the world by far. DON'T judge each other/ that is your failure, not theirs.

Work is a minimal thing/ the money is unnecessary beyond honest and real needs and at least a little more, so that slavery cannot be claimed. But make no mistake, those who collect the money/ WILL always elect to keep it; therefore they will discount everyone else on petty and irrelevant, and false charges, saying such things as "they can't, because they don't have the money: when it is clear, they don't have the money, because the dysentery of those who claim to be rich/ desperately try to suck the life out of these to pay for their own pleasures. People prey on each other/ intending to make you a slave by their traps, and their authority. Do not fall into the traps, to accomplish this: EVERY TRAP must be identified and taught in school and in the media as to the reality of what makes this a trap/ when it works on people/ and why it works on people, and so on. Every person that uses a trap shall be prosecuted/ if they don't return the money, times 2. Every person that uses a trap 3 times with the true intent to steal or control shall go to jail for the length of time it took the people cheated to make the money they stole. And so on. Work is the relationship we hold with society to accomplish the basic and extra needs and wants of society. Work is therefore the expression of how we choose to get along as a society/ how we choose to get along with each other/ and the fundamental respect we have for life itself, and each other. Work should be a way to include and sustain us all/ not a way to attack or achieve success over the others [ as that for a fact is the essence of war against each other/ war always has a price]. But the world has changed from supporting you in any endeavor you choose/ to simply trying to survive the constant attack humanity and its war against all life have imposed. The world can no longer/ does no longer support you. You have been allowed to conquer it (sort of)/ and that makes humanity its "god"/ WHAT YOU DO, AND WHY determines whether the earth survives as a living environment or not: today, you are the executioner and very proud of it/ You DESERVE ARMAGEDDON! PRAY you do not get what you deserve.

Sex is also a minimal thing, but society in particular man is programmed to expect "A sign, is his invitation to sex". Therefore the sign is society trying to control man/ and woman trying to use the sign to advantage; that sign is basic nudity in woman as used today. The question is: can nudity be replaced as a sign to potential sex? There are tribes in the jungles in particular that have always gone nude, therefore it need not be a sign. It is a sign because women want it to be/ as a easy way to attract men, and "make them an offer". When it backfires, or fails for whatever reason/ then women hate man, because their plan failed; or a different woman didn't keep man in line; he became stupid/ ignorant/ and blatantly violent just because he would follow the rules/ or the rules were changed, and he failed. The use of pregnancy is a staple in dating relationships; whether it is trying to steal the child from man/ priming or tempting the man to create the child, and then pay/ using abortion effectively to confront and control and attack a man, whether it is true or not; there are many plans because woman assumes "all is fair in love and war"/ not true, war is never fair/ love is always true. Sex itself is nothing more than chemicals "in bloom". It is up to you, to understand woman or man is more than chemicals/ it is up to you to understand particular as men, that when the chemicals release is irrelevant, it is up to you to provide an equal "situation for both people". Stop playing and be a man. In simple sex, men must find woman attractive or he can not "perform". Attractive means: YOU are a person with whom I believe I can live. If there is not an appreciation for your life, your work, your looks, or your behaviors/ then the idea of living with you, dies or cannot be dealt with. While it is true men look for sex without anything else attached to it/ it is more true, that men who are looking for a mate, in anyone; want these things. The more you both find each other "the same", the easier life together will be/ therefore the happier, because you will spend less time fighting or wanting to fight. I have spent the last 20 or so years avoiding women, the past ten have been because the degree of numbers in enemies this work is intended to allow/ does not allow anyone else to be involved. My ears have contributed much to the fact that I have avoided women as well/ they affect everything. BUT the reality is, avoidance started because truth, happiness, and honor were missing. Truth speaks to all that is love, they can never be separated/ and in the dating world, truth is traded for position and control. Happiness is the existence in honesty of an acceptance that not only makes us equal, but adds the reality I appreciate your life and would do nothing to hurt you, because you are valued by me; lies always hurt, they are inseparable. Honor is the decision, NOT to compete for things or people no one should be allowed to own/ this is OURS, and we will protect the relationship that gives us harmony and hope. Consider this before you push others away.

SOME are certain to demand HE IS PREACHING, and we DON'T want to hear anything he says: JUST FIX THE DAMN PROBLEM, AND LEAVE ME ALONE/ no matter how much damage you are doing. Learning is like poison to the masses; are you not one? I have been told, seems a thousand times, "don't preach to me"/ when in reality this is teaching and instructing on how to survive and do better. BUT the vast majority don't want that; DO YOU? You want to be exactly who you are, liar or not, failure or not, proud to the point of murdering or not, arrogant beyond belief or not, killing the earth or the nation or not, killing yourself or your children or not/ Doesn't much matter how bad you do: YOU don't want to learn anything about Truth, and the responsibility you owe to life, which is to learn and change until your behaviors and methods do not hurt the others. YOU hate this; don't you? But today, you better look again/ YOU better "take your head out of your ass/ wipe the shit off your face [it means many are so selfish/ they worship themselves for their selfishness], and learn how to live in harmony with the earth and each other" OR YOU WILL MURDER YOURSELF/ YOUR CHILDREN/ and every life and every future on the planet. Are you ANGRY NOW/ "Are you"? Do you not have a right/ to be angry even if you have been very wrong? Of course you are every LIAR becomes angry when the lies end/ because either shame or pride is all that is left/ pride is simply the true desire to be "a murderer". BUT DO, Consider your reaction carefully; YOU have chosen to be, 7 billion people/ YOU have chosen to depend entirely on consuming without regard for anything you take/ YOU are completely dependent upon fertilizers for your crop production, and soon you will lose these/ YOU are completely dependent upon water, and by the billions of tons you are dependent upon no earthquake to release them, no structural failure to end your water supplies/ YOU are at the edge of death, and YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW IT: but you are certain to be angry, you are certain to find violence in your heart/ Because your pride makes you do so/ IF you were not prolific liars; you would not face this situation. Therefore this is literally a "slap in your face", the demand for a duel if you wish/ to determine whether you get to happily close the casket on your own faces OR Whether you will learn to survive, and find respect and all you need to live and return from the edge as life.

Clearly, I am again returning to my old ways/ the idea of being a woman, leaving me, as confrontation and the work of simply saying "Wake up/ grow up/ and remain alive" remains as yet undelivered. The question of life or death is really as simple as: do you crawl under the blanket and cry, take pills & whatever/ or do you take whatever is left that you can salvage and use it as best you can; until the day you must surrender or have survived? The demand is certain to proliferate "kill him/ that all these things may go away"; Therefore I say to you/ I BELIEVE IN GOD AND IN JESUS , that is not simply words, but reality. I do suggest you consider all that is coming and choose wisely. More simply: I am sent to you, By THE GOD OF LIFE , NOT "The god of death" /if you choose DEATH, Then death you shall surely have. That doesn't mean I am critical to your survival/ it means, what God has sent for your benefit, has been taken away by those who are evil/ and you must fight them, as well as for your life. It is a BAD sign.

{A day after writing the above, actually last evening a small dream occurred that suggested, "I had been errant"}. Examining the above, I do find it belligerent and unnecessary/ it is left as a warning to you; that I am struggling with the idea of being a woman, and facing the consequences of possibilities as they could exist. Investigating the true purpose of the above few paragraphs, the intent to create "a confrontation severe enough to potentially inflict my own death, by someone else's hand" can be interpreted. The problem of true confrontation starts with the words "the idea of being a woman leaving me". Therefore in reality as death is viewed to be a minimal event, clearly the intent is too escape from the reality of entering within the descriptions of being as a wife, to women everywhere. I am sorry, for this failure/ and will do better. The question must be asked: is it fear/ is it pride or arrogance/ is this not a decision I have truly made? The answer is, it is not fear/ but the simple truth: "its just not me". The reality is simply: to be a true woman, what is me as a man/ must die. That doesn't mean woman is less/ it just means, I am comfortable with being a man/ and not so comfortable with being a wife to "billions of women". This is NOT a small matter! The decision is made clearly, with certainty and purpose, and without compromise. The failure started with the excuse: "I don't have to be passive/ I can be passionate instead; thereby giving me some measure of control or "the resemblance of at least a voice to be heard". According to what I remember of "the biblical character Paul, writing about a wife"/ she is not actually given any control, she is to blindly trust what her husband shall do/ provide what he wants; and him for her, and so on. The lives of a large portion of women were influenced by these writings, therefore it is the proper venue to be used by me. The purpose: simply to provide the basis for women to REDESIGN how they believe they need and want to be treated by men and by life/ YOU are given the opportunity to change this NOW. You will see yourselves and your decisions, by how I am treated. Thereby I must return to being a tool for you. Blind trust has been asked of my life before/ always it ended in humiliation and an attack upon my own pride, until it was conquered, and then no more; it teaches much, and I always benefitted much more than was my loss/ I care nothing for pride. Bind trust has been asked recently for the last 5 years or so; the spirit says "leave your teeth alone; don't brush them at all, or extremely little". This too is an extremely strange request, but it harms only me. The first part was simply to gain the evidence required to present an excessive billing practice by all dentists/ just like the rest of medicine. But for the last 2 years or so I have no clue why this would be asked. It is by blind trust that I do continue/ fully knowing the teeth are failing/ fully knowing they are important to my life/ but doing so, because in my case (not yours), this is a request that is real; therefore I will continue on, and the consequences shall be whatever they shall be. As to the entire reality of "being a wife to woman"/ this is by blind trust as well: I will search for sufficient honesty and honor to carry this duty through without further complaint. Been wondering what to do with these tits/ just beginning to realize "they aren't really mine", or is that separate from being a wife; I don't know. Been wondering, if "doing something with them instead of letting them be, is just a man's way"/ no clue. Its hard "starting to be a woman". HOW can I understand without "all the equipment"/ either women must be completely open; or I must have the equipment; surely there is no other way? Unless I can become the spiritual existence of woman, even here/ for there is no physical human body in eternity; therein I only need to understand "what woman means in eternity, a reality I have never considered". To the men who just can't comprehend ANY CAUSE or reason, to become a woman/ I tell you simply, it is blind faith in JESUS and NO other reason or cause: I do not ask you to join, this is personal to me/ not to you. I lead no one. The critical question is then, apparently JESUS WILL DECIDE. To the people who cannot understand this statement at all/ I suggest to you, "that thought and energy" are more than you recognize or realize/ the boundary between time and life, more simple than you suspect. Energy merely transforms, it does not die until it dissipates into the cold; but COLD is the most powerful energy of all. The difference is fundamental reality. Your first look into the intensity of time, occurs within atomic structure as wisdom recognizes the intense and extreme discipline of the energy contained by the structure of "critical cold" [examination proves that electron travel occurs without significant interference/ your world proves that only exists in extreme cold; further proven, balance is necessary to contain the environment in such true extremes as these energies exhibit/ or they lose energy to each other]. This is your first lesson in alternate realities: balance requires the existence of alternate energy, to exist within the same dimension. This is not "good and evil"/ this is energy and balance.

Having chosen that, two more small dreams occur/ in the first I am a woman caught out on a road with a broken car; standing in stiletto heels (can't possibly run away/ can't possibly walk far). Stranded must have a ride "waiting, hoping for someone kind and polite" when a white box appears 40 feet away and explodes/ not injured, but I find I am wearing a skirt and blouse and jacket/ and they are all now smoldering as on fire, and I cannot put it out; they are clearly going to burn whether I leave them on or not, won't have any clothes anyway/ why get burned too)/ so I am down to a young woman's white underwear/ and I look like a woman. [DID I MENTION HOW STRANGE THIS IS]. From the distance an older school bus appears with hands sticking out of every window/ but only one face, a young woman that looks somewhat like a man. They stop but I refuse to get on/ then another bus just like the first is coming from the other direction so I climb on the engine hood (basically a hood ornament) and we go down the road, the second bus follows and a third is added "hands everywhere". But they take me home, I have thrown away those shoes and run inside "safe"/ the dream ends. Later I find myself still in underwear, but with hands tied behind my back, and a very big man tears off the underwear/ I look like me, and disappears for good. The scene changes, I am traveling with someone "hiding out"/ we come across an empty house and enter inside because my companion insists, are followed soon after by 2 women and a man/ the women are in charge and keep talking about "alkada/ the terrorist group", this ends. The alternate scene returns with me tied to a torture rack "a wooden bed made with railroad ties, with hands and feet tied top and bottom". I am clothed with a white blouse, and jeans/ but the only torture is someone I cannot see is cutting the clothes off extremely slowly; unbelievably slowly. Did I mention, being a woman does not seem "to desirable". I would have to say, in every lesson of life; subtlety was never involved/ plain, simple, direct, and without confusion (there is no confusion as to "my position" in this lesson; even though I have no idea how or why; as time continues reality teaches)/ this has always been the method of my learning; it works well. But I do hope this is not "for woman's sake" what the potential for life, by "Paul's rules," has been like/ it is however true or seems apparent, that other religions pride themselves on this behavior, and control: you will understand it better "in the prisons of eternity/ after all it is your decision/ to do this to someone else: should you not be instructed also "in what's good for you and society/ SAME, only you get no say." The reality of life lessons also applies to some of life's most serious problems; many are the opportunity to repent of all your personal failures, and for some, to do better. That when you personally enter within eternity/ instead of "prison", you may enter in freedom as life. There are NO PROUD "people", in eternity/ these are in prison, or hades, or evaporated as if they had never been. Are you proud? Be thankful, or descend farther/ the "day of release will come/ or you die". If you believe in JESUS OR GOD At all/ then this is "a mercy to you": because eternity is about truth, and truth at the moment of your death/ decides what your eternity shall be. Mercy is not limited to reality/ therefore understand this, GOD LOVES YOU, VERY MUCH HE SENT JESUS TO PROVE THE REALITY AND TRUTH OF THESE WORDS!

PRAISE GOD.

The issues of "too much pride, in being a man"/ have arisen, not as better than woman, but much more simply; "Is this wise, to surrender what has given me 52 years without significant cost/ for what could easily be a tremendous cost"? The answer is no, it is not wise for me. Thereby the consequence of "blind trust" asks: do you believe, "that GOD Knows better than you"? That answer is without any doubt or concern whatsoever, ABSOLUTELY YES. Therein the true question is: where else may evidence be found, that I should indeed continue? Having asked, I am given Ezekiel 17 to read. At its end, is the prophecy of this very thing, and therein evidence that it is simply to be. May whatever pride exists as man in me, be erased. May whatever is woman find its place: Because JESUS IS MY LORD. That is my life, not my statement.

It is clear and certain, the homosexual and other sexual deviants, will find these words "useful to their excuses"/ evolution too. The question that is man however is more simple; to be a man is to remove all excuses, and accept the truth as it is/ homosexuality does none of that. My own situation is far more complex, woman is still a mystery, as I am not yet woman/ or even started. The composition of change from man to woman as is suggested and decided, but cannot be determined until "what is a woman, becomes clear". The difference between man being man, or man becoming "the wife of woman"/ is truly very different than what you suggest. The reality of excuses by evolution, nothing at all: consider how complex eating is; it requires breathing, chewing, swallowing, spit, teeth, tongue, stomach, intestine/ plus the ability to recognize food, prepare food, not eat bad food, and a host of other consequent realities such as blood, biological factories to use the ingredients; it is endless. It is also possible, that there will be uncontrollable sex required of me/ which could then include AIDS, or other disease added to me/ pregnancy / the transmission of AIDS, or other disease, then by me/ children that must be taken care of, and a whole world that must then be changed if possible because it is a duty for a parent. And I have no say. Although the suggestions are clear, I have no predictions, it is not my right to say, because it is not my decision: I am a tool in these matters. Tool means; useful for a particular purpose in life and work/ even friendship. Wisdom says; the possibilities and complications/ the antagonism and ridicule/ the creation of an object to be ridiculed by so many, and despised by so many more [because you want the lies to continue, even though they cannot]. Means the foundation of critical reality must be very firm, very real, and very serious or life will fail, do to the burdens placed by other people/ their selfishness/ & their fears. Reality is then a guardian of life/ because truth explains, "if you can see nothing else/ then surely you will know, that there are limits to the oxygen you breathe". Surely you know, that fires consume oxygen (in your car, furnace, water heater, etc for 7 billion people everyday)/ that trees produces more oxygen than other plants per square foot of ground, and that your consumption of trees (just for pretty coffins), without regard for their work, "will leave you breathless": add it up/ some useful numbers are at www.criticaleconomics.info . Life is not a game, and this is not a reality you can avoid without change. Another reality is, I have been paying attention to the chests of other men for the first time in my life/ some have chests that were not flat like mine in the beginning of this summer/ as for me, I have made my decision. Although small, these tits have thoroughly convinced me, "they are woman's"/ if you don't agree, it is your right. I have been given the job to help women/ and to help women remove men from leadership/ and to help women design their new world; because men have chosen to kill this one. MANY men, will consider this "war"/ THEREFORE I say to you this: if you are allowed to retain control/ then accept now, that those who sit at the controls of nuclear bombs, and other weapons of mass destruction; are NOT your saviors/ but your executioner's. The end WILL come quickly/ BECAUSE YOU, Have chosen it shall be so! Reality knows, women are not worthy to lead either/ but perhaps they are wise enough to let truth lead, and reality decide; if not, then they will lead you to your death instead: it is their right to be wrong, should they choose this/ after all, it is you as men: that produced the intensity of a situation wherein you must choose true change, or become extinct. It is you as men, that proved life is hard/ life is cruel/ life is full of predators and prey (humanity). WHEN IN FACT, It is YOU, that made it to be so. The question of purpose here, is not male or female/ the reality is more simple as LIFE OR DEATH. The wisdom of letting you decide, is held in the simple truth; do you not now understand why harmony, love, sharing, caring, honor, respect, duty, life, hope, and even eternity is so important. Do you not understand, why it is that you may not come, unless you are worthy/ if allowed, YOU who are not worthy, would become the murderers of all life: THIS WILL NEVER, come true. Truth says: eternity or more correctly the environment of energy that is eternity/ is like an EXTREME "fire breathing dragon"; IF you are on the "wrong side of the line"/ you will be lucky to survive. We do live as energy/ we MUST occupy the energy, nothing less is life; but with the addition of mass, time is created in measurable moments/ that we may see the consequence and learn the results, before being tested with true energy and its effects. Life on earth further indicates, that there are various "types of predators" in energy that must be respected/ various types of life, that will be recognized as valuable in their own right. Eternity is not "what you envision"/ rather it is determined by truth, designed by thought, encompassed by energy, and defined by love. Life does not end "with heaven, presenting you with slaves, and nothing to do but live in your wildest luxuries". Life begins, with your need to survive, and belong, and build the reality you shall inherit as life itself. It is beyond anything you can imagine/ therefore the preparations of endurance, patience, hope, faith, and sharing are all developments to enhance your truth, and present you with options. Energy must also create relationships that are less than pleasant or desired/ therefore we learn to accept what order teaches us, must be allowed to occur; irregardless of our own desires. Our relationship with life, is with energy first/ because energy is the primary foundation that presents a choice. Then comes thought, the existence! Finally with work, participation expands as if eternity were only a moment, and life the existence of JOY. "What would you do with it"? The answer is not "anything irregardless of the consequences/ because that causes the joy to be destroyed". Rather RESPECT COMES FIRST, so that JOY may forever continue to enlarge and excite you/ and honor may come, so that each one may know the perfection of true love. Love is then "the final frontier", wherein all who are worthy, because of their own work, decisions, and desires do come TO LIVE WITH GOD.

Wisdom is the new difference between your survival and your death/ it is so, because the cost of all your consumption, all your ways, and all your wants: is coming due. As to leadership, only women will rule/ because of all the damage men have done. The question of how to lead, then erupts into the definitions of why shall this be done/ when shall this be done/ who shall do it/ and how shall this be done: but if men do not have listen to you, it simply becomes by force or by death. YOU the women of the world, shall confront, shall establish leadership by wisdom and by truth, or you shall fail: I do suggest you learn quickly.

The foundations of leadership are these: WISDOM rules, you do not; because only truth can apply wisdom to the order that gives life/ at no time shall any leader be more than simply equal; because life is not measured, it is lived and every life shall be valued the same/ you shall not continue, "sell the children: just to keep the old, the critically sick, or the fundamentally weak"; life is important, and these burdens cannot be met. You are too many/ you have failed by too much {neither shall you abandon the old or sick or weak, for small or "reasonable" matters}/ strength is defined by honor and by duty, therefore teach these to the children and make society obey truth. RESPECT is the single ingredient that produces harmony in society and your own life; therefore learn respect for all things, believe in life, believe in hope (while hope is honest), believe in courage, believe in love, and let blind trust be limited to what can only affect you. Respect for life, does not include "unlimited intervention"/ respect death, you will enter it. Trust is the essence of knowledge, as understanding gives to you the basis of order, and discipline refines the consequence of truth as the essential development required to "see the future/ to see your destiny". Therefore trust is the acceptance of wisdom through the relationship thought presents to us as being alive. Alive accelerates the critical relationship of environment to its energy, and therein the consequence of a decision is learned to contain many elements that are not simple but complex. Leadership is then described not by methods or means/ but by the honesty of being alive inside the dimensions which alter and compliment complexity; that you may ascend beyond simple expression, into the experience that links our souls together. The leader then selects the destiny. In reality this is a dangerous truth/ as it describes one as responsible for the others, and their influence as responsible for the decisions of the leader; making life literally "all for one/ one for all". But if you must, then be very careful. If you are too careful/ you will go blind, and fail! Careful means unwilling to let life decide/ the consequence is, life made you/ thereby life understands MORE! Wisdom thereby suggests, that it is you, that you must be careful of/ not life, and not living, but you and your own ways.

The secondary issues of leadership is the removal of all emotion/ as these expressions are merely used to cover the reality and demand truth be modified to fit my own purposes: if you refuse, you will die. Reality must lead you, that means like men/ you must accept the truth that someone does have to pay the bill/ someone does have to "shovel the shit, and pay the price"/ and if no one else will do it, then its you. For men, they largely refuse/ thereby choosing war, choosing to inflict slavery to others, choosing anger and hate; but truth takes no prisoners, it merely proves what will happen if you don't. The questions of life, express demands you as women commonly refuse to accept/ pushing men to do what you do not accept, choosing to make men do what you will not do, choosing temptations and various methods of manipulation to "war in your own way, produce slaves for your own purposes, and so on. Therein your truth is a manipulation of man's truth/ thereby you are the same; there is no difference. Throughout history, the consequence of a failure to work primarily, within the boundaries of life at that time/ always resulted in the lazy, or the stupid, or the blind failing to accomplish what was necessary to survive. Therefore they stole, and needed slaves to perform the work they chose not to do. At the times when this was modified sufficiently to accomplish survival/ then sufficient children were born, to cause the consequences of over-population, and its result "NOT enough for everyone"; someone must die. Over and over it is apparent throughout the history of man/ woman/ child, The actions and reactions drove people to choose "the intellectual" to guide us/ or the religious to lead us; so that these terrible consequences could be eliminated. The intellectual clearly proves the consequence of his & her stupidity and blatant arrogance throughout america and the world today/ you are not better off, you are insane; you are about to become extinct/ and listening to these people, is why. If you move across the world to the arabs in particular/ you clearly see the consequences of following the religious, and the death they choose to bring by the zealot/ upon all, because they want to rule over you, and make you slaves, " they consider themselves as gods over you, because you are not like them"/ making all others, less or even unworthy of life. This is hypocrisy, and the authority that brings war; another failure. Therefore it becomes up to women, as one last chance , to find truth and let truth lead/ to accept reality and let it decide/ and to use these two decisions to honor life in the honesty and respect of sharing, caring, friendship, and love (the existence of a true desire, for life). Women and not men, will choose the last days of humanity/ or the first days of new life for all humanity. Women will choose, because man is unworthy: YOU have carried life to the edge of extinction/ YOU have failed. To this men will say: HOW DARE you accuse us/ WHO ARE YOU, to suggest we are lacking/ PROVE IT IS THIS BAD: OR DIE. To that I clearly respond; these words do speak for themselves/ as to final proof: we both know, "until the day it becomes too late to do anything else but DIE", the words cannot be proven in their entirety because the evidence of death has not yet been completed. When it is, then YOU ARE DEAD! Therefore this reality presents itself, as the evidence of knowledge, the transfer of understanding to the words plainly descriptive of the NEED to investigate, examine, and discover at trial. And the wisdom required of you, to participate in your own survival/ or the option, "to simply die if you so desire". Are you not free to decide for yourselves? No one is pushing you to live/ only reality is pushing you to die: not me/ not GOD / JUST YOU. BECAUSE, you are found unworthy to continue as leaders/ the right to decide how women shall affect your lives has ended for you. Women must now save your life/ or you die; THEREFORE they shall decide, how you shall serve them, and YOU will be grateful: because your only other choice is to continue in your quest to become exterminated from the earth; you and all life with you. HELP THEM, TO HELP YOU!

It is a better plan to avoid leadership, and approach life with openness and the distinction respect provides. RESPECT SAYS: let freedom apply the honesty of every life to its descriptions/ let order simply direct the truth of every life toward the honor of being alive/ let discipline provide the foundation of peace, within which we all agree to live/ let trust extend until it is proven responsible for good or for bad, and then be compensated accordingly. Truth is then leader, and truth says, let every man, woman, and child live according to their own desires and their own ways/ BUT let no one harm the other. Reality says; there will be those who band together for the purpose of harming the others/ therefore organizations shall remain formed to oppose and eliminate these bastard', bitches, and whore's from society or the earth. Harming means: to deliberately threaten, endanger, steal, or destroy the sanctity of peace necessary for harmony. You will deal with these by, removing the cloak of secrecy, "a light in every home/ a light over every life" when it is necessary: when peace returns, EVERY interview is destroyed. That does not mean you may give power to anyone/ power simply makes the simpleton arrogant and blatantly stupid. Power makes "the smart people" so proud they eat their own shit, and laugh at those who don't live in the sewer with them. Power assembles war, and proves ignorance is the road to failure, distress, rape, and the ascension of war machines. DON'T use power/ DON'T use rules, because rules are the excuse and control of power; wherein the blind, the fools, the arrogant, and the failures assign life to hell.

Removing the "cloak of secrecy" means literally: you shall interview each one personally. You shall insure each one is actually present with recorded interviews, that are appropriately shortened, broadcast to the public/ and the public shall decide what and who needs to be delayed, or investigated, or detained, or whatever according to these interviews: make sure you find them all/ search if you must. You will do this on a area to area basis/ with the interviewers being from a different area, and supported with information from the area interviewed; "people behind closed doors with suitable means to communicate with the interviewers." A good interview allows the freedom of expression/ a fair interview conforms to specific questions/ an honest interview develops from the freedom to be heard. Let them speak. To hear correctly, it is not as critical to hear the content of the words/ as it is to hear the purpose of the words; learn to listen: DO NOT choose based upon images/ DO NOT confront just because of patterns/ DO NOT assign violence based upon discontentment, learn the difference between social needs and the intent to correct or make a difference/ and personal vengeance, the desire to inflict pain and suffering based upon anger and hatred. Liars will come/ but a good interview will show them as liars/ learn to listen, learn to hear with your heart, not your eyes; let there be questions that can be proven true or false/ let the interviewers decide and control for 24 hours, those people who must have their stories checked/ a lie found of any consequence, supports containment for 7 days; but then you will go to court, and if nothing is proven/ society will pay the detainee 2 times the amount of money they will have lost (or if unemployed, whatever is the median amount for those who do collect). For social responsibility, you may "type cast/ profile" select the most probable; because that's how it is/ but you shall remember there have always been traitors, and there shall always be traitors: don't be blind, the majority will always be innocent/ therefore your profile must state: WE KNOW, these are only similar to the eyes/ WE KNOW, their hearts are alive/ WE SEARCH, only for the dead (whose souls are sold to violence). Your vote is your most powerful tool/ it is the only power you should retain; all the rest must be given to truth. But a constitution is necessary for every nation {the rules that we agree are important to retain truth, justice, and fair play for every member}, this is the power of one/ rather than the powers of the majority; and the power of one is your freedom, no matter who you are.

What does it mean "sent by GOD "? It means life for me, was removed from common participation and reality/ to establish the necessary knowledge and training to help you in your needs. Therefore it is not my life BUT GOD'S LIFE here for you, to assist you, and aid you in your survival. My own life, simply set aside. But I am honestly happy in the life I have lived/ greatly appreciating the opportunity to learn and be WITH RESPECT, in a relationship that is more than I could ever have hoped for. Death comes for us all/ we know that from nearly our beginning; believe in life, for death is not the end of life/ it is merely the end of body and mind. Life is the intensity of truth, by its definitions in decision/ that then turn complexity into thought, and energy into environment; do not fear, WE are alive.

PRAISE JESUS AND GOD

OUR CREATOR.

I am given another passage from the bible {which means simply, I am drawn to the Bible/ and it is opened by me without eyes to the place that I am given to read}. That passage is Revelation 22: 17

I leave you to make your own decisions.

BEING FAMILY, ALLOWS FOR HONESTY AND THE EXTENSION OF CARE, THE HOPE OF CONCERN, & THE HONOR OF A FEW WORDS IN WISDOM. As you perceive yourself to be wiser and more knowledgeable than you were 10 or 15 years ago/ I tell you for sure, in another 20 years or so, you will understand the difference time makes in every person's life. Therefore remember to listen & discuss [make them, if you have to] life, with your parents, & other family: those who do have your best interest at heart, ARE more reliable and thereby, "more sacred" than any other.

Sacred means: established in value, because the love included is inherent, & beyond dispute.

In life, RESPECT determines the relationship that exists, and forms the foundation of every possibility , destined to give you peace. Find respect first/ then choose love: not for such simple things as "money, power, or prestige: these are a trap"/ but instead, find honesty & honor will follow: " whether rich or poor". {in all those who care about you: the rest do not matter}. Life is about living, NOT possessing or doing or demanding/ the meaning of life is then: to perceive the beauty of hope, and build a destiny worthy of love.

There are only 3 things, to be advised of simply:

1. Every choice is either an intent toward love, or a decision in selfishness toward hate: look at the effects, long term! Everything else is just survival.

2. Every life deserves RESPECT, Until, they prove by repeated offense, or severe distrust, to be unworthy. Leave these alone, or seek justice, not revenge.

3. Love measures no one. Therefore understand the meaning to be: I have become "a destination in someone else's heart, a HOME where life begins in the blessing of happiness, and the truth defined by the experience, says, I am worthy".

If "love escapes you, either by choices, loss, or simple reality"/ understand this, that GOD LOVES YOU, and you are never alone, unless you choose this to be. Do your best, why do less? Remember this, "the very best of who you are, can only be given once/ therefore Read the 1^st commandment in the bible, and know this is why".

Let your own heart, lead you to your SOUL.

May GOD BLESS.

To my nieces and nephew, since it occurs to me, I have never given any of you, "some advice, as age provides"/ I will add this for each of you. HONOR is earned, it is never given/ BUT it is earned on the inside, where it cannot be stolen, and has nothing to do with other people. Rather honor is the wisdom of understanding your actions and decisions SHALL affect the lives of others, and because of this, the reality of honor in you, directs your decisions and your actions to be a blessing to the others/ rather than a selfishness to you. Honor understands, "I don't come first/ instead: we live as one on this earth". Even if you do not believe this is true/ because the actions & decisions of each person does affect their world; it becomes a reality that we live in that world as well. Love extends in the world as love/ hate does the same.

My advise is then, to do whatever you can, for the sake of harmony/ because it matters. Don't spend your days crying "what about me", you are alive, and I know you live with blessings [look at the others: with less].

Understand life means: you are a participant defining whatever life means to you/ therefore you are free, to express love or experience hate/ you are free, to defend harmony & hope through peace, or to attack the others as revenge/ you are free, to recognize the messages of truth and be ALIVE. Life thereby means, "at least to me": an opportunity to participate in the inherent love & dignity of being alive, as well as encountering the journey beyond truth: into CREATION itself. You will find none of this in possessions or bodies or looks, or any human thing/ RATHER all that is truly sacred, "because it is without dispute", lives in the journey of your soul! I do not choose possessions/ I choose life. This as a reality defines as a consequence, the relationships that are honorable. We live in a world of much competition, where even the basic relationships of human to human, are trampled by want into "just another obligation". This is a lie, but it is real: lies often exist, because people want them more than the truth/ therefore all lies are human in origin. Be careful what you want, because want is a relationship with lies. Truth alone is a relationship with life.

May you all find peace & happiness in your life, because love fills your heart: it comes in no other way! The distance we travel for love, is the journey into life. Love therefore is the desire to live, BUT NOT for the trivial pursuits of humanity/ for the honesty of a relationship which fills your whole soul with happiness, and gives you peace. Remember this as well, humanity causes most of the problems of humanity/ therefore we live with greed, lust, power, and expansive selfishness. These things will confront you, but they will never be kind, or helpful or friendly: even though liars can be convincing. If you allow problems in the world to control you/ then you are what the world makes of you! If you choose according to the love in your heart, even if no friend exists for long periods of time (I have known these times)/ then you are whatever your love shall make of you: you must choose. Because the world will tempt you, and life will demand an answer.

Understand, that at this moment in time, the world is a place of deception and the realities that deception brings. Therefore a great deal of contempt exists, and a willingness to use rather than be friends invades society/ the consequence is people fail, because they are abused. Do not let this happen to you, instead be true to your life, the existence of precious moments that could never be bought, or built or sold: but more simply exist as an opportunity to enter within the order of the universe itself. The question of life, is not about being "human"; it is about being alive! The difference is purpose, you can be human without concern for anything but yourself/ BUT you cannot be alive without a desire to join family, within the eternal bonds of a decision that breaks freedom "into its many parts, and gives each one a possession of our most basic relationship: the opportunity to be who you are". Live you life with honor & passions worth a lifetime (your lifetime), for in the day of your death/ it is these alone that stand up inside of you, and give you hope.

Beyond advice, you three are the future of this small family on earth/ Cole is not yet, because his life depends upon Derek, Christina, and all of you: Cole, as all children are, is the hope of life on earth. Steve is also responsible, to the degree of his own love. Because of this, your education is important, just as you are all important to me. Consequently, it is unwise not to correct you as necessary.

Every life is tested by moments, places in time where you choose to live or to die, "in pieces", because life has been measured by you. Every relationship has a consequence/ therefore every relationship is measured by that consequence. Fear is such a measurement, it exists because reality can attack us, WITHOUT warning, and we have no say. This is true of many things. The question designed by fear, is TRUST! Do you believe the foundation of your life is built upon love, or do you choose to accept that your own hands create your own destiny/ your own mind the only value of your existence? This answer controls your life, this relationship controls your destiny.

Love is the distance "your heart" shall travel in destiny to the one you love. Your hands or body, merely translate the existence of your time, through the expectations of your measurements. Destiny is "the existence of life beyond time, as it allows movement through the passages of thought." love never measures, love is a direct participation in the relationship you describe by thought. Therefore whatsoever exists in your heart/ becomes a journey within the passions of your soul. Heart expresses order, by expanding hope and defining creation; it is this creation that begins as discipline and becomes: your own decision, to be alive. Alive thereby means, a change has occurred, and you are now aware of Miracles!

It is fair to allow a "lack of trust" to exist on your behalf, as to the validity of expressions that exists beyond time/ but death will convince you. Therefore life is designed to educate you anyway. Fear is a tool that separates you from body alone/ even though it is your body you fear for. Fear explains knowledge, as the basis of your existence/ therefore fear also directs you from the decisions strictly for comfort, ease, or pride/ to the reality of thought and the consequences of truth. We are the expressions of our own thoughts/ NOT the existence of a simple physical body. Here the questions expressed by "what about me"/ apply the distinctions of "who am I"? The answer is always the same: you ARE what you truly desire or want/ because everything else is need. Desire means, conceived by the discipline of order, convinced by miracles of truth, thought has become my world and love exists as the expression of my soul. Soul therefore stands with you, in hope, that love shall be my guide into the eternity of my life/ you have joined eternity, and need never be lonely again. While want gathers unto itself, whatever the measurements of mind & motion & environment will allow. The difference is VALUE. Value means: love has entered my life, and I accept it as the treasure of my soul/ the place inside where family is born!

Here, in value, all things and all reasons, turn from want/ to the expressions of home, and the intensity of truth. Love and a home in the density of rhythms, the opportunities of thought, and the life of an experience designed within the freedom of true trust [trust is a home, where no barriers or boundaries need to exist], define the passion of love {To belong in JOY truly, without compromise, to those who accept me and share my peace}. What is then life? The answer remains, an opportunity beyond all others, it is the honesty of truth as the relationship of thought directs it to be. What then is fate? The answer remains, the truth applied to the disciplines of your soul, grants to you your reward. What is important? The answer remains: eternity, and all that it means, through the consequence of thought!

GOD NEVER FAILS !

It is clear in each of you/ a relationship to GOD , or to JESUS Our SAVIOR; Is less than truly important to you. I will remind you then, that your bodies are a gift to you/ sex did not create them, it is merely a simple tool for the survival of life on earth. I will then ask you each to use your mind, and measure the truth: which of the billions of parts, or trillions of decisions, or the reality of your basic freedom would you choose to be without: what is unnecessary to your life? Evolution is a fool's paradise: where nothing matters, we built ourselves one piece at a time/ without a mind. Thought is the basis of all life. Thought is the truth of every existence. Thought is the description of you, the body is merely a reflection through which you may see yourself. Think about miracles, and then decide where your heart shall lead you. Think about eternity, and believe if miracles brought you here, miracles exist beyond your own understanding to create new and different worlds as well. Love requires acceptance, or there can be no participation, there will be no opportunity, and all that is left is what you can be without mercy. This is a description of hell.

I am enclosing for you a list of things to be passionate about/ I am passionate, because they are truly important. These are important, because life can end and hope can die. Consequently it is necessary to fight for your life, to fight for all life. These will then determine a portion of your future as well/ therefore I do suggest your consideration and your decisions are as important as mine/ just as each one on earth is required to make this decision/ you are no different. If your own passions are limited to your own things, then how shall the world survive?

As for me, these critical issues & more, require constructive resolution, IF there is honest participation/ then there will be much to resolve. IF humanity is buried by their treasures of want/ then nothing is left to do. There is no war to be won, either we live as a world by the truth that exists, or we will die because we were too selfish to think of anything but greed. This demands concession of power, the end of "the wealthy, by extremes", & a fundamental governing alteration. In simple terms/ I do intend to cause distress among the "rich & powerful". They will likely want me dead, as soon as possible/ if I am successful in this. I do have "opportunities". I, and you may however be certain that my life is protected until the day "nothing else matters"/ a decision has been made: so do not be concerned for me.

Therefore since you are the future/ some small but necessary funds are held for the family: the whole family on both sides given for the days of trouble. If I should die, then look for instructions; that will require some deduction, in a safe deposit box at the bank of ogden. Everybody gets a vote, on how to spend the money/ majority rules. You each may have a "little bit more"/ BUT spend it wisely as time will demand much. Never fear, BELIEVE simply. This is not a question of life or death/ no one knows, what humanity shall choose. This is not a question of whether I have anything to say on a personal level. Instead this is simply about truth, and whether is shall lead and decide the future/ or if lies shall continue to destroy the foundations of what we need to survive. You too, must decide what is real, what is true, and what is necessary; and respond accordingly. The following pages give cause and honesty to the formation of these words/ do read them.

By the intensity of fundamental needs, I also offer to you these words for your comprehension:

{life is a dimension, encompassed by time in this experience. Time is therefore our relationship to the consequence of our own expressions. The question of life therefore asks: what is the destination of time, & how does thought expand from the development of a decision to comprehend an understanding of possibility? The answer is; respect is the density of truth itself, as it completes the reality of structured formations, as are necessary to life itself. Density establishes energy, and energy transforms possibilities into compositions capable of life. Life is then the disciplined expression of energy, as it obeys the definitions of freedom and the honor provided by thought. Thought IS the completion of truth, as it refines existence by becoming the consequence called you. The participation's within eternity are for another time; when your possibilities are more defined. }

keep these words/ you will grow into them!

In another matter, the consequence of independent analysis is generated by study, working knowledge, and then the relationships formed by independent truth, and its relationship to reality through the formations called discipline. If you wish to "invent"/ then you must be free of the interference of common knowledge/ but well versed in the compositions of "what we can and do understand". May love be with us all.

As time has pasted, a chapter of life to often left unsaid or simply left out, do to the needs of survival, are the expressions of happiness, the hopes of joy, & the honor of friendship. Therefore I choose to revise & refine your journey, not simply for survival, but for BLESSING and the experience of destiny, as only love can describe it.

Blessing means: HONORED by the relationship which formed the honesty of a gift to you. It is the relationship that matters, MORE than the gift! This is NOT a concept, but more simply a truth. Truth thereby demonstrates a composition, decreed to be communication. The critical comprehension is then, "a language called SOUL".

Happiness expands from the dimensions of soul, to the place where you "surrender time", and become one with creation itself. More simply our relationship with this gift of time, becomes "naked" within the miracles of body, mind, sex, & hope. Happiness thereby is the expression of our simple truth, without the encumbrance of all that in not about life itself. Happiness exists within the honesty of our blessings/ the truth of our bodies/ the disciplines of our mind/ the dignity of our sex/ and the honor described by living within MIRACLES!

Have you EVER, considered the freedoms of life? Have you never considered the intensity of failure, & what that truly means to any life? EVERY LIFE has dignity, no matter what! Because every life, is the expression of a truth SO MEANINGFUL, that we as human beings cannot ascend to its truth, or attain its freedoms. That expression of truth can only be realized when the veils of survival are lifted to reveal the relationship that is our life: the expression of love, that grants to us, the power of energy. There is no relationship, more true of life and love, than the freedom to share the decision and comprehend the consequence. Even when we are wrong. Love is governed by the decision to build, love is the existence of a door beyond which we share our souls, in peace and harmony.

JOY enters here, for LOVE exists. Love is "the decision" to create & build the possibilities of FAMILY! Thereby all love is about family. Family means: We have RISEN, to the honesty of our truth/ we have chosen the shared expression of life/ we have learned the experience of trust/ & we have formed the dimension of an existence in thought. These foundations exist as "the HEAVEN" above/ but they are NOT the journeys end.

Rather THOUGHT is "Like the stars of our universe"; simply too much to comprehend. Beyond heaven MEANS:

TO LIVE

IN

THE

GLORY

OF

GOD

THE QUESTION of why do we desire life, is as simple as the happiness we have known. Hope extends from this happiness to the intensity of our world/ and the vision of miracles & destinies beyond time, to the essence of life itself. What then is creation, that it builds our world/ only to tear it down? What then is love, that it may rise above happiness as the truth of an expression beyond time: for love is as a memory is, a life beyond the simple focus of experience. This critical development called experience, fundamentally extracts participation & existence from every human being. Therefore as we build our human existence, we do pay with our relationship to that experience, as applied by that time. With the happiness that comes as our recognition of life itself, my life. Unfortunately the human experience is filled with human folly and failure/ and for very many the focus of life falls into the disgrace of "tiny moments, and simple revenge". These further consume happiness and leave some "bland/ adrift/ and failing life itself."

LOVE intervenes as a life beyond moments/ a relationship without reaction, a place were we meet the destiny called happiness, and exchange it for JOY. Joy is our own creation in happiness/ it is "my/ our gift" to existence. True LOVE is creation itself, assembling the purposes of freedom, as the habitat of our souls. There joined as the eternity of life, without end. Soul therein expresses the HONOR of my discipline in thee, the order of thy own respect for me: it is where TRUST is born and lives/ forsaking all else to become as one. Trust is the foundation of our critical reality as life. Without trust, we cannot expand beyond the definition of ourselves/ thereby, we cannot participate as anything beyond self/ or selfishness. TRUST is an "opening created as a door", to what can only be known as the inside of you/ me. Trust is a relationship formed from the "essence of my existence, to the wonder of your love". Therein what is male, learns from female the honor of an existence in life. What is female, understands with awe: that creation is a gift of life, that passes from me to you. Trust declares, the participation of GOD , is Everything to me. Trust understands the courage & strength necessary, "to stand within the wall of energy, and open the door"/ cannot be less than true love. Trust prepares as the decision of life, to enter within eternity "As a new bride enters into an honorable marriage": with hope declaring her way/ truth designing her experience/ and love blessing the existence of her heart. RESPECT is complete.

As to respect for me, complexity has rearranged my life; to become a very odd mixture of male and female. The mind is all male/ but I seem to have two souls now, one is a woman. As to the certain controversy of how "this woman" came to control the male parts and pieces of me, I do not know/ however compliance is as simple as "do it, until you are allowed to stop/ or my body reacts like I am touching an electric fence". I have come to an understanding, that the male parts are no longer owned by me/ but because I am clearly attached; whatever the owner wants, I will be doing. After this understanding of being literally a slave, in this matter was accepted, no more problems. Until now, the woman's chest that I have is equally getting worked over under the same circumstances, and it is certain whenever I have had enough, the breasts will also be recognized as, owned by "the woman", and I will be a slave to whatever is coming with these as well. I clearly have no say, no rights, and no options. This is not "comforting" to me/ but I have truly given all things to GOD , and whatever is to be; IS SURELY NECESSARY or I truly believe HE will intervene. I do question the complexity of all this/ but have no clue.

In all things of life, the question remains in me: Have you never "seen the colors of life, felt the texture and touch, the warmth & freedoms/ and pleasures of even your own body"? And so much more! Raise your head, and understand the universe itself, awaits us all/ Only your own decision, to be less/ can keep you away. How have you missed this?

Do you not understand LOVE is a beginning, and trust the foundation, for mercy to be the honesty that expands the participation of your own soul, "As children of GOD "!

PRAISE

JESUS,

for HE, taught these very things.

I pray for you/ pray for me too.

It is of some interest, "that a door has opened" to the various differences between men & women. My "new chest" is basically: a reality that "while I was not looking/ woman stormed inside, and planted 2 flags on my chest, and claimed the property! While I was still in shock over that, she attacked and took the controls for the male penis and left me nothing of it". Even so, useful insight followed. The chest or breasts, are now mine or "I am theirs"/ or something like that; it is a new and different experience. They are not what I would have expected, had I given that any thought before. As a man, I expected all the "woman parts" would be like a man's: they come ready to go one day, simple, no problem (except getting control ), and they simply work when or if you want them to. That has not been the experience of these tits or breasts. They invaded/ demanded attention/ were irritating enough to get it for the first couple of weeks, and then quite temperamental at times for months. They really don't like being "squeezed between things"; as in working in tight places. They don't like to be laid on/ which means "women should be on top". At times they are quite sensitive if touched, and send a "chemical bloom" to the brain/ that is very noticeable. Most of the time they are indifferent in many ways. At times they feel everything about a shirt/ but most of the time they don't. At times they actually feel "heavy or something" as if my whole chest is just 2 tits/ but most of the time they don't. They are fickle and moody at times, and I never know what they are going to do. These are still small, an inch or so without the nipple (one more/ one less) and they grow up to a half inch more at times/ before shrinking back down; I know not why. No clue if they are done growing. They are also primarily "working tits" made for babies it seems rather than sex; not as sensitive as expected/ but that doesn't mean not sensitive.

As to other complications, except for personal penis control, everything is the same/ except for the tits. However the mind is actually quite different in a number of ways. Less confrontational: the important issues that threaten life on earth/ have been regulated to the consequence of understanding & the basis of wisdom. This nurturing is then to become your possession, and your choice rather than my demand. Instead of a question of enemies to be defeated, a war to be won or lost/ life or death has become a question of freedom, and the right to make the decision for yourselves without influence except for understanding, knowledge, and wisdom. You are free to die/ irregardless of the children, a reality of murder I cannot stop. It is your decision to love them enough/ to let them survive: and that's just how it is.

I have asked "the spirit inside" is being a sexual slave to women truly necessary? The spirit "says yes"/ therefore NO more questions or complaints. Over the years every time I disagreed with "The spirit who shares my life"/ I was CLEARLY AND WITHOUT DOUBT proven wrong. I have no reason to believe this is different.

I would have preferred to "keep my teeth/ they are in poor condition"/ but whatever you are to learn from them, when asked: the spirit said DO NOT. Time will prove this correct or not. Teeth are good tools/ but NOT "Worth even a tiny bit of SOUL".

These are not "common & ordinary" statements, but exist as a relationship beyond very many to understand. Therefore all kinds of arrogance, & petty excuses will be made/ so that your reality & truth may be discarded as well. Stay true to the message, not to me. The old will be particularly aggressive/ for they "like being at ease/ not paying for anything, and saying to themselves: its not my problem/ its yours". Fix it when I am gone. These are completely aloof, & unconcerned even about their own children. YOU are choosing to murder your own children/ because you refuse to care. YOU are fighting/ clawing/ & biting with everything you have, for a few moments more: but failing to understand HELL is your destiny/ because YOU are choosing it.

I cannot wash away the arrogance, pride, selfishness, want, etc: ONLY YOU can. But I can tell you "these are dancing with satan himself"/ and your personal result will be horrendous. DO REPENT AND CHANGE, or you will be very sorry: for the only instance you get, not to be terrified.

People WILL scoff, & laugh, & ridicule/ as they always do, saying prove "satan exists". Therefore even though I DO hate the conversation/ you may understand this.

That truth is BOTH GOOD AND bad, as a reality and a consequence. Truth that is GOOD is gentle, kind, loving, peaceful: everything called WONDERFUL! Is not love & life & happiness a part of this?

Truth that is bad for your life/ IS HARSH, a power that consumes without mercy/ a destroyer in every sense. Is not death one of these?

Thereby you too, can know a great divide; with fundamental & real expression & experience exists wherever truth can be defined. There is NOTHING beyond time/ that can approach either side. Life is one reality or the other/ there is no in-between.