Life is, the experience and expression of joy, as it is known to be without restraint when love enters inside. Time is known to be the measured existence of every action, and every reaction, owed to an experience best expressed in “small measures”.  Because to do more recognizes our vulnerability, our reality owed to time itself.  Life is an expanding door participating, into journeys that stretch beyond ourselves, as we learn to give of ourselves to create a home that is shared, because caring gives us that life.  Time is a closing door, that remembers no one, and shares nothing at its end.  Our body is a vessel, our life, the essence of who we have chosen to be in truth.  Nothing lives without truth/ nothing dies without truth establishing a verdict: alive or dead, as a participant in love.  This is not a hard concept; because truth is not a hard master. It participates as the elemental creation called spirit.  Our opportunity to view the creation of truth within ourselves; one day at a time. Truth allows us “to clean out/ what we believe and choose shall not belong here”.  Time is a measure, life is a meaning given to that measure, beyond the experience of existence.  Life is an expression chosen to be, the essence of who “I” am.  Happiness is the meaning we give to ourselves, while hope is the blessing cherished: the time we spend giving other human life, or any life, the possibilities we share. 

We enter within thought as the beginning of “I”/ the definition created by the determination expressed as an individual identity.  As life proceeds in time, the need or desire to “play the others/ participate together”, confronts us all with the need either to be “an individual identity/ OR one equal to the flock/ herd/ pack; etc: whatever you wish to call it”.  Or more simply as youth it is most common to discard a portion of your own identity to join the others and be identified as “part of these”. That changes “I”/ to become a participant as we.  That changes the decisions which are isolated by thought, into the questions and answers of us all, combined by want/ altered by lies/ and chosen by the easiest methods possible; so as not to distract from the group, or to control the group by becoming leader.  All of us/ not one of us, thereby those who do not sufficiently belong are sacrificed, and pushed out.  So that the rest can close ranks and become even more unified, or same.  That ends largely outside of schools/ because life and the individual battles of what shall I do, overtake the desire to be “same”; and reality demands: make your own decision/ or you end swindled/ lied to/ cheated/ and used or abused.  Making your own decision without truth, isolates you into the categories of people who become slaves/ criminals/ addicts of various things/ a measured existence (as in those who have eaten too much or too little)/ the worker, runner, etc who cannot stop/ and so on.  Making your life about using or abusing people by playing games with their lives; makes you both liar and thief. 
Those who gain truth, to become the individuals thought requires you to be, understand discipline and law are about the realities that give us our time to experience and express ourselves. Although we cannot discuss thought in its truth/ too many fools exist, they would use it against life.  We can express a composition that is less dangerous, but not without consequences.  The real question is how badly can this information be abused? 
It seems to me, “too much”; so we end here.

We turn to a different venue, and ask why do male and female fail each other so often?  A major participant in that is “the group/ or desire to be a participant in the flock/ herd/ etc”.  We want to be the same, participate as equals and desired, accepted and honored as we belong”.  Some have very strong desires in this/ some have very weak, don’t care much attitudes;  but all who are young have some desire to be accepted as an equal with everyone else.  That demand to be accepted, to belong to the group, requires the same behaviors/ same rewards/ same dating expectations shall be done.  To achieve this, one does what the others do/ to achieve the trophy required, some will go farther than they want too, simply because it is the price they believe must be paid.  To do less, makes you an outcast/ because you did not achieve the same. Thereby proving even stronger need to “pay the price”, required. Boys want toys.  Girls want proof, they are able to attract, and hold, a male. 
The end result as society descends into human chaos is: that sex becomes the tool of choice/ lives become a trophy, rather than a human being/ and body becomes the sale bait.  Sale because; you wouldn’t buy it without incentive/ bait because, “there IS a string attached”.  While the mind is certain:  I have played the game/ I AM WINNER; I have the sex to prove it!  Thereby reducing sexual partners to conquests, sexual desire to an excuse, and sexual reality to the abortion of love, rather than the gift of life.  A tragedy that increases as the years go by.

Beyond youth, are the lives so impacted by their youth, that it is hard to belong in love, or trust anyone.  Not because anything has changed except you/ but because innocense is long sense destroyed, and now you know: life CAN be dramatically impacted both for good or bad, with sex.  And reality as a human being MUST deal with the chemicals that make sex desirable.  A trap to a large extent, because people have needs and no matter what you choose, there will be consequences.  True love given, means a life opening up with NEEDS & trust;;; and a tragedy of heartache, if you cannot stay.  Older love, is an understanding built upon the descriptions of WHAT can you do for me/ WHAT MUST I pay for your needs/ WHY do you desire me.  And can I continue to live with respectful happiness within myself instead?  Not exactly loving, for most:   is it!

It is a hard thing, to let someone else suffer/ when you know you can help.  It is a harder thing to let someone else cry, when you know, “I caused these tears, because they need me to stay”.  It is harder to know, there are more important things than individual life.  Simple as that.
So then if we ask WHAT would be a better plan for human sexuality, dating, and needs.  The question becomes HOW do we honor each other as male and female who do need each other to feel balanced and whole; and not cause tears? Men cry too/ not just a woman thing.  Take a look at all the sexual perversion; and know it is true.  Mostly from: CAN’T/ WON’T/ DON’T, and never again.

The critical question of dating and romance is not sexuality/ but the desire to NOT be alone.  Loneliness makes sexuality an escape from that isolation, by proof:   I am NOT alone “here and now”(both sides).  Enter into this the demand to play games: I AM WINNER/ I HAVE THE TROPHY/ I PROVED you are the losers.  Etc.  And you have the experience of human dating pretty much wrapped up: until you get to love. Love is: the expression of a duty to share your soul/ the experience of a message that understands not only do I care, but I believe that you can and do care about me too.  Not a game, our reality distinguished from all others by the truth of who we have become as one experience shared.  Love is a duty, because life is a passion.  Passion means: I have chosen this to be, the purpose and desire of my heart and soul/ my time on this earth, and the measurement I have given to this reality; as value to me.
Therein we create the treasures of our lives, we define the value that lives within us as desire and purpose in life, we share our love, thereby hoping for its return.  But we cannot proceed unless someone else is willing to reciprocate and love us as well. Few are, because most are so wounded as individuals; they have lost their heart or soul.  Hidden away, where none are allowed to search lest they find it, and drag you back to “the living”.  Living means;   I have ventured beyond myself, and found life, the opportunity to become more than alone.  Living means; that I have healed, from the wounds life brought, and may begin again with happiness and hope.  Living means; the struggle to understand has moved beyond myself, and I know and accept the reality that is forgiveness of others/ repentance for myself/ the wisdom and discipline required to make better decisions has been won.  And do accept, life is worth the price. 
Therein we see that living is not simply being alive, but participating with others as life allows. Even if you are scared/ abused/ saddened/ or afraid; these things can heal, if you let them.  Begin again. 

 There is a place for religion, in that very thing.  To stop, heal, and begin again/ in the safety of rules that are proven to be calming for the majority over thousands of years. Rules however are NOT “a ticket to heaven/ etc”.  They are rules, intended to bring disciplines back to your life/ so that you can again search for your life, once healed inside.  To bring heartache to another soul, is a wound for you and them. To heal, it is necessary to forgive each other and yourself, because most things “take two” or more. Or more simply “you were there/ making choices too”.  The creation of hope, returns with an identity discovered by the truth of your own desires, purposes, happiness and life.  Some to hope for bad things/ some to hope for good; and some simply redefined by love for the purpose that is sharing, & the desire that is caring; creating family inside.  The relationships that define our world, even if they are not human.  If you find love for another miracle of life, you will survive.  If you fail to find love, and fall into a pit of despair not being able to see beyond your own misery and expectations/ suicide comes next.  Not because   “GOD”   Doesn’t care/ but rather you have chosen not to be searching inside of hope; the consequence of that does lead to death.  Because without the journey, time is simply endless/ it goes nowhere.  Journey means: passion exists, or I have a purpose, a desire inside of me to fulfill!  Simple as that.
So then we ask, WHY do some have passion, and a journey worth dying for/ and yet others struggle everyday of their lives in a search that will never be found.  The answer is, what are you willing to pay?  What are you willing to risk, to pursue “more”?  The majority say: “I will work very hard, and get everything I desire/ proving I am a winner”; the end of life determined by who has the most trophies. They admit too, “I will become everything I need/ you are as nothing”:    Time’s up/ “hell no, I won’t go”: but alas, yes you will.

 Some of the minority will say: “for love, or duty, or honor, or life itself I shall spend my life and time/ regardless if any other sees the need, or truth I see”.  These understand the blessing of time, is the creation of self/ the honesty to build an identity that is, “the essence and truth of me”. These accept life as a reality, and understand truth will decide the question of life, love, or me; and death as well.  Miracles speak for them; I, for one; believe their truth.
Or more simply, the foundation of every life needs an anchor which then decides what for, and why I exist.  That need translates into a direction, and when desire is established the journey begins. So then what is the purpose of your life, why do you believe life is worth living?  In reality, within our human existence, there are only two real choices: either love or hate/ everything else is survival.  Greed translated means, “I WANT yours too”; which is a form of hate, through selfishness and the intent to produce both power, over you/ and pride to be used against you in the descriptions of “loser”.  So then what do you truly desire?

 If it is love, the foundations of friendship must be planted/ or more simply, friendship between two people begins with acceptance of each other, translates into time spent without measuring each other, and forms a bond with each other, when it is clear: that I mean you no harm, and in truth will aid your survival and hopes, just as I believe you will do the same for me, if you can.  In these simple things, friendships are born, and grow.  But do recognize this: that some measurements shall be made when the question is beyond friendship and asks “will you spend your life, your love, your hopes and your body with me”? Marriage or whatever you wish to call it, is just that/ and EVERYBODY needs to look in the mirror, when “measuring someone else” as a possible mate, particularly for family. But it is true, that I find not by the definitions of love/ but some aspect of humanity inside, that not just “everybody” will do.  Doesn’t mean you aren’t equal/ doesn’t mean you are not loved the same/ it just means, nature has a plan too, and its best not to believe nature is wrong.  Nature builds our world, our bodies, ourselves as time; for thousands of years/ it is proven true; “the right way” for nearly all.  I honestly don’t know why, everyone cannot be considered equal in love/ but apparently nature has a purpose, and a desire too.  Be kind in your measurements, or you will be lonely.  Be friends, with everyone that does not represent hate; WHY should you not be.   Even the lesser, or most of these;   can be less than enemies. Its their life/ its their choice; just like you.  Those people often rejected by this society, out of fear/ or do to measurements that say “NOT like me”; are often forced into misery, because of you, and your choice to make them outcasts.  Most often by far, these people just like you and me; simply need a friend/ someone to spend time with, until they heal within themselves.  Not in ways that make you fear/ but in ways that let them heal: time, listening, talking, working, helping, sharing, caring, and being patient are all ways of participating in their lives so they can return to a normal life for themselves. Don’t simply give them objects/ don’t measure them for what they do; if a man is reduced to a bottle of wine/ let him have it, and be thankful for what you have.  If a woman is reduced to prostitution/ do not measure her;  understand something has gone wrong for the vast majority; and life can be harsh. Lives can be changed in an instant/ and never be the same. Be thankful for what you have, be understanding about what they do not. But be careful as well; remain where public view and possibilities exist/ do this work in the light of day/ remember not to be vulnerable until it is proven that love, or more correctly,  not hate;  is a true possibility here.  And do not sacrifice, it will always turn out badly, choose and accept only what you are honestly willing to pay for in life, money, sex, etc.  Or don’t do anything.

There are people who are too fat/ people who are too thin/ people who smoke too much/ etc.  Not because I say so/ but because the body and mind are gifts that need to be respected to experience all their expressions, hopes, and joy.  These are realities of life that govern the possibilities of physical participation at some level: or more simply, every step is measured in some way, and the excuse for what is believed lacking, has been chosen.   Because a physical life has less to do with their circumstances than is the truth: “I can forget about the other things missing in my life, for just a little while in or with these”.  As is the truth of most addiction.  The question is why/ but the answer is only in you.  The simple truth is; like those who desperately want to be rich/ MOST are never going to change that as a fact of their lives.  So either you accept the truth, or it changes you into the consequences of what you believe will prove “this situation, is just temporary” for me.  You cannot “change the facts of life/ without confronting the realities of your own life”.  Food won’t help/ starvation won’t help/ control won’t help/ and so on.  Changing your life requires that you accept the truth about what you cannot change, and form your decisions within the realities you can change with your own decision and life.  People fail to control their addiction because having changed themselves, it becomes clear/ their world is still very much the same.  In other words, when you measure life and living as is the essence and elemental reality of every addiction and find it lacking for you/ what must be changed is the measurements YOU attach to life and living.  So that your own world has in fact changed, you have then become acquainted with the truth of who you are, regardless of the circumstances life finds you in.  Or you have changed the circumstances, of your life/ by taking risks associated with a new and different life.  Be careful who, you throw away; even “poor friends”, are hard to find. Stop being so arrogant (I would have/ I could have/ I was going to.....);    it will help you, to accept life is not a game. There are no winners or losers/ there are only those who love, hate, or survive; or die.  If life is not a game/ then money is no measure.  It is the game, that demands rich or poor.

IT IS a critical aspect of human society, to ask: WHY do people choose to play the game of money?  Not the aspects of simple respect for a job done, or done well/ but the game of who gets to be rich, and as a consequence who must then be poor, or  enslaved!  The answer is: that people become bored with their lives, by measuring each other: they assert, “I AM superior to you”/ while the other side then says, “hell NO, you aren’t, I will prove it”. And the game is on.  Without the people who are willing to play/ thereby allowing the rich to exist; there is no game.  But the question of interest is, WHY are you bored with life?  Apart from the obvious answer that is measurement, and the desire to play with each other; in ways that prove I can hate or hurt you.  The reality returns to why are you so bored; why do you choose, that friendship, family, and love are simply not enough?  The answer is: “you want to play god”.  Simple as that.  Can’t play god without a game/ and the game is worthless unless you actually get to control someone and make their lives struggle because of your own ways, choices, and designs. 
Given this example of hate, to make someone angry, surrender, or sad, just because you can.  Brings the question, WHY would you desire this, when friendship, family, and love/ hope, happiness, joy and everything worth having in life is the opposite of what you deliberately chose?  The answer is: “look at me/ listen to me/ I am special”!  Or more simply, you do not wish to be equal/ and trade all that has true value, for this simple excuse to prove in your own mind: they are LESS than me/ or I HAVE more.  Thereby I AM MORE.
So the question must then be: WHY is this important to you?  WHY can you not be happy, alive, and with friends, instead of demanding to be more than everyone else?  The answer is:   pride and want have “leaked inside” and found an anchor which proves to you/ this world is better to me, if I can be god over you.  That is a choice, governed by pride, and provided by want.  A demand accepted, not to be equal! A want established by the games people play, with money.

Here is a question that I have not solved: WHAT could women want with me?  I do not understand it.  Perhaps having men and women understand each other better; will be the result.   But women are elusive for a reason/ they want men to be off balance in their relationships, because that evens the battle a bit in who gets control. Unless equal, there is no justice.  The question is, would women desire me to tell that, or not?  Because their relationship changes/ and the demand must then come for equal rights, by simply saying, “I will be equal”.  Rather than working from the background to manipulate and control “being equal”/ which always turns into “I know his secrets:  I can control to get what I want”/ and then if effective the man says; I am being used and abused: not loved. Every lie becomes a wound/ every manipulation a beating/ every intent to control, a desire to steal, cheat, or “divide and conquer”.  Relationship die because of this! Men do it too. Religion is used to control women/ religion is the writings of men, why is that then  not a surprise.  Take what is “good” and useful to know/ and begin again.

 I on the other hand, am becoming without doubt “feminine beyond anything I could imagine; my mind has started to change; it’s a battle male or female/ and male is losing”. Why me is less of interest than WHAT could possibly be the reason or benefit; other than to say as women: “not only were we able/ but we did change him”. The element involved is spiritual woman; a reality I do not expect you the reader to understand. But that does not mean it is not real!  I notice my mind is changing from simple and plain, to questions which I can’t explain/ that is not my usual experience in life.  From passions without regard to other people, groups, etc.   To my life is suddenly beset with questions that are very different;  desires for at least the potential for companionship, and a host of problems that have appeared without significant cause. I don’t know why, the last few weeks have pushed me hard, to accept or understand women, or just plain be woman, better. Don’t know why. Just how life is.  This is, a very different experience; from watching the world and experiencing or expressing the various needs to be able to defend myself, and aware of the expanded environment around me, as male.  To a more distinct freedom from that, and as a consequence a confined experience primarily dedicated to this simple experience as life.  From complete control of sexuality as male/ to absolutely no control over my own body or mind as the potential of female.  From physically active and fit/ to what can only be described as “I feel pregnant”; just mind blowing to an extent; can’t stop anything/ just overrun. I don’t know why. But I do know, my relationship with life and women has changed. Men seem completely irrelevant, apart from everyday things. One thing I would add for your benefit is: understand the reality of human existence that says, “pay attention to me/ listen to me/ do what I say (for a change)” applies to all people in a “marriage, or like relationship”.  In other words to belong to each other, is to invite an understanding that is beyond the rest. To love each other requires intimacy and “Honest” time. To know each other honestly and well, is to be ready for true sexual compatibility; the question is, am I “your treasure”. That cannot be done: unless you are BOTH, willing to discard the day (when that is realistic & possible), and focus on the truth of who we are together. Sexuality as lovers, is the value we place “on growing each other in happiness, the time we spend hoping, and the moments we share in expressions dedicated to you or me; as us”. Listen and care, and you will share. Or more simply: take the time each day to hear EACH OTHER, as one life shared together; because we care enough to put each other first.  Be kind/ be FAIR/ be gentle;   but be true.  Clean until it is “clean enough; to be safe”.  Safe means: I see in your heart, the honesty I need to know; your true intent is to help me/ not hurt me, in this our lives together. 

Anyway, in this case it appears like “I just wish to complain”.  Its not torture, not harsh, not terrible; just different.  But different to the point of removing everything male, how am I suppose to live like that?  It sure as life itself; ain’t going to be with perverts. Can’t live with men, just ain’t being realistic. And women can take advantage of me; no defenses. I feel like a woman in the middle of men; NO defense, dependent upon their respect; or if they have no desire for me at all, cast aside. I have traded places.  Don’t know how to live this way; wrong parts and pieces mixed together.  IT’S A PROBLEM.  A true, and complete surprise; you can’t imagine! Anyway, just complaining to myself mostly.  If you don’t take change very seriously as a human planet, no one survives.  If you don’t stop the threats that surround us, no one survives.  If women don’t intervene for me:  a consequence that confronting  power, pride, hate, money, and every other form of selfishness in existence requires, (they are primarily, creations of men).  I won’t survive.  Plus not pretty anyway/ too old/ bad teeth; etc, etc.  Probably doesn’t matter.   A strange life.