Mediation requires the assembly of simple truths, designed to instill the basic understanding of relationships, rhythms, realities, and rights assigned by the meaning and purposes of both sides.  Mediation means: to belong, to neither side/ because balance is in essence the discovery of differences/ OR the same. Mediation applied to differences, creates a divide/ thereby separating time and reality, from an alternate truth.  Mediation allowing for the same, but with differences by nature rather than choice, applies the creation of a bridge by which we become closer and closer until joined as equals in both time, space, and reality.
I will be adding to this particular link, from time to time. As it suits me to do so.

The essence of male and female behavior, is a division created by nature to encourage and establish that one “should learn and represent this”/ while the other should “learn and represent that”; thereby together they equal “a whole expression in life.”  That means, no matter how “perfect” you feel alone/ you cannot be whole, without a partner of the opposite sex, that lives within the essence of your soul.  Doesn’t matter how much you reject this conception, it will, remain true.  But it is also true, that if you fail to find love/ that person opposite you, will take from you;   because it is the way of life, to use what it does not share.  Sharing is the gift, of my life granted to your need/ your life given to mine.  Sharing is a purpose defended by the heart that lives within your embrace.

We will begin, with the simple mind; that understands only the difference in body that delights the mind and expresses hope as the moment “you get what you wanted”/ regardless of damage done. 
To avoid any confusion; there is no discussion for perversions here/ rather understand this.  That life or spirit taught me, that these things must be tolerated, because humanity is free/ and freedom allows what freedom allows.  It is the price we all pay, for the singular statement “let me be me/ do not interfere”.  As to all other subject matter, it can be summed up in: DO NOT ask “to be married/ because you cannot be, it is physically impossible”.  But that does not mean you cannot be legally bound to each other like human marriage/ and entitled to the same courtroom and legal descriptions. Simply call it something else/ because it is not, nor will it ever be “marriage”.
Not the same/ do you not pride yourselves on that fact: NOT the same!  Then quit lying, to yourself and this world.____

In every relationship between man and woman, the reality becomes: if there is not truth and respect, expressed by love/ then one or both are trying to control.  Women intend to control with subtleties/ men try to control with force, or money.  Both play games, for happiness/ but when want intervenes, both use games to tempt or contrive solutions without critical fundamental truth.  Thereby both fail, and lose in love, trust, truth, and hope.  The life of man is open to discussion, but the life of woman is reserved to the development of what is necessary to understand.  They are more vulnerable, and consequently must be protected.

You should know: that when men say they cannot understand, or they will depend upon “being in the same boat” with the rest!  What they mean is: “I am afraid/ I do NOT want to know/ I refuse the evidence, because it is NOT what I want life to be” and so on.  Otherwise, they WOULD take what is true, and make a decision they know to be for life, and a future, as best they can.  Fear, is a terrible thing/ it leads to every failure, most tragedies, and countless loss in all area’s of life. Do your best instead.
I leave the rest, for another time.

The more complex behaviors such as love are established through the essential ingredient called thought.  The difference between simple and complex is the integrity of those who choose either to participate in relationships, or choose to consider themselves “as a god/ thereby playing games, for the deliberate purpose of making another loser, so that you can call yourself winner”.
Therefrom we begin to understand, from the outset, that there are those who can participate in relationships, and those who have chosen not to participate in any relationship, because that interferes with the concept of winner (only one, at the top).  The intellectual is not a “thinker”/ rather the intellectual operates under the assumption that he or she has an opportunity created by the disciplined acceptance of whatever rules control the various enterprises of their world.  By the rules, the game can be won/ unless of course someone changes the rules, in which case you lost before you began.  Rules are the bylaws of human behavior, committing to the foundation of such things as religion, the elements of human control.  With rules, a religion has power; without rules, a religion is merely the construction of a variety of people gathered together for a similar purpose or thought.  The quest for love, is an elemental struggle to achieve and participate within an environment above the common placement of human society.  Love is a description of people who have found in the participation of thought the basis of more than simple living; experiencing and expressing for themselves, a life unmeasured, a reality in time that expands beyond simple self to become not only my life “reborn”/ but our lives defined and created anew, with the essence of hope and happiness that is more than anything we can or do.

The critical question of life is, WHY do people choose want or thought?  The answer is: thought demands work, while want merely assumes, lies, fear, and whatever else the human mind can create will be sufficient to allow superiority over the others.  There are those who do not experience this sense of opportunity, due to inheritable traits; most turn to hate, acts of crime or revenge to prove “I can be superior too”.  Regardless of these, the only truth that can ever be found occurs when the possibility of searching for thought itself is applied to life.  Life says: there is a distance between you, and what you search for in thought.  To get there, you MUST participate beyond yourself/ because what is called self/ has been unable to achieve the next step in the ascension of human existence as a person capable of detaching themselves from pride. Pride is an elemental form of behavior/ therein proving “I am special, or look at me, or listen to me; and so on”.  Pride is the purpose of proving I WANT and get more than you!  Thereby pride is, “like a dog purposely shitting on the floor”; made you react “didn’t I”.

The distinction of want is elemental to fear; if you don’t want/ then you have nothing to fear, but death itself.  Since we all know virtually nothing can be done about death or its time except for worry, which literally amounts to nothing but a game within yourself; the reality of fear shall discontinue if you prove to yourself that want no longer exists in me.  Want is the anticipation of a reward, regardless of the means or value, or purpose or method used to obtain that reward.  Want proves selfishness by discovering, “I DON’T have to care about anyone else”, I can just want, for myself.  To hell with you, and the rest/ I WILL win, because I changed the rules, for myself. With want, people search and find a use for “the money”/ because money represents slaves. And slaves must do, what you tell them to do, is that not right?  Well if not, then you can punish them/ and if they continue without your consent, then you can judge them worthless.  Thereby opening the door, to whatever decision you might choose for “the garbage”; HELL, I can do anything, cause you ain’t worth a damn, or a dime.  Many decisions are made in human society based upon this simple judgment/ many lives are tragically influenced or broken; because want showed you how not to care.
The question then becomes, WHY do some people care, some love/ and some hate instead, seeking revenge, violence, and chaos for others through fear?
The answer exhibits the singular trait of what you believe the value of your life is!  Those who care, believe in the foundation formed from the living day to day that teaches “with work, hope, a healthy body, and life”, I will be happy; therefore I care about all these things, recognizing that life itself participates with me.  Those who love believe deeper, into the reaches of time and space; that identify a creator, and specify the relationships we share as miracles of life/ thereby grateful for the experience.  Thereby sharing the expression of that honor, with a relationship that forms distinctly on the path beyond ourselves.  Those who choose hate, believe themselves to be gods and are proud of that fact; it is only when “the others” prove them wrong, or life does/ that violence in all its aspects appear for the purpose of “becoming god” again; at least, “over you”. 

The functional relationships of male and female, are exhibits within the dimension of love, the experience of caring, or the expression of hate (hidden, until released/ because that, is what predators do).  A dimension is in opposition of the standard existence known to all.  Thereby dimension means, that I have become acquainted with a world, that the majority cannot and do not understand.  Dimension exhibits love by proving “these two” are different than the majority/ they are truly happy.  Whereas caring learns to share the experience of common life, by becoming concerned with the well being of each other and anticipating through hope, that happiness will come, or there is a comfort in knowing you, a security that gives me belief in a world I can live without loneliness.  Those who choose hate, do experience a world that others do not, yet it is still a common world, based entirely on the familiar aspects: YOU didn’t accept me as god.  We are all acquainted with these, because they are as common as grass.  Even so, many repent over time and become “human again”. Some simply continue to descend into the abyss of “pathetic, a true disgrace/ and a disease to others”.

The question that is sex, is more literal than people are willing to communicate; because with sex, comes all the complications attributed to opening the door between you and me/ plus the possibilities of pregnancy, disease, being used or abused, and more.  Even so, the reality of sex begins as a relationship with your own personal body; feels good, therefore I want to do it.  It expands within the mind to encounter the various body differences that exist, to multiply and express different than me, yet not entirely.  This means in simple mental terms, that the opposite sex holds “some information, or participation” that I do not own for myself.  Therefore to adhere and experiment with that body, “enlightens or amuses” my own experience as life. The question that is sex continues in the opportunity to choose: either for physical experience and the chemicals, a mental game/ OR for those who believe loneliness is a predecessor of death, the quest for a relationship that is not death, but life forms the basis of a need.  So then now we have both body and mind as one participant, and need created by loneliness as another.  The question of need is represented by the variation in human behavior that comes with a reduction in the “value of I”/ thereby if I am not sufficient within myself, then surely this one who represents a part of humanity that I do not own within myself; shall surely make me whole.  And indeed it can to a large extent.  So then we come upon the situation whereby two people, are influenced by the need of one or both/ each asking desperately: PLEASE, make me whole.  And there are consequences no matter which way you choose to participate in this life.  Those consequences are deliberately chosen, because even though you are potentially “encouraged to change”/ it is still your decision.  Change means: YOU are not the one for me/ because I need you to be different!  That simple scenario understands: even when love is alive in you both, it is not enough to simply want, the question of love is, can live the life I have chosen?  Love says yes/ but reality many times, says  no.  Therefrom now the quandary is: HOW do we discover our relationship without destroying ourselves?  The answer is, stop trying to be something you are not/ and let reality decide for itself.  There is nothing you can do, if truth moves you in different directions/ if reality conceives of a different path.  Just how it is!
True love is another different experience separate and apart from all other experience.  True love has its answer, because balance is obvious and real.    The relationship is whole, from

the beginning, not simply because we complete each other, but more correctly, we are made for each other; an effect established in the truth, that   GOD has intervened to give us this opportunity in joy.  Joy is a special reality, a time and place inside where we know, understand, and experience what is beyond ourselves, and yet is ourselves released from the endless rhetoric and demands of humanity, to be free in purity and life itself.  There is no greater treasure in the universe than life, yet it takes freedom to recognize this truth, it takes respect to acknowledge happiness inside, because there is no fear.  Love is then the essence and element of what it means to know joy, and give yourself to life, in the freedom of time chosen for life itself. Love only lives, where two or more exist/ time only chooses the experience of romance, when man and woman become as one.
The relationship we choose within the participation of sex is a variation of the purpose distinguished by: either for myself/ for the life and need of another/ or for love, its relationship with romance, and the blessing of time shared that no one else can touch.  The reality of mediation is in its essence a balance between all active parties; giving to none the possibility of superiority, and to all the potential of a life known to be fair, because it is shared honestly and with a purpose that brings justice home.

So then, it is fair and necessary to accomplish what is balance between the sexes/ so that both sides can understand why, the consequence and blessing is both important and necessary.  To understand, requires an acceptance that sexuality is NOT a game/ NOT a possession for any other/ NOT an act owed/ NOT A function of physical “performance”/ NOT A DEBT created, a bill owed/ NOT your ticket to marriage/ NOT free.  And much more, as want pretends to know, “I can”.  Instead love demands that want shall not exist, rather respect shall inhabit the relationship first/ or it is simply lust, or a plan to gain an advantage over someone else, in some other way.  Balance states, apart from need; which is the intentional acceptance that sexuality can heal many of the problems associated with loneliness in human beings/ it provides touch; it proves a limited acceptance; if hate does not participate, then caring and sharing are in evidence “for you”; it gives you time, in the presence of another human being, that is intimately connected to your life; it modulates mind and memory to ignore and distillate simple troubles, so that they no long “gang up on you”: and so on.   BUT need is an emblem of those who are willing to lie, use, and abuse as well.  They gain trust, with an acceptance called understanding “love, would never use or abuse me”, and so on.  What you are willing to believe, can easily be used against you; therefore understand that in all cases of need, the primary relationship is truth, because without truth there is no need.  Lies make their own need, but can never be healed, because without truth, no solution can exist.  Remember that, and accept “a liar, cannot be helped”.  Remember as well, what is true, is not necessarily a need, and what is true is always a distinct decision that you will make for yourself; do not be led, accept this is your decision/ as are all consequences that go with it. 

The religious make sexuality “the holy grail” of human behavior/ it is not.    Sex between man and woman, is a personal journey into the basic truth of what each will bring past the act, and into your life.  That means, even if you lie to yourself, the truth will come out.  This is a participation in balance, and the reality will confront you, as either for love or lust, or a game.  The myriad games of sexuality between men and women have one primary purpose; each wishes to have sex, without penalty or loss of freedom: otherwise, it would not be a game. The purpose of sex without the basic understanding, (this is not possible because there are consequences) of participating in caring or sharing with another human being: IS, “I WANT”.  Therein want is the primary driver, and the relationship that intervenes between you, and the person you intend to use, or abuse.  Want is always an enemy, because want is the presence of selfishness, hidden “between the sheets” of an active game,  whereby one says I am owed/ and the other says, I have bought/ won/ or taken advantage:   WITHOUT any complications of another human being.  “Like a toy, or a slave, or a trophy, etc”.  Want, like pride is a purpose that intends to belittle every other living thing/ so that selfishness can pretend it is not “a liar”.  Every selfish act, is a decision NOT TO CARE!  Thereby every selfish act assembles with it, the need to judge another person or living thing or resource as less than you/ or worthless, so that no complication with justice can exist.  Justice is the meaning we give to our own lives, the relationship we exhibit and demand as best as possible from our existence here in time.  Justice means:  I have done my best, even if it is not perfect/ and I need to believe that you are doing your best too, so that our lives may be equal, and I may hope for happiness, peace, and harmony.  These are the things life testifies too, as trust.  So then apart from want, pride, and selfishness/ in an entirely different parameter and framework of living, is the essence of trust, and our ability to perceive and work, live, express, and experience that trust through its relationship to ourselves.  If we do not trust ourselves, we cannot trust another/ instead if you believe and trust another without truth; then you become “a fan, or a religious zealot, or insane in one form or another”.  Because this, “is not real”.  Consequently trust is an elemental form of personal discovery, and one that does not exist without personal truth.  Personal truth begins with your acceptance, that every decision you will make requires some aspect of work, risk, reality, hope, courage, and belief on your part.  In other words personal truth is not free, you must participate and accept the consequences of what you do/ NOT LIE to yourself or others.  Thereby if you accept what is true matters, and you search for knowledge that there may be cause to trust your own judgment in time; then the path to greater truths than yourself will arise.  Expansion beyond the gates of “I am”/ into the greater dimensions of life is; requires risk, courage, and a great deal more than most are willing or can do. All can/ few pay the price, or prepare correctly to take the journey.  But this is about sexuality and the various participation’s that co-exist, to make that sexuality a consequence, rather than an experience beyond ourselves, as the essence of life in us together as one. 

I KNOW, that nearly all “want rules”/ simple instructions of yes or no;   so that you don’t have to participate in thought, but can simply apply what you are told, and gain superiority: “I KNOW”.  But that is not reality, or life in truth.  Truth requires you to participate in every decision that you will make, because every decision has a consequence even if you don’t see it, or understand it, or believe it: every decision does have a consequence.  Therefore if you will be functionally prepared for life and society, YOU MUST, know why.  As such the lessons continue, as best I can; with the intent that you should learn some basic parameters of what is real, useful, or acceptable to know.  Rules, are for religions/ and this is not a religion; it is a demand to think for yourself, and take responsibility for those actions;   GRANTING forgiveness to others, just as mercy is granted to you as well.  Because we all must learn/ we all make mistakes/ we all fail from time to time/ and time is specifically granted, so that we can learn a better way within ourselves.   Eternity is not for slaves, or rules/ love demands freedom, but respect demands discipline and truth.                  
Returning to more simple things

the most simple human relationship is, a man and woman who discover they both want sex, and accept each other for that sexuality.  This translates to a “well-being”, as both get exactly what they want; it even then assembles the most primitive form of trust available “he or she gives me what I want”; and many times it ends in marriage/ and then divorce, because wanting sex is not enough, when “you get enough, and reality takes over as someone wants more/ or less”.   Even so, a large percentage of male to female relationships form on this simple concept; those who are “pretty enough” go on to find more sexual partners, and do it all over again. Eventually “comfort, pleasant enough, and give me the other things I desire” take over, and many will find a companion to finish out their lives with, although it will never be true love, because that; “was never the purpose”.  This is primarily about, getting through life with limited boredom; thereby the game is necessary.  Fail to play the game honestly, and the only purpose left is lust, rape, or abuse. Even so, when the “game” gets boring to one or both, reality changes , the result being a desire for more. More is, an increase in sexual partners, sexual descriptions, sexual parameters, sexual jealousy (he or she as more), sexual tension (I don’t have enough), and the assumption “I can do or take anything I want, because you owe me this much in debt for what I have done.

The second level of human behavior in sexual context is the creation of a desire for relationship between man and woman that is more than just sex.  Commonly this will lead to sex, as the method most popular for “retaining possession” of the other person long enough to decide if a relationship is indeed what you desire for yourself: not sex for them, sex for time, for you.  Rarely does this come without cost, because it is a participation “with the first level of care (I could, if I wanted too)”.  Care produces feelings that are subject to consequences, therefore although the sex was about paying for time, the reality is now;   even with love, the balance of our relationship is not destined for a lifetime, and someone will be disappointed if love has been found.  Love is the blessing, of living without time/ simply because time does not matter “when I am with you”.  Or more simply, love allows that all life will be ok, because you are worth every experience and expression that must be defeated or defended against.  Time, therefore life, is not free.  Love however makes that life in this expression or experience of time worth every cost.  So then, if love is lost in terms of “not for a lifetime”, even though it is love for real;   there will be tears.  It just has to be, life is too important for it not to be.  The consequence is: I wanted/ but you failed me! And this is, “the first excuse” in the potential for hate.  Hate is not free, it requires abandoning all that was good, all that was a blessing to life/ to turn that into something else, and demand revenge. Revenge comes in stages, allowing for verbal abuse, and growing through various lies until the question becomes: should you not die for this?  Those who fail to come within honesty, and allow that MY LIFE, is not tied to the essence of your life;  thereby “moving on”/ do find hate. What you do with it, proves the truth of who you are choosing to become.  Love is a direction called life/ hate is a direction called death:   it’s a choice.

The third basic ingredient in human behaviors regarding sex is the advent of need, in one or both man or woman.  That need can be simple or complex.  It can be about your relationship or another.  It exists as need, because “I cannot let it go/ this took too much from me”;   and I must earn the respect back that became the relationship called need.  Respect is the basis of life in discipline.  Without discipline, there will be episodes of tragedy; usually played out upon the life of another.  Without respect: accepting this one, has a right, a life, and is in possession of an opportunity to influence me.  The reality of our relationship cannot grow.  With respect, expressed in both honor and honesty, the possibilities of that influence becomes either for love or hate.  So then where love is expressed, it both can and will grow in the presence of the other/ and life will be blessed.  But where hate exists, either you must walk away refusing the loss of discipline that hate demands; or your own life shall begin to fail.  The unfortunate part about love is, that it is free, UNTIL you must be separated from it.  The unfortunate part about life in time is, we will all be separated from our love, and those who love us.  Therefore the question is: HOW do we prepare for separation, because if no other; death will provide.  The elemental essence of abandonment is: that I feel alone, that I know I am alone, that life is a relationship built upon the happiness created by others in the freedom of that expression, and that the value of my existence is built upon this other life or lives.  The extent to which an environment has been built either containing you/ containing the other/ or excluding the world; determines how harshly the feelings of loneliness shall invade. Sexuality can heal, because it makes the body remember, “I am alive/ by adding a layer of chemicals, it is touch and acceptance; otherwise unknown by the mind.” The method used to decide if respect and love itself will separate, is determined by the truth: did you, or did you not find this love worth the price of its loss?  Or more simply: love is not a possession/ it is strictly a gift.  Therefore because you cannot possess it, you truly have no right to believe that you can.  Within this reality, the foundation of time in the experience of life began.  Or more easily distinguished as complex is: “just because you were given the right to exist in time, does not mean you own it for yourself.”  Here we see the elemental creation of both time and life in love: “that I, have rights too”, not just you.  In reverse however, that illuminates the response: I too, have rights that should then belong to me/ not just you either.  And here, in the essence of a relationship that cannot exist eternally without truth: the reality of a choice is discovered in the essence of who we choose to be within the truth called “I/ YOU”.  Building an identity is essential to survival in love/ because without that identity, it is impossible to believe in eternity.  Love in time can go on, simply by allowing someone else the opportunity to enter within the environment of your heart: I have found value in you!  Going past the element of time into the creation of spirit requires a purity of truth that cannot be discovered or created unless there is an identity, an individuality that becomes truth itself.  Therefore although love has many blessings in time, the creation of value in the essence of life itself: is a love sufficiently sustained in truth, that it builds a life beyond “moments”; a relationship beyond time with life itself; so that eternity can be found.  Here, love is the environment, rather than the blessing. Sexuality in truth, by love;  builds a bridge,  completing the framework of what human life is intended to be . NOT because of the sex, but because of the intimacy that opens doors tightly closed until the day one other person of the opposite sex finds the lock, or key.

The fourth dimension of human experience, is our relationship with happiness.  It is fundamental to explain, that only “I”/ can make me happy, not because it is a function of individuality, but because it is a decision that you must make to encourage and define what it is that becomes happiness in you. there is an elemental essence to happiness, it is the boundary you design, BEFORE allowing yourself to be happy.  I for my part am too wary, of the constant traps that human beings provide/ which makes it difficult to find the trust necessary to express a freedom earned with life.  The search for happiness is then a participation within your environment; a relationship governed within yourself that decides if you can be free in this moment of time.  Freedom translates into happiness where trust is identified as real.  The lack of trust, removes the possibilities of happiness, because it is the revelation of what lives inside. Children are commonly happy, because they do trust and are free, “if family, lucky”.  I am personally experience dramatic change in the question of gender individuality/ NOT, a participation in perversion, but a matter of opening the door to female spirituality (it is a participation in Revelation 12).  Regardless of the simple things/ this has become an honesty that I have lost control over male gender, and the spirit of women that lives with me has more power and purity than I.  Or more simply she can do, whatever she wants with me; it is not my choice anymore.  However a new wrinkle appears, and that is I still do control my own happiness/ and that means, it is still necessary that she considers “my feelings”, rather than simply doing whatever she desires.  This brings with it, the question of what is happiness to me/ what is the method or distinction of my life that gives me hope in a future beyond the expressions of what I cannot control, to explain the experience I can, as valued by me?  This begins in retrospect, by asking what was it that made me happy as male?  The answer is, “more valued than anything else”, was the truth that I needed to participate in keeping life on this earth alive.  Simple as that, therefore everything assigned or associated with that decision, was a journey created for the purpose of happiness or hope in this particular thing.  Thereby primary happiness (the measure we give ourselves, for a life valued within and without) begins with the decision that I WILL or I DO desire one particular thing more than any other reality in this time.  Desire means: I will do more than believe, I will accept this as a foundation for my life.  There are many other miracles of happiness to be found, many other moments apart from one single thing/ but the basis of life is, that I have found one single destiny, more precious to me, than any other; and do seek its relationship as my world.  So then the question is asked of my reality, with female existence (even though it seems so obvious all that I lack): is my life the same?  Because gender is an issue of body, rather than of life.  It is an essence of mental pathways and translation of facts, that do separate us as male or female, that we can and do create for each other “the missing pieces”.  But the question to me is:   what will provide happiness, in this strange mixture of “male and female together as one”?  The answer is, nothing about life itself, the understanding happiness is built upon the decisions, the purpose,  the desire, the journey, and the destiny; NOT upon gender.  Therefore nothing has in fact changed, in that portion of life.  It is however distinctly different, that male searched continually for what would become new and disciplined pathways to a better understanding.  While this experience as female no longer looks into the future in the same way, but searches for how best to establish the life that exists, and give this expression of living an order that will accomplish the value of what has been learned. Returning to the dilemma of how to be happy “as female”/ recognizes that although life itself has not changed, my ability to work with the relationships I perceive HAS dramatically changed: it is not, the same.  I am more intricately aware, that other people (specifically women) have become more important to my future, than ever before.  Male as a constant reality, was never dedicated to a need for others/ he was content in his search for life itself.  Female however seems to be growing in that direction and purpose, of a need for companionship, or a desire for the passions of a world that lives with me, rather than a world I live within.  It is a distinctly new experience.

 Beyond the fourth dimension, exists the elemental venue of spirituality, whereby elemental truths can exist within a purity found no where else/ because this is the environment of nothing but truth, where trust is an essence separated by the purity of your own identity.  If you bring lies/ they will surface, and seek to destroy you.  If you bring only truth, then doors will open, and life express an alternate relationship that does not depend upon time.  It is NOT a simple thing, to clean yourself to a level of purity that does not make you an enemy; lies & liars are not tolerated; and you can literally die as a result. 
In the simple search for balance, the elemental task is to learn understanding of each other so that none gains an advantage over the other.  In the case of men and boys, a penis is a toy; it simply “turns on one day, as a boy; and until you learn that there are consequences that hurt or harm you or others, it remains a toy”.  Some take decades to learn/ others return to letting it be a toy, so as not to take any responsibility for their actions; all find the chemicals involved a blessing until proven “this took me, to the wrong place/ and I must control it;  NOT a game or a toy”.  At this point, you begin the journey to man. So then what women and girls need to know about this part of being male is:   even if they pursue you, it is not for anything more than a game/ unless sex is not their purpose; and they will abandon you, because these “still play with toys”. 

As men grow, in the consequence and understanding of responsibilities, caring, and sharing; it is functionally important to recognize sex to men is not more than a simple momentary experience: the “memories do not last, because sex as a physical act is about a penis, and little more”.  Therefore no matter what women and girls think about providing sex “where and when it cannot be forgotten”; they are wrong, because simple sex is forgotten in men.  Can’t buy a man with memories of sex, he doesn’t care.  The actual act of physical sex is limited to “their own penis”/ the functional reality of a “rodeo”, establishes that. These cannot be trusted, because they have no foundation of respect for women, or themselves; they have only achieved the “level of a teenager: being capable of love and commitment, hope and honor/ but unwilling.”
As men turn into men accepting the responsibilities and realities of sexual actions; the honesty and honor of their disciplined ways begins to show that they can in fact be trusted to care about you/ share with you the essence of their lives for the purpose of love, hope, need, or happiness.  This is the blessing of being male, an opportunity to make a difference that matters in the life of woman.  The penis becomes a tool, and its purpose is to honor both man and woman with an experience, that expresses life is a blessing for us both. Here, everything apart from the physical act itself is about the expansion of love, the hope creating purposes beyond ourselves be a desire from the heart that knows, “I value you, and you are a blessing to me”.  These are trustworthy and true/ but it comes with a price: that women want these men, and they are “willing to pay/ and VERY distressed if they fail to get what they want or desire”.  Life must be free, to be truly happy/ love can never be bought, it is strictly a gift from the heart or soul. So then every aspect of “trying to purchase a man” backfires, so to speak; because only love, trust, truth, hope, and happiness hold the keys.

These are the three basic ingredients of male existence/ and until spirituality changes them, it remains the essence of men.  However, reality allows that spirit (an existence in truth) can be found.  Spirit is “a disciplined direction”/ which can go in the direction that your own truth will go.  Or more simply, if you search for love in truth and with complete honesty/ then you will find the path and direction required to sustain that journey. If however you search for hate, and all the parameters of violence that exist upon this road to destruction, you will surely find that as well.  Everything in the middle is found in the three assertions above.  What is not found in those realities are the greater distances either in love or hate that men will go, because it is their wish to expand in love/ or contract in hate, blaming all, using all, abusing or playing god with any that they can.
The functional examples of those who hate are simply: LIAR, NO RESPECT, continual games, promises without substance, abuse, revenge, temper, flattery designed to lead you into a trap, the intent to control with money/ drugs/ or sex.  A lack of compassion or purpose other than revenge or any useful or happy relationship.
Those who love, expanding in that hope through the purposes of happiness; are able to honestly present the evidence that is trustworthy and kind, without games or intent.  They simply live the life they have deliberately chosen for the desire, “I have seen the miracles of GOD, and we are one, in that creation/ let us be glad, let us be honored, let us know respect for each other so that no one can doubt; we are children of our GOD!”  While this sounds religious, it is not.  Rather it is true acceptance not only of belief in GOD, but the reality of that truth in the essence that is our lives here on earth.  Religion is about the rules to establish discipline, or power.  Belief in truth, is about trust in the essence of miracles, the hope created by our relationship with the love apparent in all that life already is; or could be, if those who hate did not live here too.      

These then are the four basic relationships or categories, that men belong to/ as men.  When men join women as for sex, there are four basic categories as well: as boys, when the penis becomes known, the entire purpose is to say, “I found a girl”/ and they need not much more.  If they are willing to be happy with female, then they truly desire you because you are female, rather than you are sexual.  If they do not desire you honestly, and need not sex to make that relationship work/ then they have no respect for you at all, and simply intent to use, or abuse.  It is the truth.
Where all sexual activity is about “the rodeo”/ then everything is related to what the penis feels;   it is not an emotion, it is a chemical pump and when pumped sufficiently it will go off, thereby ending all desire.  “Used you/ thank you very much, goodbye; or lets do this again”.  These do not recognize anything but the chemicals, and they do not know you as woman, and they are not interested in you as friend.  Because it is the chemicals and trophy they do desire.  You can keep them around with sex/ but you will never experience love with them until they do in fact “grow up”.  Some do eventually/ most do not; because they are still a child inside. What women need to know about the chemicals is simply this: when men fight for the chemical release, they choose to live for the experience of the chemicals themselves; you are not really involved/ therefore lust.  The ride is simply, how do I make this last for me; how do I prove “I am the man, because I stayed on the longest”!  Therefore beyond a few seconds is “trophy time”/ and those who live in this range commonly talk to other men so as to brag, while using you as their tool.

 When men are found (not a description of style, money, looks, or even teeth so to speak), the reality is not as a rodeo/ because the penis can easily become an extension of the man himself.  Thereby becoming the grace and acceptance of what we are together as one.  Here instead of a rodeo, the chemicals are not particularly important, and it is easily ignored or desired or whatever is essential for the moments to be shared.  Caring exists where life is the meaning and purpose of our time together.  Life first, begins our journey together.  Both yours and mine.
Where spiritual love exists, everything changes into its own relationship with the privilege of sharing existence in   GODS’  TEMPLE; the place created, where men know that not only did  GOD love them and give them the blessing of body/ but created female as well, granting to life more, than simply living: the essence of what love can be, as it touches both heart and soul in each one.  This is, where joy can be found, a place beyond happiness or hope.

There are questions in the heart of woman; regarding man.
What is his purpose for sex?  What is the key to his heart?  When can I know, this man is honestly and honorably for me?  What will be our lives together?  Why does he want or desire me?  When can I be sure? What will become of our sexuality? Why does love exist? And can I know, the full extent of my life, my body, and my hope by choosing this one man, or woman?

Beyond the games or definitions of sexual behavior or desire/ comes the reality of sex as a participant in life, a demand from female, rather than a gift or a game.  Therefore regardless of the four categories of sexual intimacy, the reality of sex as a habitat is the same for each: either the purpose is for you, or for me ( neither is wrong, as a gift between lovers and friends).  Even boys believe this is true.  The foundation of different levels of desire for sex, between two lovers or friends; is a fundamental distinguished by the level of safety, the honorable respect of sharing the experience rather than using the experience, the discovery of freedom, and the hope of recognizing all that we can be together as one.  Even so, there are limits within us all, and it is unkind not to recognize that although I love you, or you me;   today is not the day, nor perhaps this week or even month.  But if it is more than one month as a rare occasion, something is wrong with your relationship.  One if not both, are either too tired from work or stress.  One if not both are frustrated with the other, because “its all about you, and not me”.  One if not both are choosing not to be open spiritually (in the sense, our truth between us, has failed: I cannot talk to you/ you cannot talk to me; neither listens anymore); this is more than a mental or physical problem.  This exists in the tragedy of, I respect you no more;  because respect remembers your lover or friend.  Respect understands if your just plain tired, or stressed or sick or feeling sad, because respect includes; believing the best I can do for you at this moment, is to leave you alone.   The basic reflection of life in time remembers: if I had been doing that, I WOULD appreciate being helped, being remembered for the effort or sacrifice as it benefitted you as well, or I would simply do for you, if I realized “this is or was important”.  Because sometimes friends and lovers simply don’t know, sometimes subtle hints are just plain NOT enough.  Like getting a present, as you grow older, we recognize its better if we pick it out ourselves/ the same is true with relationships; simply ask “you want a surprise, or not”?  Put a little thought into it if not, because these are questions of “have you been listening to me/ do you understand, care, or share”! As to cleanliness and all the rest, these are just little things, unless you are very tired;   be kind, but be firm and as repetitive as necessary, where it does matter.  When that is not enough for both to be happy, make a compromise, so that neither sacrifices but share a decision. 

It is of use to understand, all men believe that sex is an equal exercise in freedom/ a choice both make for the purpose of sex, therefore “paid in full”/ if the objective is accomplished.  Or in the matter of trying to buy, flatter, steal, or other;  sex from women, as men do; they then believe “I paid/ unless it was stolen, as in rape or any other version of I took what I wanted by subversion or deception or outright violence.  These have called women worthless, because that is the decision that must be made to participate in this action. For those who have not fully graduated into hate, instead of worthless, they simply ignore the fact you are a human being, and use you for a toy or tool.  There MUST be respect, or there is not an acceptance of the value of your life as a human being/ only the value of your body, for their purpose.  The tragedy of this day and age is, that with so much divorce, “the prettier women, keep coming back into the dating pool”/ thereby increasing the competition for all those who have less to offer in terms of looks. They then give up/ just like the men who are told too often, “to just go away”; making them believe NONE want me.  Very many people are trodden into “the dating ground/ walked on, because in the case of women not pretty enough, or men not successful or pretty enough; and these seem unable to find each other, often”.  Many simply give up, because they become tired of being “not good enough”.  In the case of men that are overlooked, it can be as simple as providing sex, to make them believe “you are the right woman for them”.  Because you chose them, and that as a fact is a “powerful incentive” to believe happiness exists in you.  In the case of women that are overlooked, respect and honesty will gain the chance for more, because loneliness is a powerful tool.  There are many beautiful women, who fail to recognize that quality about themselves; men leave them alone because they commonly go “in a crowd”/ making it impossible for most men to approach, “been rejected by too many women to believe any acceptance can come from a crowd”.  It is a fact, that most women need to learn and recognize; that if you quash men with words or deeds or simple statements on your clothes, it is a decision to eliminate them from the dating pool, and even if you don’t want them, someone else does.  Some just retreat, never to try, or never to try again/ some women are the same.  Always give the one you don’t want, to another woman who might believe there is happiness here.  It is shameful, but there are many men who need to grow up/ who fail to recognize sex is not a toy.  It is a job, but sometimes it is worth the price; just make sure you are willing to pay.
There are foundation decisions regarding sex; the issue being, when is the body able to heal, able to establish a barrier that stops further decline in terms of depression or failure?  The answer is, when life matters more than pride, morality, or ethics. In these situations where need if fundamental to health or life itself, the question is not about sex; that is, just a tool.  Rather the essence of the question is: when is life, more valuable than all the grief humanity will provide for a decision it does not share?  The answer: the PROPER answer is LIFE is always first!  But it can never be completely ignored that humanity lives to create power, over any and all it can.  Discipline is accepted for a reason/ that reason includes, the preservation and foundations of life and happiness.

The key to every heart, is “what will this become for my own life”?  Women use this key to “shop for husbands”.  Believing that the sum of his possessions or potential is the creation of a happy life.  They are wrong, although these things do represent comfort and respect among humanity;   doesn’t matter how you get wealthy, just so long as you are.  But it is a selfish key, leaving the personal aspects of someone else’s LIFE, to be less than your own purpose or desire.  The key called love is held within the respect that is found as a blessing in our relationship as one life shared.  Those who love, know they do love, and it is an absolute fool, who abandons that love, for the sake of possession or pride.  You CAN’T buy love, and nothing else in this life compares when it is true. Love is a spiritual destiny, and it requires truth, respect, hope, courage, discipline, honor, and trust.  Consider it, before you sell your life to comfort or pride!
Men are not complex in their relationships with women. If they are NOT trying to control you with some type of trap, then they are trying to love you, with some form of participation that will decide if you can respect them in the life that they do live.  Not sales so to speak, but a request to know: can you accept me for who I am?  Can I accept you, for the things that you want? Because life is more than simple want/ life is about the things we call precious, the reality from which we build what is important in heart and mind for our time in this world; and we do need to know, if you can accept that.  Because it is important.

Desire forms from the essence of trust, the beginning of time shared in the truth of what is pure in the heart and belief of those who ask to share our life.  Desire explains, that expansion from the boundaries of self, requires the element of trust that cannot be bought for any cause or reason/ but rather exists in the relationship of who you are, who you need to be, and the life you wish to share.  These things can only be found or formed within time itself, by your own desires, by your own identity, because they ask for the truth, of who and why “you are, you”.  Desire is its own master, the question of what is enough, or why can only be answered by an individual life.  You can be certain you are enough, when trust allows you within the boundaries of life in time, unsheltered and unprotected, because YOU have proven yourself worthy of my believing: this one, will respect me with honor as I would myself.
In the essence of time and body, sexuality becomes “common” and thereby less significant than it began.  As a reality, this goes either toward the physical act itself/ whereby boredom is punctuated with games and selfishness which then detract from the relationship as a whole.  Or it goes toward the journey you create together whereby each contributes to a greater understanding in what life can be or mean, as we progress into the truth of who and what we are together as one.  Where spirituality becomes a foundation in this destiny, pursued as “the treasure of your lives as one”/ a relationship will form within the aspects of both temple and worshiper, where GOD (our Creator), is central to who we shall become. 

IF you have chosen a vasectomy, your days of sexual pleasure are over.  You have entered within the personal tragedy of your lives, that is “no chemicals/ as are produced by sperm” means no interest in continuing with sex, even though desire may actually multiply;  without the chemicals, there is no reward. It is a fact of male body, and there is nothing to bring this back.  You entered the lies/ and will suffer for it; believing in what men will tell you, instead of what GOD has given to you.  It is a special tragedy, because both male and female believe the propaganda.  And consequently have their lives raped by those who failed not only to care, but actually participated in hating “you.”   PEOPLE KNOW, but they refuse to admit:   sex has ended for me.  Instead they help you do the same/ so that you too, can know their pain.  A pitiful/ even evil  disgrace.
Within the acceptance, of a life together surrendered to purposes that cannot tolerate selfishness; the reality of both life and love surface to recognize and reflect what must be changed to ascend this discovery of ourselves within the miracles of who we are, and who we can become.  It is these changes that understand the base importance of what we believe and do accept, as our relationship with   GOD FIRST/ life second.  Because where true vulnerability provides knowledge , that knowledge provides the keys to destroy, when another life is so very close that they know exactly what makes you alive, or wish to die.  Thereby it is essential for both, that they turn to GOD first, and let HIM decide and protect their lives, “as HIS children, in this time”.  Then look to each other, because where truth has made you completely vulnerable, the essence of what man and woman can truly be together, shall be answered.  Purity of heart and soul, search here/ nothing less will do.

 The functional reality of our lives here in time is the understanding that time will limit us all/ thereby the choices we make determine what we will or will not be participating within.  The same is true of relationships between people.  Those whom you do spend your time with are translated into, the environment of your existence here in time.  Therefore, the people who you choose to live and work with, are the elements of your history.  They are the relationship, within which you will form considerable expectation, knowledge, or wisdom as they become the teachers, the listeners, the workers, or the various other influences that establish what life has been.  Consequently, when you choose a mate for life, if that person can and will live the life you have intended:   as in the same or complimentary tracts of discipline or hope.  Then you will lose little, and gain much for the life shared.  If that person cannot live the life you are destined or desire to live/ then nothing else will matter, because love alone does not make a relationship: we must also achieve our own individuality, so that we become the truth of who we are willing to be.  Thereby it is simple to understand, that the more you have in common, or the acceptance of similar goals or desire or heritage that you share/ the less time you will spend fighting for equality, and the greater time you will know in finding life itself, because the “little things” of adjusting to what the other believes or wants or expects and so on, have already been accomplished. 

It is an unfortunate reality, that I can only truly speak of what is male definition/ that is not a balanced discussion.  Recently I did experience “things” that were so intense, I literally had to check if I was still male/ because nothing of that was male.  Actually amazing, in how this body, could create things I never would have believed possible.  Even so, it was believed that some limited expressions could be designed for the sake of balance from a female perspective because of that.  However, all recognition has vanished; and I have no relationship to the knowledge accumulated in this recent past/ it has simply been removed. Although I do expect it to return, it seems the spiritual woman is not yet ready, and as such then neither am I, even a little bit.  NOT functionally unfair, because men throughout history, have not been fair as a majority to women.  Just a reality, in this time.  The reality of male in me, also comes and goes; regardless of any decision I might or choose to make.  Therefore you should know, I never know anymore what life will bring in terms of perspective or time. It is beyond my ability to control.  It was my intent to create a more intricate and complex view of men as well as a beginning to women/ but that is simply gone, as to men I no longer know. As to women, it is still beyond my grasp to maintain.  It would seem then, that this small amount of information may simply “have to do”, in terms of mediation. Although I believe it will still be possible to help in terms of specific ideas and things of law where balance is an aspect that cannot be understood without a retention of at least some basic reality and truth as applied for both sides.  Only time knows what I can offer you/ I do not, life keeps changing in me. Not life itself, which is constant as it has always been: the essence and values belonging to hope and elemental belief, the desire for foundations expressed by peace and harmony in respect for life and living.  But the more fragile reference to body and mind as gender issues create compositions NEVER even considered or deemed possible; not imagined, or conceived of in any potential way. 
I do respect the change in me, I do wonder why.

  In this the translation of what is needed for balance in humanity; reality in this instance may be, NOT an analytical study developing a knowledge base from whence a journey to understanding may arise.  But perhaps balance in human experience must be more dedicated to the rise in apathy that has led to the long list of tragedy and threat in this day.  Apathy is the decision, that I don’t care about nothing but me /to hell with you.   Consequently, the description most want is not understanding, but a way to manipulate the others to achieve your own objective and goal: me first.  Balance here would indicate how each manipulates the other, so that the game is known to all, and the methods then become more subtle as time and talent prove, “not today, you won’t”.  Here again, the reality is: that some will learn/ others will not; some will increase their ability to manipulate and deceive; while others will use such information to control and increase power over the rest.  And we end with, this has not helped a single soul; because all aspects of manipulation are conceived of without peace or harmony in mind.  Thereby transferring society from the essence and elemental grace of believing in peace, working and pursuing harmony through the blessing of friendship; and giving human life to the expressions and experience of a trap.  As we see throughout this america in this day.  I DO NOT find this acceptable, and refuse to participate.  Or more simply; if you wish a better world, then you must do the work and apply it with respect to building foundations that give us a better life.

Balance is then, like every other decision; a destiny created by the truth of what you believe has value or not.  The search for value expands “the length and breath of our world as life inside the soul”.  The desire for truth and the acceptance of our relationship to the critical mass of what is possible, and what is not possible; simply because that is “just the way it is”;   recognizes that our experience is built upon the gift of balance beyond our own reach or expression of life.  What is over looked by nearly all, is the function and foundation of so very many things we take for granted.  Not only as sight and sound, touch and smell, EVERYTHING/ but also the less visible senses that go with them.  Such as, what if everything you tasted was so horrible you refused to eat/ thereby dying from a lack of food.  Or what if no ability to gauge or control a touch existed/ so that nothing could be held, or everything gripped was injured; intended or not.  What if, sight was like an hallucinogen; making everything “without order or boundaries”.  What if every sound hurt you exceedingly; or sickness was all you ever knew.  Because each of these things are even more possible, than the miracles we share as body, mind, and life.  The essence of our destiny as human life on earth is determined by the value we have placed upon the things which grant us our survival.  As the listing of threats, on this site www.justtalking3.info declares.  Humanity has turned away from every participant of life, love, hope, truth, peace, respect, discipline, courage, and honor:    To follow the road so every easy called fool; “let the money decide/ let us be rich/ let us take it all, for free, and NEVER give a damned thing back”.  Because to date, you have chosen to die/ and take this world with you.  As we look at america in particular today, there is no balance/ there is not discipline or courage/ there is no foundation for love or peace or happiness, because respect is severely lacking/ and leadership is build upon the base called LIES, and the wishes called fantasy.  Allowing for the expertise of delusion, and the complete failure called “we WANT, to play god”.  Shame on you. shame on this world as well, because they play the same game. Shame on religion too, because by wiping away their own delusions, we do; find the same games of power, pride, and greed.  With only slight variations in the word “fool”.   You can and will believe whatever you wish.  You can and will walk away and hide, don’t want to hear about failure:   MAKE ME RICH, damn you!    But you will never escape truth for long, it will always win the game/ because it is your reality, and what is real lives or dies, based upon its truth.  It’s a choice.  Find your heart, search for your soul, or simply die in all these decisions to lie, cheat, steal, and play god over life and reality.  Time is running out.  This is no game, anymore; because the damage has nearly risen to past the point of no return.  After that, nothing matters.  All life will die/ no matter what you do, or fail to do. It is the end of choices/ thereby the reality of men who did play god, and won.   You are abandoned, and death will surround you forever.   Not a game.  What you want is absolutely irrelevant/ only truth will decide.        

As time goes by, I do see in this example of balance the simple truth; that what is male in me continues to lurk in the anger of what has become so many threats, the complete lack of respect;   against all life on earth.  It is UNFAIR, that we should all be threatened with our lives and our world, by so much greed, arrogance, apathy, and just plain hate.  While what is “female in me” has achieved much over the last four years, it is clear what is male in me continues to survive, because duty itself cannot be dishonored by running away.  Consequently it seems likely, until the day comes, when it is clear LIFE is respected by a humanity that cares enough to “go to court” and believe this fight for the future of planet earth is worth doing;   male simply remains potentially as a last resort, I guess.  I honestly don’t know/ what I do know is every option for making a statement sufficient enough to be heard “with energy” is over/ I do know, that violence itself shall not be done.  Therefore it makes no real sense to me, that male should survive.  What is female has produced the opportunity to be heard with words, by returning me to hope, to the understanding of faith in GOD where trust extends to the knowledge “this world shall not die/ until GOD allows it to be so”.  But that does not mean, we need not work as best we can/ and so I do, because words are more powerful than weapons.  Love is more powerful than hate.  Life is more powerful than death.  And truth conceives of everything we need to remain alive and rebuild a life for us all.  What is female in me, returned me to peace.  What is the potential for “new and different” as in true female leadership rather than men, or the women taught by men;   gives me hope for a different world, for life.  What is necessary, is simply necessary; want is irrelevant.  These things are not hard to understand/ but your pride stands in the way.  The function of every education is: to stand in the day of graduation (I know), with a foundation capable to do the work that I need/ we need;   with honesty and truth!  Anything less, is a lie/ everything less is a fantasy or a delusion.  I do seek to give you an education as necessary for the sake of life on earth.  On the day you graduate, you have learned:   LIFE MUST BE FIRST!

As I consider the content of this page, it occurs to me: “that I never lurk (to hide, in plots and plans and brooding and the failure to confront real issues in life)”.  Consequently, the term brings with it a need “to turn on the lights” and see what exists in these shadows.  Here, I find the very last remnant of male gone now, because shadows do not exist in the light.  When any truth is “shifted from its own position”/ it leaves the evidence of its existence by the effects of time. It means the last of my life as male seems to have disappeared; anger over such disrespect an entire world is threatened, being the final description of that life.  I NEED now, to build another; one that does not include “protecting or defending life by confrontation or expectations in strength”.  It is really, such a dramatic change in me, I simply cannot comprehend it.  A reality provided, not for your amusement/ merely “the ending of a story”.
I pray for you/ pray for me as well.