Of disciplines and desires

One of the most tragic realities of human existence; are the people who through some type of reasoning have accepted “I, am a loser/ compared with those”.  While this is unjustified for the most part, because the most important part of life, is life.  Therefore equal, in all that truly matters.  Yet even so, the consequence of games, is that one group calls and considers itself winner/ and thereby infects the other groups with the disease called loser, or “right of hate/revenge”.  What is even more tragic, is the so-called losers band together to call others, “loser/ so they can be winner, here”.  And on it goes, creating the classes of arrogant humanity who believe they are justified to claims to be superior.  Did you not do so, too?  Yes, you probably did/ therefore justified and right in claiming “these are less”; because all do it, making the very bottom tier of people who are just as equal in life as you; sad, and even suicidal at times, or pushed to hate/ crime/ and associated problems. It is simply a disgrace.
Of the religious, some work and conceive of life as “children of   GOD”, thereby willing to work for the common good, and happy/ until the day comes, that reality proves “it was in fact” a decision to help the poor, at a price that would be paid with your own life.  That truth, generally ends the decision that life comes before self.  The need to take care of your own life first, a fundamental that cannot be ignored.  But the reality of truth that finds destruction so extreme, so visceral that it not only invades the truth of our lives with threats of extermination/ CANNOT be left to selfishness.  In this day, we all need to work for life, every single one/ through the law.

The foundation of life, includes all the insects, all the creatures that functionally pollinate and provide our world/ the plants, every creature has a purpose, every plant a place to exist in the harmony called life.  People on the other hand, directly choose to kill with “trillions of pounds of poison” anything, that might or might not slightly irritate them for a second.  Killing everything in their path, with materials today that are just like the poisons of the past, that not only killed the predator, but every link in the chain of life that was connected with that predator.  With a constant “I DON’T CARE”/ the world of life, gets ready to surrender; because it cannot survive the “holes created by men” when survival requires each link.  When nature mutilated suddenly “cannot fit within the keys, or locks provided for procreation”. Mutilated by changes in the chemistry of life, the identity of body or mind, the alteration of “inborn instructions”, and so on.   Yet man continues to play god, because some are convinced that soon “they will grow a man tree/   create an insect antelope/ combine a fish and a bird;  and so on”.  Because playing god is no fun, unless you can ridicule creation!  Do you not know, they are preparing to terrorize you?  Do you not know, the possibility of knowledge is NOT for your good/ but to incarcerate and penalize your freedom, so you will beg for your life?  How can you be so blind!

The endless chatter of      People who absolutely refuse to repay anything, “is the american way”/ is it not?  After all, where do you think the debt comes from, if it is not to be found in your own bank account.  Did you not as a nation say “pay later”?  But never did!  Indeed that is you.  Therefore the debt represents all that you and they did not pay/ but took for yourselves, and said:   “Let our children pay this debt, and all the rest”.  Consequently, the money you hold/ is the money you owe.  Consequently the pensions you stole, “promises you required because there was NO possibility of getting more at the time”/ are nothing more, than the evidence of absolute greed.  Instead of owed, you stole everything in sight, from those who had needs and desires too.  Greed is a violence upon society, a wicked example of those who cannot care, because they sold their own heart for selfishness and were consumed.  But we all know, “the rich have it better/ do we not”?  Reality will testify, “they do, take the best for themselves, and leave us nothing more than what every slave needs to survive”.  Consequently life and work, are easier; but not happier.  The essence of building a friendship is determined by the time granted for that journey/ the reality proven to be, “our ability to get along, our desire to be friends revealed over time”.  Going to steal their money/ they going to steal yours: no friend here!  And what did the politician and smart people decide was the answer?  Obviously, “LET THE CHILDREN PAY”.  And now, let the foreign nations pay/ fully knowing none of what is borrowed can be repaid.  1.5 trillion dollars in new debt/ pensions coming due/ entitlements expanding/ states and cities adding in/ private credit rising/ business, and all aspects of a crime multiplying inflation by thousands of percent;    And liars one and all telling the people, “its ok”/ its just a debt we can’t pay.  Or it’s a debt our children will have to pay/ but that too is a lie, they cannot, and you certainly do not deserve it, even if they tried. Add it all up, and understand; “nothing but a foundation of lies, built on the delusion that you will not pay for anything”.  While you have certainly tried, the end result of this road is literally HELL, and ARMAGEDDON.  Because that, is what the evidence will prove.  Who then is the thief: those who stole the money most/ or those who not only let them, simply could not wait to join in on the greed?  Those who stole from the world, or from americans so determined to be rich, they sold their own lives, their friends, their family,  their future, even their world?

I have news: we as the humanity of this earth, CANNOT pay any man one billion dollars a year.  We cannot pay for millions who wish to retire at 50 years for another thirty or more with as much healthcare as they can require.  We cannot pay for endless nursing home help.  We cannot afford million dollar illness.  We cannot help infants that are too sick to survive.  We cannot crucify nature and survive.  We cannot live without water, which is being sacrificed and will soon be gone.  We cannot kill an ocean without a billion people starving immediately.  We cannot live without oxygen, and fire consumes more than this earth can produce. We cannot war without an end to this earth.  We cannot do so many things, that humanity is doing/ lest we go extinct as life on earth; it is futile to write them all down.  Either you will wake up/ or the end of life will come.  It is not a hard thing to understand/ simply go to court; investigate, examine, and decide. Prove me wrong;   coward!

We cannot continue to play the game, of numbers(money) without meaning/ giving to the biggest liars, and thieves the opportunity to have everything, and turn the rest into slaves and prostitutes; until the day guns and fire consume one third of this nation.  It is coming/ and you will not contain it.  One group will exterminate another/ one color decide to wipe out another/ one religious group against another; and so on; and that is only after the, “everybody’s an enemy” battle wherein no one is safe.  Hatred and revenge are coming; the tragedy of no food, the tragedy of no water (shoved it all down a well for gas or oil/ or ethanol/ or just polluted it into death/ or an earthquake releases all the poisons you intentionally dumped “next door”.  It is a long list.  But all that is necessary to believe is:   WE CANNOT be wrong!  Therefore we must all, look for the truth of what is being done/ and use our collective wisdom to intervene where the future is truly bleak; and thereby change ourselves into something or someone that will survive with honor.  NOT by guns, we are 7 billion people on this earth growing at 2 million per week/ and violence will only bring death to all.  BY WISDOM, AND BY DIFFERENT WAYS, are the only possible path to a future that is not extinguished by selfishness, lack of caring, blind stupidity and arrogance, and the horrors of gamblers who believe our lives, an entire earth full of life, is not worth enough:  “to make them stop, destroying everything”.

You don’t get to be “another religion”/ foolishness is over.  You don’t get to listen to “little voices inside”/ pride will kill, not help!  You don’t get to disrespect/ disgrace/ disease/ destroy/ discard/ demolish/ or demand:   TRUTH LEADS, or life will end.  Truth is the essence of what keeps us alive/ the foundations upon which peace and harmony are built/ the laws that surface to bring happiness and hope; in this world that nature and GOD did build.  Take a look at the leadership of men/ all they offer is destruction and then war to “make it all better”/ by forcing the others to separate, or killing them; by stealing or whatever violence can do. They are liars; take a look at your money: did not the experts tell you repeatedly over the years, “not to worry/ we got this under control”?  Indeed they did, but what they did control is the greatest fraud in the history of this world, stealing the very life out of this nation.  If you do not stop them from finishing this war against you now; you die as a nation/ as a world.  Did not the leaders demand “we can play god”/ do they not do so now;   believing in arrogance so extreme, that nothing matters but the game they wish to play; even though the entire world is dying.  Is the game of men, NOT destroying everything we need to survive?  Indeed it is, and soon there will be no turning back, because the point of no return WILL pass by;   when the needs of humanity are so great/ that millions and then billions must die, for a world to survive.  And that will not happen peacefully!  And that will not happen fast enough to keep the chains of life together. And that will become cannibalism, because it WILL BE, either that or death for you personally.  Every destructive act, is a demand to be extinct.  You will get your wish/ unless serious and real action is taken to return this earth to life MUST come first. 

I am NOT, your leader!  That is not my job, I am a messenger given the task to explain to you:   that tragedy is coming, and this is your last chance to make a difference in the outcome of what you do;   so that you can survive.  That is all, and I have done that/ whether human communication is opened or not, so that all can make their own decision; is up to you/ not to me.  Fail to tell them, and if you know; then you are responsible for their death, in part; because EVERYONE deserves a chance, to make their own decision; in this the last days of life on earth/ unless you choose better.  NOT choose me/ CHOOSE BETTER FOR YOURSELVES!  Choose differently for a future you will survive.  Choose NOT to gamble with life anymore!  And so on.  This can only be YOUR DECISION, because you will have to live with the results.  Therefore it must be a decision you have made, or people revolt/ and that leads to death again, instead of life. Different can only be accomplished with women leading, NOT because I say so/ but because history proves this reality is designed entirely by men. This situation in history, the reality of what men did choose/ and they clearly by the evidence chose extinction, extermination of us; because they didn’t care enough to stop playing games.  Not a game if someone dies/ is war.  Therefore war is their answer when the games do fail.  The games are ALL dying, and soon to be dead: weapons of mass destruction to kill this world ten thousand times over, are just “the nuclear part”/ the biological part, will search every single hole around the entire planet. There is no escape.  That, is your future/ unless GOD   allows men to simply destroy the entire planet with their experiments;   “A lake of fire” can happen any day. The machine exists at   NIF/ and fusion is all it takes; there are even more machines attempting the same thing.  The “big bang (this planet explodes)” can happen, because contrary to the whore’s of “satan” who promise you fantasy and delusion without end.  When you separate energy from time, and create a   weapon against mass without the possibility of control:   the   structure of this planet will be lost; as in the original big bang that destroyed the structure of mass at the beginning of our time as a universe. [it is impossible, without structural weakening, that an explosion so massive and intense could have existed.  The “work” at CERN, is about structural weakening, even though they accept it not.  Can’t play god, if they don’t lie to themselves and you!]  But hey, “they’re experts, they know”, why how could they be wrong, its just an entire planet of life; and their men; WHAT could go wrong!  Or perhaps the current season of major earthquakes is simply the sign of “yellowstone volcano, ready to explode (truly massive)”/   GOD’S   method, some would say to regain control over this world.  Not for me to know!  However as to earthquakes, it is known that the pressure increase on a molten orb, such as is the center of this earth, does create movements on or around that center, as pressure deforms the object, and works itself around.  Perhaps, there is still time to defuse it, by releasing pressure from underneath/ but it is more unlikely every day.  Not a game/ not an intent to create fear; simply the facts of life by reality instead of delusion.
Alas, men couldn’t even control the money though/ that’s worrisome, when you consider money is entirely a man’s creation; and still couldn’t control it.  So instead of worrying about that, the believe “changing nature/ disrupting the balance of energy/ killing the earth in a thousand ways”, is more to their liking/ hell, don’t have to take responsibility for NOTHING!  DAMN YOU, for asking.  Well not to worry, “they’re gods”, what could go wrong/ its just EVERYTHING?  Don’t want to fight for your life?  That’s ok, GO AHEAD AND DIE!  Don’t want to fight for your children?  That’s ok, perhaps it will end in hell and armageddon instead; after all, “just think how tasty, they might be”.

Religions, are the decision to NOT accept the reality:   GOD IS ALIVE!  Instead, religions offer the discipline to “believe in little bites” so that we do not lose control.  But as is clearly the reality of human beings: those who think they believe in god, become fanatics and then start killing people or intend to make them obey their will: using god, for an excuse.  I am not against religion, you can learn in little bites/ I am against fanatics; you CANNOT make the others obey, it is their decision.  It is necessary, that YOU UNDERSTAND, and make this decision too.  A religion searches for better/ not for authority.  A religion searches inside, NOT in community.  A religion offers a future, regardless of how wrong they can be; NOT death.  But a future, not a reward.  Your reward, is to be disciplined in life; thereby useful to its preservation and happiness.  

TO BELIEVE   GOD IS ALIVE!   Requires the acceptance of life itself, as separate from body and mind.  NOT “illusionary, or delusional”, but separate in the sense that we do not know “everything”/ and we are clearly miracles, therefore without the understanding or wisdom required to survive, without    “OUR   GOD”!      IF WE, cannot survive on our own/ because we know how it is that life is in us!  Then life itself, must be separate from us.  Think, before you contend this is not so.   If life is separate from us, as a relationship to our existence, rather than an ownership by which we decide; then our own identity must arise to claim and discipline our acceptance of who we can be.  Life joins us, in this sense;   we are “the tenants” of life.  We live in the environment created for us/ or more simply in this time, we have become born.  Time is an elemental exertion of energy, not life.  Therefore the question of energy is: what is our relationship to it, as life?  The answer is, that identity requires the essence of energy to attain an independence necessary for freedom.  Freedom, is the foundation of an existence called life, or more correctly “ALIVE”.  In this simple statement, we learn the value of life is discovered in being free, thereby the value of ourselves is found in being alive in the essence of what is called energy/ that we may find within ourselves the opportunity of change as we desire it to be.  Here we see, the consequence that becomes both love or hate/ the reality that is life or death.  Because we do, have an opportunity to change ourselves into what we decide to be.  It is a right, born within freedom that cannot be resolved, except by personal decision; if it were not so, it would not be true freedom. 
For those who choose love, the gift of ourselves to another through the relationship which expands our own environment of living to another living creature/ to “the lock and key through respect, called  gender”/ to   GOD as our respect, returning our lives in worship (beyond all comprehension).  Even to ourselves, as the ability to sustain value within ourselves, becomes real; through truth, discipline, hope, courage, and love.

The question of life is not limited to relationships.  The question of love, is not limited to “forever”.  The question of truth, expands forever into the unknown of what can we be; as ourselves, or as life united under    GOD .  The elemental path of how can eternity exist, is no different than the fundamental path of how did we become life in this beginning called time. Rather than guessing, or making up stories to tell;   it is much simpler just to understand, “with kindness, we own a body and mind that treats us with respect, allowing our decision to make the difference in our lives here on earth.  With gentle expression, of body and mind we encounter romance and love, the expansion beyond selfishness that completes our existence by surrendering it to a relationship that end loneliness forever, or at least until memories collapse.  With compassion, the time and life we must work, to create our own experience with existence is NOT so dramatic, not so demanding, that there is no room for anything but slavery; more simply we are free/ yet hate will always try to enslave, its how they survive, in time/ not truth”.   Within these things it is clear, that love designed us/ respect allowed us/ and the honesty of freedom gave us time, to be whatever we would choose to be, alive or not.  It is absolutely clear, no human being has the opportunity to create themselves, or stop death from claiming their existence. Neither did we create anything else, and it is clearly nature that keeps us alive/ rather than we keeping it alive.   Or more simply, if you look to the truth of who and what we are, in this living world; it is impossible to find any other solution by the evidence than WE ARE CREATED.  Nothing else, can survive the test of evidence/ nothing else is true.  JESUS   “Suggests, that we are not abandoned/ rather   GOD   is still here”.  Not because of the power that could have been demonstrated, but the love, respect, and passion that became the evidence against what is truly hate.

The question of   JESUS   is not like the question of creation, where the evidence is everywhere!  Rather, the question of JESUS is, do you believe in this historical account/ or not?  The answer assembles from the basic truths involved: to be remembered, HE HAD to be doing something “special”!  To be hated, HE HAD to be doing something against the leadership; and the leaders of men ALWAYS choose money first.  To be loved, HE HAD to be healing the people of their strife and trouble; because nothing suggests he was giving away money, or power, or pride or anything else WANTED by men.  To be crucified for DOING GOOD,    HE HAD to be a threat, to the power, pride, and selfishness of leaders/ and if you think about killing the only person ever to be written of:   as HEALER of disease/ in a time and place where disease was essentially a death sentence.  The EXTREME fear of leaders, to kill someone that they might have considered themselves to need, if they got sick;   THE ONLY ONE who could make them better, keep them alive.   Then you begin to understand, just how much effect JESUS was having on this people, at this time.
So I believe the historical account, the religious account in its essence; and so should you.  The remaining question is: did   JESUS produce enough evidence, to prove his claim to be sent by    GOD   , for this particular purpose.  HIS claim is: to be savior of human life on earth/ for eternity.  It is not to be ruler, but savior?  What then is “a savior”?  It is one who teaches, one who “lights the way” to a better reality, one who leads through the hardship of life; to find existence “on the other side”.  HE taught love, forgiveness, courage, passion, hope, truth, respect, and the foundation that   GOD not only exists: but we can have a relationship with him, now and in eternity.

The critical elements of what is remembered by men, are written down in the bible/ and although it is a book assigned to religions;   it is still, basically understood, that religions represented the only people who were doing writing, or keeping an account of history.  Therefore in terms of men, it had to be written “religiously”.  The real question beyond what was taught for living, comes down to what does it mean to have a relationship with   GOD ?  Or, what is the expansion of our own existence to include   a relationship with   GOD?  Every expansion beyond self, includes the description of both RESPECT, AND LOVE!  In that order. Therefore the path is respect (honesty, defined by truth) for GOD, and the experience is love for   GOD.  What then is love? 
The functional answer is: that love builds a bridge between our souls, whereby we cross into the essence of life, by living within each other/ a participation found, in the decision “honor, will be my way”.   The elemental answer is: that love shares the expression of life, by answering what it means to care about me:  thereby we learn, to do the best we can.  The structural answer is: only truth can decide, by the balance of what is sustainable by life itself, the elemental closeness of what is honor and fair, for both.  When these parameters are located, the environment of love can be opened, and “the house” within which we shall live is found.
I am not, “a religious man”/ rather I believe in   GOD , and I believe in the life of    JESUS   as HE literally has made a true difference in my own life.  Belief and acceptance, is simply, “ not more complicated than that”.  Stated here to assert, I am NOT your religious leader/ your religious “anti-christ”/ your religious anything!  Not interested in any other aspect of social conception, either.  I am here, to tell you to change/ or the evidence says you will die soon! What you do with that information, is entirely your concern!  Go to court, and prove what your future holds/ make a choice, don’t be slaughtered!   Not interested in being interviewed/ not interested in leading you/ not interested in spending the last part of my life for you, UNLESS it is absolutely clear, that you are working for life first too!  It’s a choice.  Not your savior/ can’t rescue the children: its up to 7 billion people to make that decision;   NOT me.

 Your turn now, because we all have to “decide something”/ it is a part of living & it will be, a reality of dying.  No one escapes, you will decide something/ and eternity will remember “your truth”.   Some believe its “good to be sheep/ cause Jesus was called the lamb of GOD”.  THAT, is absurd/ because, it is merely a religious title, and has no meaning in reality.  HE DIED, revealing the tragedy of men in power/ and the possibility of life, honor, respect, and courage;   regardless of that power.  Even so, you can bet those too timid to believe or work for life first, WERE NOT “the best a human being could be”/ in HIS eyes.  Do you not agree?  Read better!  Some assume and say;   “I can do this, its too hard”/ because some are worthless, some are afraid, some are liars, some are simply selfish; but most are so busy living life that they refuse to believe SOMETHING must be paid back.  So they just shut their eyes and ears, and say, I WANT IT ALL!  Give me greed!  Take a look around, at all the greed.

As to the endless tragedy that is propaganda throughout this world, and especially in this USA, where the people are literally blind, deaf, and dumb as to their own reality.  The consequences of american life, are:   that these people do choose to give to various causes and believe they have given “great amounts” to charity, even though the “fruit of that charity is mostly rotten”.  The common cause here is:   give to an organization, which then does what it wants to with that money.  Although they advertize “great things”/ the reality of nearly all is theft, tragedy multiplied, and failure.  Some do, what they say they will do/ most give up. Irregardless the propaganda says “how great we are/ praise us”.  But the reality is nearly the same as hurricane Katrina victims in New Orleans; 107 billion dollars as of June 15, in that year;   given, to a population of currently 350,000 people=   $305,714.00 per person and very little to show for it.  “ nearly,  All stolen”, by one form or another.  And this is your own country, where you get as good a look as is possible to get.  DO YOU REALLY think, your money is not wasted, stolen, abused, fraudulently misrepresented, etc?  Grow up.  What you believe was money spent for aid/ was more likely money spent to buy influence/ upset markets/ change cultures/ buy resources for next to nothing, and set them up to fail.  Think not, then consider the atomic bombs set off in the forties & fifties around the world/ NOT TO deter violence or the threat of war: but to insist, FEAR US, OR we will incinerate you.  As always, it was a prelude to world war, if they could avoid the american people/ it was destroying life and world, without a cause that was not evil.   YOU are the most propaganda led nation, in the history of time.  You believe, so that you can say, “I am not responsible/ even though your money, your time, your nation, your resources and ability GENERATE the threat.  Your decision to give the power to others in america, consummates the reality of influences that build weapons of mass destruction. Your weapons are not deterrents, they are the cause of proliferation/ and you are no better than any other nation; a failure of an entire people, a disaster awaiting the end of this earth, because of YOUR arrogance. Not your savior/ your coffin!  Not to worry though, since the media keep you so well informed of everything you need to think/ damn good thing you don’t need a brain of your own.

Going to get rich in the stock market; just remember this, some accounting suggests: they sold roughly 700 trillion dollars of “products” around this world in 2008.  That would equal in a world of 7 billion human faces, $100,000.00 dollars per face on the planet!  Still think, “its fair, legitimate, and not simply the biggest fraud ever conceived by men”?  GROW UP/ WAKE UP/ or be dead.  It’s a choice.  As to the run up today, with very little volume the increases represent the very simple con game of common auctions where such things as horses, cars, etc go for very large amounts;   but they are traded between “insiders”/ who actually have the deal made prior to the sale.  Or more simply, “I will buy your horse for one million dollars/ if you take this other horse in trade” which means literally it wasn’t money they traded, but the influence of numbers, while looking or more correctly advertizing:   for “the DUMB MONEY”.  To actually pay the ransom, and lose.  The stock market continues to go up, because the players can borrow taxpayer numbers, at zero percent interest.  YOU are in the stock market/ and get nothing.  There is continued talk about tax increases, because “fools with money, are happy”, regardless of the fact they steal.  More money for legislatures will NOT help, because if there was actual responsibility for what they did/ these problems would not arise. Raise taxes higher, and they will just multiply that money and raise the debt higher still; “hell, don’t need to pay the interest/ fuck em again”.

Or lets review the ogalla aquifer that supports the growth of a billion bushels of grain or so every year here in america/ took 6,000 years to fill with water.  They expect it to be dry in less than ten years, and with it goes every bushel in some years when the dust bowl returns.  GO SEARCH for real/ answer the question, what then.   Or lets review the trillions of gallons being destroyed in every aspect of “cheap fuels”/ or polluted/ or about to be polluted.  The common theology of the future is, “nearly all agriculture will have to be irrigated”/ yet trillions of gallons are lost every year/ trillions of gallons are polluted every year/ trillions of gallons are in jeopardy of complete poisoning due to the pumping in or dumping on top of poisons.  But, “not a care in the world/ WANT ME, a damn new car; piss head, GET OUT OF MY WAY”.   Or a thousand other tragedies just waiting to descend for real; to take ALL life away.  NOT GODS VENGEANCE:    YOUR DECISION, THE WAYS OF MAN.  You do, stand at the gate of extermination/ and have no recourse once the point of no return is past.  The first and initial phase, is likely to begin this fall; because that is likely to see, the first violence of hate, the revenge initiated by stealing the lives, expectations, and hopes of millions, if not billions.  Or again, it may be that GOD simply has mercy on you/ and instead of HELL AND ARMAGEDDON, you will simply be destroyed by man’s experiments; the machines are running with more on the way, just takes one.  All gone, earth is dead.  Simple as that, because YOU didn’t care enough to stop it; in the days you could. You didn’t care enough about your children to give them a life in this future; YOU STOPPED caring, and said “GIVE ME EVERYTHING, before we all die”.  Literally surrendering the future, for greed.  After the fact “we’re dead” cannot be denied, it’s too late.  TO SURVIVE, this time, as a living breathing humanity in this day:   YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO USE YOUR BRAIN, for something other than want.  Shame on you, for having to be told, NOT to destroy life on earth.  Shame on you, for the pride that makes your heart so hard, you just don’t care/ or the fear that makes you hide from reality. An entire planet is threatened!  How can you not be called “a disgrace”!  You are leaders of the destruction of life on earth, an entire planet!  A superpower called satan/ because that is the name given to the leader of destruction, and lies! Your excuse, “I WANT to play god”.  Your reality:   I don’t want to share my life with life!  Yet so lonely and afraid, insanity is approaching.  Shame on you.  BUT ARE YOU ALONE, in this world?  HELL NO, with many wishing they could be you/ shame on this world!  Bastard’s and whore’s!  Find your heart and soul back/ or die without mercy, abandoned forever.

Yes, there is still a little male left in me/ and yes it does come demanding to be heard.  But the reality is very different, I seem to be separated into 3 distinct realities: male/ female/ and spiritual female.  All three with a specific purpose. What is male, being the least; doesn’t care about anything beyond the truth, that all these threats will make this world extinct, of life.  What is female cares about life, and living, and hope; wishing to be “kinder, gentler, and more compassionate”/ but allowing, if we do not survive, nothing else will matter. It is, too sad for me to consider all the tragedy that may come;   so male does that.  Spiritual woman has her own ways, and fundamentally owns this body; that is the simple truth, and she has plans for women to rule this world; I am somehow related to that work.  It is a strange world, my life continues to change.  

Just for the sake of helping you, a reference letter sent to others;
Since you have “a partnership” I address it to both

re:   friends in business

the foundation of every business is to make money/ simple as that. Fail to make money, and nobody is happy, because even if you are, someone else is not;   unless you have both agreed “this is what we will do, and understand the complications that will arise for both”.
That reality exists, because we all have living expenses, each wants or expects something from the money/ and the business is what makes the money.  If the money fails, then so does the partnership.  If the money intervenes, the friendship fails.  If the wrong decision is made, it affects both/ and as a consequence the friendship will fail, or there will be forgiveness where needed, and a change in the relationship so that does not happen again.

The primary reason friends go into business is because “I believe I can trust you/ and we are happy working together; what could go wrong”.  But in reality lots can go wrong/ if not the business, then sickness, outside relationships, debts, etc;   so it is never, or very rarely, as solid as expected.  Just how it is. Trust is a two way street, or more simply:   I believe you/ but if you fail to do what I did believe or you did say you would do; then I must adjust, and not believe you completely; because you failed or perhaps I did/ or perhaps someone did not understand correctly, or an alternate problem got in the way.  The only way friendships in business survive, is if all parties go ahead and say what it is that has become a problem here/ and all sides talk openly, honestly, without emotion, and the intent to respect each other, even when they are wrong.  Any problem that is dealt with honestly and in a disciplined (reality defined by truth) way, can be ironed out, if you do it in time.  Once the “pressure cooker” has exploded, or is about to explode; or more simply “WHY, did you fail me/ I needed this, or wanted this, or promised another because of you, etc”.  The possibilities of repair are far more difficult, because we don’t trust each other anymore; at least not like before. 
Consequently there are simple rules for friends in business
1.  Never lie to me, no matter what it is/ or we cannot survive, because trust is essential, wherever money itself does not intervene.  Or more simply, few complain if the money is good enough.  But all lies destroy something, and without truth nothing survives long.
2.  My life/ your life and a future for both, is tied together in this effort to establish a foundation for making a living that we can appreciate and afford.  Do not make decisions that will affect me, or could affect me, or can change what I need or depend upon to keep my life together.  When you cause trouble, by debts that I cannot then pay, it is cause for “double trouble” for me.
3.  Do not give away what is mine alone to give.  If you give something away, insure it is yours to give away/ or make sure you allow me to have my say in this matter.
4.  Do not change your mind after it is too late to change the reality we have just entered into.  A decision in business, is OUR decision to make, and after we do/ becoming dependent upon that decision for our future, DO NOT run away or hide.  Tell me quickly, so that whatever absolutely has to be done/ can be done now.  But do your best NOT to change what I am depending upon too.

5.  NEVER run away with the money (not even a little/ ASK, or tell; don’t let me question theft), even if you believe you have a right.  We are in this together, and you are not entitled to take more than the agreed upon amount without my direct permission/ just as I cannot do that to you either.  Don’t make me distrust you, don’t make me sad that I believed in you.
6.  The decisions that we make are dependent upon the understanding that exists.  That means, to the best of our ability we must make it clear to each other WHY I believe this is in our best interest/ and WHY you may not agree.  When that cannot be compromised, it is an arrangement that changes accordingly;  such as I wish to buy a tool/ you don’t, but agree that I shall be paid a rental fee or the like for use on our jobs or yours. 
7.  Our customers determine our success.  Consequently IT IS absolutely essential that our agreed upon consideration of the work, the environment, the cleanup, extra hours, etc must be based on what is our agreed upon decision, and we both have an equal responsibility.  Its not simply about the money, time is important too.  Risk is important, and must be addressed, because failure can be costly, or death.
8.  The difference between relationships that last a long time, or finish in just a few years is divided between 3 separate things: are we making enough money/   are we listening to each other, and not just playing “if you already know, what the other is going to say/ YOU ARE NOT listening”/ and respect.  Without respect, no relationship survives, not wives or husbands, nothing. 
9.  It takes only one bad decision, to cause trouble or kill a relationship or business.  Make certain you can not only agree, but are honest with each other and negotiate accordingly.  Being aware is a good thing/ making a decision for someone else is not. Nor is it allowable to force the other to accept your decision/ that is not respect. 

10.  Every business will run into the day things “went wrong”/ and must now redefine what we will do now.  That can be in personal life, accidents, someone didn’t pay, or other; IT DOES NOT MATTER.  What matters is, what the solution will be/ and what will be left, when the problem is resolved. 
11.  Never abandon the work to the other(s),   it is OUR responsibility, and when sharing is not realistic to the circumstances, the other will be angry.  Be fair, not unrealistic.
12.  Do what you say you will do/ BE HONEST about what you can or cannot do, and be specific; understanding an occasion may arise where the communication was not specific enough/ or was misunderstood.
13.  Remember, the customer is NOT always right.  If you do not wish to do the work, say so/ prior to making a commitment that is binding.  If you still wish to refuse, then know your legal position first.  The customer is always right, so long as you have agreed to do the work/ because it is their money: UNLESS it endangers someone, or will reflect badly on your own business. Then refuse.
14.  Sales is the most important part of the business until you are established enough that customers come to you.   If you cannot sell your work/ you cannot stay in business, even if you are the best; even if you are cheap.  Cheap does not help, unless the competition is so aggressive there is no money to be made here anyway. Be fair;   in line with the rest, if they are fair.  Fair is a realistic amount of work, in a fair amount of time/ at a price that will return the business needs plus, an average personal salary for the area.  Be fair with the work.  Be fair with the materials.  Be fair with the government, etc.  Be fair and informative with the customer, so they will remember you as wise enough, and friendly to them.  No one hires an enemy.

These are the basic considerations, perhaps they might assist you in some small way.
Jim Osterbur